MS

Amess

[masochisticallysadistic]

Why do these insects fly?

When they can never escape the birds?

Why does this man walk?

When his time is running out?

Why do I walk these trails, knowing where they end?

[masochisticallysadistic]

I'm always looking,

in the grains of sand at this beach,

around the corner just up ahead,

in the background of every photo I take,

in the scent of old clothes that I keep,

in every night that I dream,

I'm looking for you,

you may never appear again,

But I'm looking.

[masochisticallysadistic]

The water you drink is muddled with the blood of people you've never met,

And as the crimson color stains your teeth you smile,

Because your belly is full of their hearts and bones,

And the bile in your stomach is strong enough to consume it all,

You burp and shit their remains,

As you shyly cover your face and dig holes for your feces,

Floss your teeth with their hair and warm yourself with their skin,

You have no choice but to live like this,

As the next corpse is thrown down into the pit,

You smile up at the reflection of yourself in their gold braces,

Eventually, you believe, you may shovel up enough for them to throw down a pair for you,

But how many bodies will you have consumed by then?

How many bodies did they consume?

But deep down in that pit you know,

You're next.

[masochisticallysadistic]

amidst the chaos,

all of a sudden,

waves of peace,

[masochisticallysadistic]

this malice isn't love,

this anger isn't hate,

My feelings are all inward,

with a gun pointed at my temple,

I try to push you out of my mind.

[masochisticallysadistic]

Cursed to see blinding scenes,

There is no use hitting the switch,

Every frame rolls out of my mind,

Flicking, Clicking, Stinging me,

on the edge of my lips,

on the tip of my tounge,

A feint bliss unadulterated,

Sealed away from it all,

perfectly frozen moments,

that I can never have again,

not for the lack of mirrors,

There is always a semblance,

a fading echo that could only be felt.

[masochisticallysadistic]

Alone upon my mountain,

fleeting images of being chased,

race through and away again,

but my fire burns, the stars shine,

Here I can only be replaced by I.

[60sbabydoll]

[masochisticallysadistic]

[remanence-of-love]

[masochisticallysadistic]

I will always love despite suffering.

[masochisticallysadistic]

The days just don't connect anymore.

Yesterday has nothing to do with today,

Tomorrow will go the exact same way,

Thinking feels more real than being,

Dreams are more real as I live half asleep,

Daydreaming through an entire day,

Trapped within a vessel without controls

[masochisticallysadistic]

Only ever knowing hatred through the amount of love I'd be without

[masochisticallysadistic]

I can't even remember the joy I used to feel

[masochisticallysadistic]

Learn. Record. Continue.

[masochisticallysadistic]

I hate a fucking I'm sorry

[masochisticallysadistic]

chocolates and almonds,

that's all it takes,

to get a smile on your face,

chocolates and almonds,

that's all it takes,

to remind me of your smile,

the bitterness of your taste,

Eating and holding and thinking,

of chocolates and almonds,

and that smile on your face,

that bitter taste,

of chocolates and almonds,

that I cannot escape.