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Mateo Cardenas. Eighteen "I am a series of small victories and large defeats and I am as amazed as any other that I have gotten from there to here."

[mateocardenas]

[clareyfray]

zodiac aesthetics - Cancer

nurturing, caring, clingy, moody, irritable, sensible, cautious

[onlytwitterpics]

[thestarsandskies]

Knox swerved away from the cup letting out a sigh as his eyes darted up the to guy who he collided with. “It’s fine bro, just look where you’re going yeah?” He said straightening out his suit carefully.

[mateocardenas]

His grip on the cup tightened immediately, and the brunet nodded. ‘You’re not a statue Mateo, say something.’ He reminded himself silently as he pursed his lips into a small smile. “I’ll t-try not to, th-that would be a um -- a nightmare if it h-had happened. I w-wouldn’t suggest the punch anyways t-to be honest, Hailey k-kind of confirmed that it t-tastes pretty bad.” He rambled on, placing the cup safely on the table behind him. “You l-look good, by the way.” 

[anniewtvr-blog]

Anybody else and Annie–particularly in her current mood–would have snapped. When she saw that it was Mateo, however, who had nearly spilled a cup of punch on her Valentino dress, her shoulders relaxed a little bit. “You’re lucky that didn’t happen,” she said with a soft smile, reaching out to lightly pat his cheek before letting out a genuine laugh. “I don’t know if we could’ve stayed friends if you’d ruined this dress.” Letting her eyes drop so she could take in his full outfit, she nodded her approval. “You look so nice, Teo, I’m so happy you came tonight.” And avoiding the cup in his hand, she moved forward to wrap her arms briefly around his neck in a tight hug. “Kind of disappointed you didn’t ask that junior, but we’ll have plenty of time to work on that this summer,” she teased.

[mateocardenas]

Seeing Annie was a relief of sorts -- one that a few months ago, he would have found more anxiety inducing than anything else. It was funny how time seemed to play out, as the blonde stood before him today was easily one of the people he trusted the most in the world. “Th-that dress was probably w-worth more than my entire w-wardrobe, I’m pretty s-sure.” He admitted, glancing down to take in the sight of the blonde and the expensive dress he’d narrowly missed ruining. “You look r-really pretty, Annie. Are y-you having fun?” A short laugh left his lips, followed by an rosy blush which colored his cheeks. “I d-don’t know him well enough a-anyways. And I’m l-leaving for Uni in th-the fall, I doubt it w-would work anyways. Even if he’s p-pretty attractive. How is Eric, th-though?” 

[mercerreaves-blog]

“I’ve never been a big one for formal events, but this doesn’t look too bad. Maybe we’ll actually have some fun.”

[mateocardenas]

“I didn’t even kn-know there were so many options f-for suits, to be honest.” He admitted, a shaking his head at the memory of the ridiculous amount of time he’d spent looking for one to rent. “I almost h-hope it doesn’t, mostly b-because the usual s-suspects will probably get into t-trouble.” 

[mattfosss]

Matthew was so nervous. His hands were shaking and he kept pulling at his tie. He’d never been to one of these big school dances before and his first time made him shake. He’d been hiding out on the sidelines, watching everyone dance for a while before he ran into someone- literally. “Oh, I’m- I’m really sorry,” Matt nervously laughed.

[mateocardenas]

Never having been one for crowds, Mateo had found himself blending in with the background despite the awareness that it was counterproductive if he were to have attended as it was. As such, it wasn’t entirely surprising that another classmate had managed to bump into him in the end. “O-oh no! It’s um, it’s n-not an issue. I sh-should have been paying attention t-too.” He admitted, an embarrassed blush coloring his cheeks as he spoke. “D-don’t worry about it.” 

[its-bomendez-deactivated2016101]

“This may be the weed talking or the fact I’ve got at least three people willing to sneak off with me tonight but i’m actually enjoying myself.” Bo beamed, stopping her motions to turn to the person beside her. “Come on, dance with me or we can do whatever you want?”

[mateocardenas]

“W-weed?” His eyes widened slightly, more surprised by Bo than anything. The faint concern on his features faded away however, upon the sight of his best friend smiling for the first time in a long time. “I’m g-glad you’re um -- you’re h-having fun.” Am embarrassed blush rose to his cheeks upon the realization of what she was asking, and he shrugged his shoulders. “I’m n-not really that g-good of a dancer though, Bo..” 

[mateocardenas]

T E X T*&& -- o p e n

Graysen: funny story haha

Graysen: I'm not coming to prom

Mateo: What? 😧

Mateo: Is something the matter? What happened?

[mateocardenas]

◤ ✕ ° › TEXT: OPEN

Hayden: Stay safe, stay beautiful & don't forget to use protection, kids.. :~)

Mateo: Haha was this a mass text?

Mateo: I'm probably not someone that you'll need to worry about to be honest, I chickened out of asking who I wanted to ask anyways.

Mateo: You too, though!

[haileyhyfr-blog]

“Is it just me or does this punch taste like piss?” Hailey scrunches her nose up, handing the cup to the other for a sip. “I should’ve just jumped on the bandwagon and brought my flask.”

[mateocardenas]

Mateo’s eyes widened slightly upon hearing her words, and his gaze flickered down to the cup in his hands in surprise. “I’m n-not too sure, actually.. I’ve k-kind of been u-using it as a prop th-this whole time.” He admitted, curiosity causing him to bring it up to his lips to the cup -- followed by an immediate wince once he felt the liquid hit his lips and swallowed. “I f-feel like they’re um -- th-they’re trying to punish us or s-something. Alcohol m-might make everyone l-liable to get kicked out m-more likely to get kicked out, t-to be honest.” Which he thought silently, wasn’t a horrible prospect now that it had crossed his mind.

[mateocardenas]

Prom. It was the end all, be all in high school -- wasn’t it? A few months ago the brunet might have considered skipping out altogether, but it seemed that time had a funny way of unravelling before their eyes. The brunet adjusted the cuffs on his suit, his gaze flickering towards the crowd as he turned with a cup of punch clutched in his hands. This seemed to be a bad move however, as he found himself almost colliding with a classmate almost instantaneously, watching in barely muted horror as the contents of his cup almost made contact with the other’s outfit of choice for the day. “I -- Oh m-my god, I’m s-so sorry..” He called out, a faint sigh of relief emitting from his lips once he’d realized it had narrowly missed ruining the other’s clothes.

[mateocardenas]

✧

I would kill you. ✧ I would physically hurt you. ✧ I would attack you unprovoked. ✧ I would manipulate you. ✧ I dislike you. ✧ You annoy me. ✧ You scare me. ✧ You intimidate me. ✧ I hope I intimidate you. ✧ I pity you. ✧ You disgust me. ✧ I hate you. ✧ I’m indifferent toward you. ✧ I’d like to get to know you better. ✧ I’d like to spend more time with you. ✧ I’d like to be friends with you. ✧  I’m unsure what to think of you. ✧ I’m unsure how I feel about you. ✧ You are my friend. ✧ You are my best friend. ✧ You are my mentor. ✧ I look up to you. ✧ I respect you. ✧ You are my hero. ✧ You inspire me. ✧ You are my enemy. ✧ You make me happy. ✧ I want to protect you. ✧ I would fight by your side. ✧ I consider you an equal. ✧ I think you are beneath me. ✧ I think you are above me. ✧ I would lie for you. ✧ I would lie to you. ✧ I would sleep with you. ✧ I would sleep by your side. ✧ I would hug you. ✧ I would kiss you. ✧ You are family to me. ✧ I would die for you. ✧ I would kill for you. ✧ I would trust you with my life. ✧ I would trust you with my most precious belonging. ✧ I would trust you with a secret. ✧ I would trust you with my biggest / darkest secret. ✧ I love you (platonically). ✧ I love you (romantically).

[mateocardenas]

✧

I would kill you. ✧ I would physically hurt you. ✧ I would attack you unprovoked. ✧ I would manipulate you. ✧ I dislike you. ✧ You annoy me. ✧ You scare me. ✧ You intimidate me. ✧ I hope I intimidate you. ✧ I pity you. ✧ You disgust me. ✧ I hate you. ✧ I’m indifferent toward you. ✧ I’d like to get to know you better. ✧ I’d like to spend more time with you. ✧ I’d like to be friends with you. ✧  I’m unsure what to think of you. ✧ I’m unsure how I feel about you. ✧ You are my friend. ✧ You are my best friend. ✧ You are my mentor. ✧ I look up to you. ✧ I respect you. ✧ You are my hero. ✧ You inspire me. ✧ You are my enemy. ✧ You make me happy. ✧ I want to protect you. ✧ I would fight by your side. ✧ I consider you an equal. ✧ I think you are beneath me. ✧ I think you are above me. ✧ I would lie for you. ✧ I would lie to you. ✧ I would sleep with you. ✧ I would sleep by your side. ✧ I would hug you. ✧ I would kiss you. ✧ You are family to me. ✧ I would die for you. ✧ I would kill for you. ✧ I would trust you with my life. ✧ I would trust you with my most precious belonging. ✧ I would trust you with a secret. ✧ I would trust you with my biggest / darkest secret. ✧ I love you (platonically). ✧ I love you (romantically).

[mateocardenas]

✧

I would kill you. ✧ I would physically hurt you. ✧ I would attack you unprovoked. ✧ I would manipulate you. ✧ I dislike you. ✧ You annoy me. ✧ You scare me. ✧ You intimidate me. ✧ I hope I intimidate you. ✧ I pity you. ✧ You disgust me. ✧ I hate you. ✧ I’m indifferent toward you. ✧ I’d like to get to know you better. ✧ I’d like to spend more time with you. ✧ I’d like to be friends with you. ✧  I’m unsure what to think of you. ✧ I’m unsure how I feel about you. ✧ You are my friend. ✧ You are my best friend. ✧ You are my mentor. ✧ I look up to you. ✧ I respect you. ✧ You are my hero. ✧ You inspire me. ✧ You are my enemy. ✧ You make me happy. ✧ I want to protect you. ✧ I would fight by your side. ✧ I consider you an equal. ✧ I think you are beneath me. ✧ I think you are above me. ✧ I would lie for you. ✧ I would lie to you. ✧ I would sleep with you. ✧ I would sleep by your side. ✧ I would hug you. ✧ I would kiss you. ✧ You are family to me. ✧ I would die for you. ✧ I would kill for you. ✧ I would trust you with my life. ✧ I would trust you with my most precious belonging. ✧ I would trust you with a secret. ✧ I would trust you with my biggest / darkest secret. ✧ I love you (platonically). ✧ I love you (romantically).

[mateocardenas]

so brayden and annie's advice didn't work out for you?

“As much as I d-do love them.. Not r-really. Their a-advice wh-when put together doesn’t usually r-really do very much good. I do a-appreciate that they were t-trying, though. I’m just n-not really all that well suited for their er -- th-their methods.” 

[mateocardenas]

who do you hate the most in town?

“Th-that’s a um -- a tough one, I g-guess. There are plenty of p-people I dislike f-for one reason or another th-that’s usually related to being a-annoying, obnoxious, or o-overly dramatic. And th-the last time I said I h-hated someone.. Well, I um -- I c-can’t say I hate them at all anymore t-to be honest. And the only o-other person who I c-could have maybe said I h-hated.. I’m not too s-sure of that anymore either. I d-definitely still dislike that p-person, but maybe not hate.”