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Introducing myself!!

hi! thought I’d start up a tumblr to share all the ramblings that have been sitting in my notes app for the past two years

about me: ENTP, she/her

fav 2025 reads: that’s all I know, the idiot, the echoes

fav artists: clairo, wallows <3

hobbies: guitar, reading, sketching, obsessively taking uquizzes, pinterest doom scrolling

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you blink and you go from analyisng the stair cinematography in Roma on tumblr to analyisng the stair cinematography in Roma for your spanish extended essay

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me a month and a half ago knowing my homeostasis sweet spot wouldn’t last long

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bernarda alba is highkey the same person as abby lee miller

both run a tyrannical all women establishment, which no one can leave - whether its due to martial shame or an iron clad contract - and both are constantly telling their young pupils/daughters to save their tears for the pillow

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one thing ms olivia LOVES to do is drop new music during exam season

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My favorite thing about The Drama is Rachel's character because she reminds me of the kind of young person online who thinks the mere act of performing disgust or outrage at the morally wrong actions of someone else is somehow politically productive at all, or that it makes them a "good person."

Whenever I see someone disregard or disparage ideas of rehabilitation for people who have done (or in this movie's case, almost did) unforgivable things, I want to grab them and ask "what should be done, then?" Because, people like that do exist, in spades, and short of executing or imprisoning or Black Mirror White Bearing every person who's done or thought of doing something immoral, rehabilitation is probably the best bet for minimizing harm, right? (And if your answer to immorality IS execution or isolation... i do not think youre really the more moral one here...) But even taking out any potential empathy for the humans who do or think of doing immoral acts, sometimes, giving them the tools to lead a happy and fulfilling life are the exact thing that leads them AWAY from the potential acts of like, shooting up a school, regardless of how undeserving you think they are of that.

Its especially interesting because, in the movie, Emma had arguably done way more activism against gun violence than Rachel ever did, despite her cousin, but this means nothing. Emma's primary motivation for her planned shooting was bullying and the isolation she felt (and TCC tumblr), but it was when she found friends and real community and something else to invest her energy into, she was able to pull herself out of those dark thoughts and, like, rejoin society. And what does Rachel do when she finds out? Spreads rumors, and tries to isolate her. And, I say this not to victim blame, but to acknowledge that no one makes those big decisions in a vacuum and that understanding these things better is a NECESSITY for preventing them, which should be the fucking goal; that is exactly the kind of behavior that made her want to do that when she was 15.

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if Shakespeare was born today he wouldn't have written the Merchant of Venice or Othello. he wouldn't need to, he could express his yearning for Venice through a carefully curated pinterest board instead

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my daily affirmation as an author

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"cigarette" implies the existence of a much larger "cigar"

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kind of love that the entire internet is under the impression that tumblr is dead. it’s like being part of a secret society

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The Drama (2026)

My main inhibition going into this film was the lack of chemistry, which felt apparent in promo, but I very quickly realized that this was deliberate.

The whole issue of the story is that these characters don't know each other, not really. One exposure is enough to destabilize their whole foundation, and make Charlie question everything he sees in Emma - the good, the empathy, becomes replaced with irrational anger in his eyes.

The beginning of the film is tooth-rottingly sweet, but there is an underlying awkwardness that makes it seem unsettling. Their interactions feel stilted, and purposefully so, because these characters are not truly relaxed around one another. The shoe hasn't dropped yet, and it translates into their chemistry.

When we see the cracks in their relationship, when these characters remove their walls, THAT is when the actors work as a pair, because there's no hiding anymore. I still don't know how I feel about the ending scene - I see it as more of a begrudging realization that they are finally on the same level, atleast to others. They cannot fear about how the other person perceives them, because literally everyone else in the film judges them as an equally immoral pair.

I think this is what allows them to see each other. Not so much as a restart but an overdue recognition.

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fuck it we ball

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trying to relearn what made me succeed

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love leaving letterboxd reviews in languages im not that fluent in

like yes let me talk about la simbolisme in été 85 even though I haven't spoken french since last may... who needs to know that? certainly not my mutuals

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spent the past hour looking up silly little photos on pinterest for my silly little tumblr blogs I love being a teenage girl