WHAT I REALIZED AFTER I WENT FROM ROCK BOTTOM THAT IS NOW MAKING SENSE
I had a journey with ING, itās one of my best experiences, itās a solid one, my growth came from them, ING was really my safest place, I left ING with a lot of regrets, a lot of things that I supposed to do but didnāt do and Blueberry actually happened.
I left ING that I had only one desire when I found my new work: to FIND PEOPLE THAT I CAN BE BELONG WITH, THAT I CAN MAKE MY WORK FRIENDS MY ACTUAL FRIENDS.
I found them. And maybe, thatās it. I didnāt pray for much stability or even a growth. Blueberry was just a biggest lesson for me that I canāt really find friends in the workplace. You canāt truly find one from them after-all itās a competition, maybe you can find one in there but maybe itās not for me. It was a solid 1 year experience, itās exciting because of those people. But yeah, realizing it now, thatās the only purpose why I stayed there. For them. Because the moment that I felt not belong to them, that I felt neglected by them due to what happened to me, I felt that they didnāt really care at all, Iām just belong because Iām okay, Iām performing well but during my lowest lowest moment of my life. Where are they? None. Alone.
And maybe thatās the reason why God removed it. He removed me to Blueberry because itās not healthy anymore. He gave me a lesson. Blueberry was a lesson for me. Now, itās making sense.
This moment of waiting. June, July, August, first week of September. Itās really the lowest part of my life so far. I didnāt even know how we survived that time. But, itās true: kapag kailangang kailangan, ibibigay niya. Totoong totoo āto kasi during those times, the exact what we need, dumadating. Tamang oras. Tamang pagkakataon. Hindi ako pinabayaan kahit pakiramdam ko noon, iniwan ako. But, itās not really the thing. Itās the devil speaking to me because: He saw something really great in the future. Imagine giving up, if I am not being relieved by Godās grace, i might not able to face what Iām facing right now. Thank you Lord for sending graces since then. Itās really your divine protection.
God actually made one of my dreams come true; to have my own place. He made it all possible before Iāll lose Blueberry. He prepared it already because He knows Iāll be working from home to the work heās about to bless me.
He made me experience Thailand, to travel, to ride on a plane, another dream come true he fulfilled because He gave me something to look forward to when I regain work again.
God didnāt let me go through final interviews and even ended easily at the first-second stages because He knew that if things progresses Iāll accept it early on. He actually considered from then on my attitude and how I think. If all rejections didnāt happen, I wouldnāt learn. That everything happened because it needed to happen to make way to all the things that meant to happen that Iāll be beautiful when itās the right time. And indeed, it is very beautiful.
2019, I talked to my manager saying I wanted to pursue my UIUX path, because I love designing, but he said, focus on your development skills first, but little did I know, the work he actually prepared to me now, Is I get to design, explore and even build develop websites, which what I really love to do.
A lot of rejections from the companies and little did I know, Iāll research about them on my first day because itās a competitor to my current companyās business: that I get to do better than those companies.
And, imagine, almost 4 months of being unemployed, and, imagine, He gave me the salary that I missed. The salary that I didnāt received, He blessed me that. Right before I accept the Job offer.
Iām actually in awe right now, that all this time God never abandoned me. He actually prepared everything. He made sure that everything will be beautiful in His time. Indeed, thank God my plans didnāt happen because whatās happening now is actually 1000x better what I just want for me. I was ready to settle to just anything before but God made a way to make it. It His all grace.
I kept thinking before that I got the employment kay ING on the same day and first interview because of Luck, but all along, itās not. Itās really His grace. All this time, my career journey is about His grace. Up to now, my 7 years of employment journey is about Him, and I wanted it to be for Him.
September is really my redemption month. Is my favorite month. Imagine I got first employment Sept 10, 2018, i resigned to blueberry at May 22, 2025. I started my first day today, September 22, 2025. You are really something, God. It was you, all along.
My prayers is that, I hope I can do things right. And serve him more. That I have a secured mind and heart to finally take good care of His gift and blessings. That I can also share it everyone. That I can also be a blessing to the other people. That when time comes that I fix my finances, I get to help others as well. To show praises to Him.
And lastly, a letter to the past and future Xy:
What you went through was big, it was real, it was painful. It was dark, but Itās worth it right? Itās meant to happen anyway for you to learn your lessons. For you to wake up, for you to make things right after. Iām proud of you and I will always be. You ticked-off some of your dreams already, in this stage, thereās a lot of prayers answered always remember that. It will serve as a reminder that you are doing a great progress. Donāt forget to look back to see that youāve accomplished many things already. And, always thank yourself for that.
To Xy tomorrow or in the future,
I hope you know whatās the biggest secret of survival: it is to Pray and Trust. It will always that. God loves you so much not to abandon you. You may not understand things spot on but in the near future, it will be. I pray that you give back to the most deserving one of this. I hope you never stop praying and thanking God everyday. That when you get to face rock bottom again, know that Waiting season is the best season because you get to feel and learn a lot and when itās harvest time; itās a real harvest time. When waiting season is coming, know that, itās not just something good, but itās something best always for as it aligns with Godās will and direction. Know that, God will always be your best friend, your backup. Never forget that. I hope you guard your mind and heart to protect and handle Godās blessings accordingly. And, know, everything will always be okay and be better in Godās time. And always make sure you back yourself up. And your future self will always thank you for and proud of you.
All Glory and Thanks To You, Lord. š


















