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I spent 17 years of my life focused on making her happy and being a good father. But the whole time she wasn’t focused on us. How do I tell my kids that their mother doesn’t want them? Who do I turn to now? Where is my friend? My partner. My other half.

I know I’ll raise my children good. I know that they will become upstanding individuals. But they need a mother. Someone to teach them things that only a mother can do. I certainly don’t know what to expect for them. I guess I’ll have to get a book.

I’m lost in this world without a compass.

I believe that everyone gets one perfect person that completes them in every way. I thought I had found mine. If your out there, and by chance your reading this. Say hello. Know that I’m looking for you too.

I guess I’ll just wait and see what the future might hold.

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“I think hell is something you carry around with you. Not somewhere you go.”

— Neil Gaiman, The Sandman, Vol. 8: Worlds’ End

Lost and alone.

It is always funny how some people prioritize their life. One would think that children would be number one. But instead they are put in the back and forgotten about. All because of 10,000 more a year and 5,000 miles away. Good for her. I thought 2 houses and never having to worry about bills was enough.

I thought coming home to someone who adores you in every way was enough. I also thought 17 years 3 kids and vows might have ment something. Guess not.

You broke my heart and yet I wish you the best of luck.

I know you are reading this. You know who you are. I hope you find what your looking for. I hope all your dreams come true. But don’t come back. Don’t turn around. We will be just fine. Our kids will cry. I’ll hold them at night. I’ll fill in all the empty spaces you have created.

Good bye my love. I’ll never forget the lifetime we had together. I’ll always love you for the 3 miracles you have created. But this door is locked now. I’m moving forward for me and the minions.

Good luck.

You think we could have fun

Depending on what your looking for.