Vulnerability
I hate when I begin feeling upset over something that's probably nothing. It's like no matter what I do or what is going to happen in the future, it's never good enough anymore. I hate when I feel jealous of others and I absolutely hate this point of my life. When my mom was my age, she was already in love and was busy. Then there's me at this age where I'm just sitting here doing the same things everyday and at night, sitting in my room on my phone or watching tv with my parents. It's like I have nothing to look forward to anymore unless it's a big event. I'm going to see my nonny Thursday, Poppy might come down here for spring break and in April I'm going to Florida. But that just still doesn't fill the emptiness that I always feel. Once again I'm tired of waiting for someone to come along and have feelings for me and say they love me and say that I mean everything to them. I attempted dating sights but I never came through with it because I end up giving up. I'm currently sitting in my room fighting my tears as I write this and I just really don't know wtf to do anymore. I've talked to my mom about how I feel all the time numerous times and I feel like I'm bothering her. She says I'm not but I know I do considering the fact that I go to her with the same problems. I hate feeling pissed over stupid stuff. It's to the point where everytime I see something I get anxious and jealous and angry. Idk anymore.
