41, for ji ying from shiro
meme: In honor of SPOTIFY WRAPPED, send me a number 1-100 and I’ll write you a starter drabble based on the song.
41: Life to Fix by The Record Company
I like the way I feel
I'm all night, close that deal
I'm all alone, it's all I know
Singing along with the radio
Ji Ying has spent his life bouncing from one relationship to another sporadically ( never carelessly, but never having given anything enough time to mean something because he’s terrified of having a heart that grows roots ) but he’s a romantic, and sometimes being alone is hard. More often than not, he’s the life of the party, the one who shimmers in the limelight, a sort of mischievous joy and ethereal glow surrounding him that draws people in. He takes advantage of it too. Half a dozen pranks of his should have gotten him arrested in the last two years alone, and yet...
But they’re all sunshine friends. When the façade cracks and Ji Ying isn’t lit up at the party that evening, the group wanders off to go find other entertainment for the night. He can’t blame them ; he would have done the same in their place. It still hurts, though. He nurses a beer, staring out at the moon from the porch where he doesn’t have to be inundated by the laughter of the people within. He should go home, he thinks, but a tune on the radio catches his attention just enough to draw a wry smile. Goddamn catchy love songs, he thinks, humming just slightly, when another figure joins him.
“Seat’s taken,” Ji Ying jokes automatically, despite a lack of any sort of chair outside. He turns to look and Shiro looks luminescent in the moonlight. Ji Ying blinks, feeling a little like he’s looking at an illusion. “Sorry, I’m... not myself tonight. Should I leave you alone out here?”
“No, no. The air’s nice.”
Ji Ying’s brow furrows. That wasn’t an answer to his question. “I was... well, I might head home... you can join me if you like. Y’know.” He attempts a smirk. “Nothing like a little horizontal tango to —”
“You don’t have to do that,” Shiro interrupts. “You don’t have to feel obligated to —”
“It’s not! I’m not. You’re just really cool and I know you think my body is nice, so, uh... yeah.”
“I think a lot of you is nice. You’re clearly not feeling this party, so let’s get out of here, but not for that reason, okay?”
There’s a long pause, something squirming desperately in Ji Ying’s stomach as he looks at Shiro, and then he drops his gaze. “Okay,” he says quietly, barely a whisper. “Okay. I just, I promise I’ll be fine soon, so please don’t stop liking me yet?”