You're Safe Here.

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people don’t care about me. they care about how they feel being around me.

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i’m not sure where you’ve been but you landed in my lap at just the right time. i’ve never felt more sure.

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things don’t get better or worse they just change,

sometimes change is hard and sometimes it’s graceful

people will burn and turn on you in any moment

remember what got you here and that your feelings are real

forget the weight of the dead

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i’ll wait forever for you

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i really would be better off in the ground

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people don’t change, they just show their true selves.

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i feel like such an idiot for ever even deciding to enter your life

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i really don’t know how i went almost two years blinded like this but i am really so much happier. im doing things i want to do. my friends are supporting my interests. people are actually excited to see me and spend time with me. i’m falling in love with myself like i should’ve all along. love will do crazy things to you. thank you for leaving me. you were the worst thing to ever happen to me. i lost myself and i’m taking her back.

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nobody actually gives a damn about me

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it’s really refreshing to have someone that doesn’t give up on you

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really feeling like i need to just ghost the earth for a minute

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i feel like i am on top of the fucking world. i feel so accepted and loved. i’m really thankful.

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if you left that here please tell me who you are

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i’ll never be able to trust another soul

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i feel stupid and lost. i keep digging up old wounds and wishing i could’ve had things differently. but shitty people are still shitty. friends or not.

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can’t help but find myself reminiscing on times that seemed a lot simpler. i took a lot of time for granted. i’m older and wiser now. i’m sorry.

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i really need this cycle to stop. i really want to feel happy. i so badly want to feel okay and like i can breathe again.