Marvin.

[Marvin (Post-Falsettos) Rp acc!]

[marvin-cohen]

Hi.

My friends said it might help to have somewhere to- talk? About everything? I don't know. This is a last-ditch attempt at some sort of recovery.

My name is Marvin Cohen, I'm 45 years old, and 3 months ago- I lost my boyfriend, Whizzer Brown.

Yes, boyfriend. Don't like it? Fucking leave.

My friend Charlotte says that a new illness called "GRID" weakened his immune system and- yeah. She's a doctor, so I'm taking her word for it.

This blog is for me to just- talk. I guess. Talk about him. Talk about memories. Talk about the (frequent) bad days and the (rare) good ones.

I'll answer any asks that people may have, but I don't really know what questions there could be, so.

(admin/ooc under cut)

Guys. Don't let me make decisions after 4 am. /silly

So. Hi :3. My name is Grace, and I hate happiness apparently /j

VERY BIG TW FOR THIS WHOLE BLOG! Discussions of alcoholism, depression, period typical homophobia (1981), and death! Yay!

I literally just made this blog to make him depressed after act 2, so fuck around w him if you want! Send upsetting asks! Or any actually, I'm fine with any asks at all hehe :333

I am planning on killing this mf off eventually. I'm not saying when but uh. Yeah :3. If he ever seems like he's recovering know that something bad is happening... :DDDD

If anyone wants to interact w this acc as any of the other characters PLEASEEE feel free!!!!!

So uh. He's dead. Inactive account!

[0peratorr]

Hi!! I wanna get on vgen so I can offer commissions, but I need your help :3 Genuine comments + likes help the most :0 ( https://vgen.co/0peratorr :D)

Heres some recent works!! :3

[marvin-cohen]

(Ooc: hey guys! Last Post on here unfortunately- but not the last post to do with marvin :3 keep an eye on @/askalesbianfromnextdoor tomorrow evening- evil things are happening ehgehehhe)

[marvin-cohen]

oh my god he’s actually dead

(ooc: I SAID ID DO IT :3)

[marvin-cohen]

Is now the time to get back into c.ai and chat with marvin or should i mourn first?

-Your very lovely raccoon anon

(CAII NOOOOOO I CONDEMN C.AI </3 There are more falsettos rp blogs out there pinky promise! You could make ur own! Or check out my friends (very much alive) marvin blogs @/marvin-falsettos !!!!)

[marvin-cohen]

AHHHHHH CRYINGGGGG IM SO GLAD THAT HE DIED AT PEACE BUT MANNNNNN IM GONNA MISS HIM LIKE A REAL PERSON SIDHSBSNDBDBSND UGLY SOBBING

i was 🌷 btw 😔

I’m, like, thinking of him as a real person and I’m so sad and skssnsnsbndfvfuwkbfugh

(ooc: </3)

[marvin-cohen]

*kisses him*

-death

(Ooc: LMAOOO)

[marvin-cohen]

[Jason tentatively opened the door to Marvin's hospital room.]

D-daddy? Are yyou.. alive.. Please be alive..

[Tears bubbled in his tiny eyes, slowly approaching his dad.]

@jason-wuz-here

[Marvin had been lay there, struggling to breathe and trying to conserve his energy for a while. When he heard Jason come into the room he sat himself up quickly. He couldn't see his son very well, and his chest hurt, but damn if he wasn't gonna try his best to look strong.]

Oh sweetheart- come here-

[He held out his arms, pulling Jason into the biggest, strongest hug he could (which wasn't very big or strong at all)]

[jason-wuz-here]

[Jason immediately lunged into Marvins arms. He used to love those hugs. They felt like he could stay there forever, so warm and sweet. He thought he would they would never end. But everything ends, doesn't it Jason? This too. Him too.]

Please dont leave me. Please.

[marvin-cohen]

[Marvin held back a sob, and tried to focus on his son. He held onto him tightly, focused on the way his hair felt when he ran his hands through it. It had felt like Jason had been so grown up recently, but when he held his boy in his arms, it was like he was still just a baby]

I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. I love you so much-

[jason-wuz-here]

I love you. i love you so so so much dad you can't leave me you can't i need you. I can't do this without you-- please--

[Jason used to love God. He used to love going to the Jewish Center and hanging out with his parents and aunties on Hannukah and the Synagogue but.. Since Whizzer died.. Since Marvin was dying. How could he possibly love a god who clearly hates him? Jason prayed. He prayed for whizzer. He prayed for marvin every fucking night and it didn't work. God let his dads die, so why wouldn't he save Jason? He couldn't rely on god anymore. He had to rely on.. anyone else. Not his parents. He couldn't rely on them either. He couldn't know who would leave him next.]

[Jason started to cry.]

[marvin-cohen]

[Somehow- Marvin stopped himself from breaking down. He shushed Jason, holding him closer, somehow. He knew he hadn't been the greatest father, but he had loved his son with all of his heart. Jason was his whole world, on bad days he was the reason he kept going. His son, his boy, his life. And he was making him cry. He pulled back a little, wiping the tears off of his child's face and kissing his forehead.]

Go and get your mom for me kiddo, okay? I need you to wait outside- I love you. I love you so so much. I'm so proud of you. Be good okay? Eat your vegetables, listen to your teachers, make me proud.

[He wouldn't make his son watch him die]

[jason-wuz-here]

B-but you're gonna die! Dad!

[He practically pleaded. He felt like if he blinked his dad would be gone for good.]

Please, i'm not ready-- i can't do this without you i need you dad-

[Jason liked chess because it was a fun game. But he also liked chess because it was his dad. His dad taught it to him and he played with him. Marvin even bought him his first chess board. He would never get to play chess with his father again.]

[marvin-cohen]

[He didn't want to lie to his son- but Jason shouldn't have to see this. Almost every child buries their parent, but not this young. He shook his head, looking jason in the eyes, giving him another hug and a kiss on the forehead]

I'm- I'm not going anywhere okay? I just need to talk to your mother, I swear.

[jason-wuz-here]

Y-you promise?

[He buried his face into Marvin's chest worriedly, his tears staining the hospital gown.]

I love you, dad. You.. You can't die.

[Jason didn't have anything else to say. He was just scared. Scared of losing his dad. He was really just a scared kid. That's all he ever was.]

[marvin-cohen]

[Marvin hated lying to Jason- but he was tired, and doped up, and God he just couldn't hurt him anymore. Let him be mad after he was gone- he just needed his sons love right now]

I promise. Be brave for me, okay? I love you

[He said softly. He looked so small.]

[jason-wuz-here]

Mkay. I love you too dad. Always will.

[He sniffled and got up, heading to the door. He looked back somberly at his dying father. Worst part is he genuinely believed he would get to see him again.]

[marvin-cohen]

I love you too

[He watched Jason leave, drinking in the sight of him as beat he could. He would give anything to get to watch his son grow old- but he knew.]

[bananacarrotsuprisefan]

Marv? Jase.. Jase told me you needed to see me. What's wrong? Are you alright?

[She sat down beside him, pulling up a chair. Tears beaded in her eyes though she tried to remain calm.]

[marvin-cohen]

[Marvin let out a shaky breath, closing his eyes and shaking his head. He was tired, he just wanted to rest. He opened one eye a crack to look at Trina. Tears streamed down his cheeks as he began to sob]

I- I couldn't let him watch me die but I didn't wanna go alone- I'm sorry, trin. For everything-

[bananacarrotsuprisefan]

Oh, Marv. Hush, its alright. All is forgiven. Yknow he would have been okay to see you pass-- it's okay, i understand. I'm sorry Charlotte and Delia aren't here.

[She grabbed his hands and held them tight after trying to wipe away some of his tears.]

[marvin-cohen]

[He shook his head and closed his eyes, his breathing getting slower- his heart rate monitor also getting slightly slower]

I couldn't make him watch this-

[He opened his eyes to look at her, and when he spoke, his voice was barely a whisper]

I'm tired

[bananacarrotsuprisefan]

You're okay , Marv. Go to bed. I love you.

[She smiled faintly, thinkign about everything they've been through. From when they first started dating to now. It's always been them, hasn't it? It started with them and ends with them. Trina still loves him, in a different way. She couldn't not love him after all they've been through. Sure he's a bad person sometimes but he's trying his best. Isn't that the only thing we can do? Not that it matters much anymore.. Trina will miss him.]

[marvin-cohen]

[For once in his life, Marvin felt at peace. He felt his anger leave him, his sadness, his grief. He felt his worries vanish, his thoughts, his giddy seizures, he felt that all get left behind. Trinas words were just background noise, because all he could see was a bright light- and all he could think was Whizzer.

He went slack and flat lined, his grip on Trinas hand going loose]

[marvin-cohen]

[Jason tentatively opened the door to Marvin's hospital room.]

D-daddy? Are yyou.. alive.. Please be alive..

[Tears bubbled in his tiny eyes, slowly approaching his dad.]

@jason-wuz-here

[Marvin had been lay there, struggling to breathe and trying to conserve his energy for a while. When he heard Jason come into the room he sat himself up quickly. He couldn't see his son very well, and his chest hurt, but damn if he wasn't gonna try his best to look strong.]

Oh sweetheart- come here-

[He held out his arms, pulling Jason into the biggest, strongest hug he could (which wasn't very big or strong at all)]

[jason-wuz-here]

[Jason immediately lunged into Marvins arms. He used to love those hugs. They felt like he could stay there forever, so warm and sweet. He thought he would they would never end. But everything ends, doesn't it Jason? This too. Him too.]

Please dont leave me. Please.

[marvin-cohen]

[Marvin held back a sob, and tried to focus on his son. He held onto him tightly, focused on the way his hair felt when he ran his hands through it. It had felt like Jason had been so grown up recently, but when he held his boy in his arms, it was like he was still just a baby]

I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. I love you so much-

[jason-wuz-here]

I love you. i love you so so so much dad you can't leave me you can't i need you. I can't do this without you-- please--

[Jason used to love God. He used to love going to the Jewish Center and hanging out with his parents and aunties on Hannukah and the Synagogue but.. Since Whizzer died.. Since Marvin was dying. How could he possibly love a god who clearly hates him? Jason prayed. He prayed for whizzer. He prayed for marvin every fucking night and it didn't work. God let his dads die, so why wouldn't he save Jason? He couldn't rely on god anymore. He had to rely on.. anyone else. Not his parents. He couldn't rely on them either. He couldn't know who would leave him next.]

[Jason started to cry.]

[marvin-cohen]

[Somehow- Marvin stopped himself from breaking down. He shushed Jason, holding him closer, somehow. He knew he hadn't been the greatest father, but he had loved his son with all of his heart. Jason was his whole world, on bad days he was the reason he kept going. His son, his boy, his life. And he was making him cry. He pulled back a little, wiping the tears off of his child's face and kissing his forehead.]

Go and get your mom for me kiddo, okay? I need you to wait outside- I love you. I love you so so much. I'm so proud of you. Be good okay? Eat your vegetables, listen to your teachers, make me proud.

[He wouldn't make his son watch him die]

[jason-wuz-here]

B-but you're gonna die! Dad!

[He practically pleaded. He felt like if he blinked his dad would be gone for good.]

Please, i'm not ready-- i can't do this without you i need you dad-

[Jason liked chess because it was a fun game. But he also liked chess because it was his dad. His dad taught it to him and he played with him. Marvin even bought him his first chess board. He would never get to play chess with his father again.]

[marvin-cohen]

[He didn't want to lie to his son- but Jason shouldn't have to see this. Almost every child buries their parent, but not this young. He shook his head, looking jason in the eyes, giving him another hug and a kiss on the forehead]

I'm- I'm not going anywhere okay? I just need to talk to your mother, I swear.

[jason-wuz-here]

Y-you promise?

[He buried his face into Marvin's chest worriedly, his tears staining the hospital gown.]

I love you, dad. You.. You can't die.

[Jason didn't have anything else to say. He was just scared. Scared of losing his dad. He was really just a scared kid. That's all he ever was.]

[marvin-cohen]

[Marvin hated lying to Jason- but he was tired, and doped up, and God he just couldn't hurt him anymore. Let him be mad after he was gone- he just needed his sons love right now]

I promise. Be brave for me, okay? I love you

[He said softly. He looked so small.]

[jason-wuz-here]

Mkay. I love you too dad. Always will.

[He sniffled and got up, heading to the door. He looked back somberly at his dying father. Worst part is he genuinely believed he would get to see him again.]

[marvin-cohen]

I love you too

[He watched Jason leave, drinking in the sight of him as beat he could. He would give anything to get to watch his son grow old- but he knew.]

[bananacarrotsuprisefan]

Marv? Jase.. Jase told me you needed to see me. What's wrong? Are you alright?

[She sat down beside him, pulling up a chair. Tears beaded in her eyes though she tried to remain calm.]

[marvin-cohen]

[Marvin let out a shaky breath, closing his eyes and shaking his head. He was tired, he just wanted to rest. He opened one eye a crack to look at Trina. Tears streamed down his cheeks as he began to sob]

I- I couldn't let him watch me die but I didn't wanna go alone- I'm sorry, trin. For everything-

[bananacarrotsuprisefan]

Oh, Marv. Hush, its alright. All is forgiven. Yknow he would have been okay to see you pass-- it's okay, i understand. I'm sorry Charlotte and Delia aren't here.

[She grabbed his hands and held them tight after trying to wipe away some of his tears.]

[marvin-cohen]

[He shook his head and closed his eyes, his breathing getting slower- his heart rate monitor also getting slightly slower]

I couldn't make him watch this-

[He opened his eyes to look at her, and when he spoke, his voice was barely a whisper]

I'm tired

[marvin-cohen]

(Hands Marvin a tulip, which given that their emoji is a tulip might be some sort of manslaughter)

-🌷

Ha- thsnk you

[marvin-cohen]

🌷 anon is really doing everything for me. I just.. ive never done this before im sorry. Youre a great man Marvin. You always have been always will be. Maybe you were an asshole a few years back but we all are sometimes. You changed yourself and thats what matters. And if you haven’t helped anyone, well you helped me through stuff. Thats what matters. You helped others im sure, i dont know much about your personal life but from what youve said, Whizzer seemed pretty damn happy to be with you. And, if this is anything to make you feel even slightly better, at least you get to see him soon right? Im sorry for everything that’s happened to you, no one deserves that especially not you. Youll be okay.

Love you (/p) -🦝 (final ask i swear)

G-d- thank you cai- I'm so sorry- fuck...

You're a good kid- you've helped me more than I can say.

I love you too.

[marvin-cohen]

Im really gonna miss you. Can I give you a flower?

-🌷

I- mmmhm. Tthank you

[marvin-cohen]

I hope you don’t die feeling guilty about anything. You don’t have to say sorry for passing away, it’s not your fault at all. There are so many others like you. You’re not alone. You’re a good person with good intentions and Whizzer loved you so much and your family cares so much about you and we care so much. Please know how loved you are, Marvin.

-🌷

Tthank you- m just- so tired...

This is- a really needed to hear it. Thank you

[marvin-cohen]

Shit, at least you’ll see Whizzer and you saw your son

Mmmhm.

[marvin-cohen]

[Jason tentatively opened the door to Marvin's hospital room.]

D-daddy? Are yyou.. alive.. Please be alive..

[Tears bubbled in his tiny eyes, slowly approaching his dad.]

@jason-wuz-here

[Marvin had been lay there, struggling to breathe and trying to conserve his energy for a while. When he heard Jason come into the room he sat himself up quickly. He couldn't see his son very well, and his chest hurt, but damn if he wasn't gonna try his best to look strong.]

Oh sweetheart- come here-

[He held out his arms, pulling Jason into the biggest, strongest hug he could (which wasn't very big or strong at all)]

[jason-wuz-here]

[Jason immediately lunged into Marvins arms. He used to love those hugs. They felt like he could stay there forever, so warm and sweet. He thought he would they would never end. But everything ends, doesn't it Jason? This too. Him too.]

Please dont leave me. Please.

[marvin-cohen]

[Marvin held back a sob, and tried to focus on his son. He held onto him tightly, focused on the way his hair felt when he ran his hands through it. It had felt like Jason had been so grown up recently, but when he held his boy in his arms, it was like he was still just a baby]

I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. I love you so much-

[jason-wuz-here]

I love you. i love you so so so much dad you can't leave me you can't i need you. I can't do this without you-- please--

[Jason used to love God. He used to love going to the Jewish Center and hanging out with his parents and aunties on Hannukah and the Synagogue but.. Since Whizzer died.. Since Marvin was dying. How could he possibly love a god who clearly hates him? Jason prayed. He prayed for whizzer. He prayed for marvin every fucking night and it didn't work. God let his dads die, so why wouldn't he save Jason? He couldn't rely on god anymore. He had to rely on.. anyone else. Not his parents. He couldn't rely on them either. He couldn't know who would leave him next.]

[Jason started to cry.]

[marvin-cohen]

[Somehow- Marvin stopped himself from breaking down. He shushed Jason, holding him closer, somehow. He knew he hadn't been the greatest father, but he had loved his son with all of his heart. Jason was his whole world, on bad days he was the reason he kept going. His son, his boy, his life. And he was making him cry. He pulled back a little, wiping the tears off of his child's face and kissing his forehead.]

Go and get your mom for me kiddo, okay? I need you to wait outside- I love you. I love you so so much. I'm so proud of you. Be good okay? Eat your vegetables, listen to your teachers, make me proud.

[He wouldn't make his son watch him die]

[jason-wuz-here]

B-but you're gonna die! Dad!

[He practically pleaded. He felt like if he blinked his dad would be gone for good.]

Please, i'm not ready-- i can't do this without you i need you dad-

[Jason liked chess because it was a fun game. But he also liked chess because it was his dad. His dad taught it to him and he played with him. Marvin even bought him his first chess board. He would never get to play chess with his father again.]

[marvin-cohen]

[He didn't want to lie to his son- but Jason shouldn't have to see this. Almost every child buries their parent, but not this young. He shook his head, looking jason in the eyes, giving him another hug and a kiss on the forehead]

I'm- I'm not going anywhere okay? I just need to talk to your mother, I swear.

[jason-wuz-here]

Y-you promise?

[He buried his face into Marvin's chest worriedly, his tears staining the hospital gown.]

I love you, dad. You.. You can't die.

[Jason didn't have anything else to say. He was just scared. Scared of losing his dad. He was really just a scared kid. That's all he ever was.]

[marvin-cohen]

[Marvin hated lying to Jason- but he was tired, and doped up, and God he just couldn't hurt him anymore. Let him be mad after he was gone- he just needed his sons love right now]

I promise. Be brave for me, okay? I love you

[He said softly. He looked so small.]

[jason-wuz-here]

Mkay. I love you too dad. Always will.

[He sniffled and got up, heading to the door. He looked back somberly at his dying father. Worst part is he genuinely believed he would get to see him again.]

[marvin-cohen]

I love you too

[He watched Jason leave, drinking in the sight of him as beat he could. He would give anything to get to watch his son grow old- but he knew.]

[bananacarrotsuprisefan]

Marv? Jase.. Jase told me you needed to see me. What's wrong? Are you alright?

[She sat down beside him, pulling up a chair. Tears beaded in her eyes though she tried to remain calm.]

[marvin-cohen]

[Marvin let out a shaky breath, closing his eyes and shaking his head. He was tired, he just wanted to rest. He opened one eye a crack to look at Trina. Tears streamed down his cheeks as he began to sob]

I- I couldn't let him watch me die but I didn't wanna go alone- I'm sorry, trin. For everything-

[marvin-cohen]

what was one of your happiest moments with him?

Every day. When I woke up early nd saw that handsome face bathed in the early sunlight nd I knew I was the luckiest man in the world. I hope to god I see him soon

[marvin-cohen]

rag in small ways. did you wish that i could know you’d fade to some place i wasn't brave enough to go? i hope you threw a brick right into that stained glass. i hope you're with someone who isn't scared to ask. i hope that you're not losing sleep about what's next or about your soul and what He might do with it.

-✝️

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