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@matou-u
Of course I’d like to be very wealthy and not work. Just create. But alas, I am very much into the Sisyphus philosophy of needing a challenge to solve. It seems in this life the challenge is to gain income without wanting to kill my self and to loose my insecurities in order to express myself. !!
Finished recording a new episode and I can’t help but feel so excited for this to just roll out naturally on the station I’ve linked with. Will talk about sw and sobriety and spirituality and creativity and I’m just content. It doesn’t feel like I’m starting a brand new huge task.. it feels like I’m just doing the next thing and a cool adventure. I’ve also been working more privately and it’s made me appreciate my time way more.
Perhaps also I’m just a touch lonely for friendships and relationships outside of this phone. This house. These meetings I attend.
I’m feeling really restless. Sick with the feeling of displacement. Where do I go. My sister just moved to NZ and it looks incredibly beautiful. I want to visit soon. I wonder if I should go back south to the cold but wild lands of TAS. I would like to stay here. Stay warmer. Maybe it’s just living in an apartment that gets very minimal sun.
I just need sun. Even in the south where I lived there was a deck that got sun all day. I miss having my own yard to find a patch to stay in. To do whatever I pleased. Be been looking into vans and things but they’re so expensive and none of them are set out with the kind of desk space or ergonomic efficiency I would need to not go insane. (Organisation is so important to me… if something doesn’t work systematically I’m very annoyed.. see previous comorbidity post)
Anyways I wonder if I should stop moving every 6-12 months or if i should stop fearing my version of wanderlust. I am beginning to really know what I do and don’t like and I don’t like the feeling I have right now for home. Simple? Actually also- I think more than a yard I want a yard/ field.
(Also my housemate doesn’t wash dishes properly and doesn’t ever vacuum)
Went to a meeting and picked up a paint brush.
all that to say, I'm very well and happy and just bumping along... but I still have all the traits of audhd type thing... honestly I miss having a partner for the sake of being able to do something so much easier with someone around me. I listen to podcasts consistently or audiobooks and sometimes can't start a focused task without listening to something I'm trying to pay attention to in the background..
okay I know we might be somewhat be in an over diagnosed world, but coming into my 3rd year sober and researching things a little more, I'm truely blown away by the information and identification I have with adhd and autism.. also c-ptsd and ocd.. just in a way that is kind of undeniable. or do all of things just show up as bpd? or is that only when you're heavily into drinking and drugs?
its just wild because I can actually point out several moments in my life and reoccurs throughout it. of course the autism- adhd overlap is very prominent and I suppose the c-ptsd/masking/addiction is clear..... idk... I'm not massive on the clinical diagnosis but the more I read Im lowkey blown away
Everything’s moving too fast. The money is moving slowly but all tides change I suppose.
