Cupcakes And 5Ks

Megan - Age 25 - SW 203 - CW 197.8 - Height 5'3" Weight Watchers Personal blog - msdeanawinchester

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Kashi

A word about Kashi bars. I have the Dark Chocolate Coconut Kashi bars, and when I scanned them they came as 4SP. It also said it was 4SP for 2 servings. I felt like that was wrong, so I plugged in the nutrition info from the label. They are actually 5SP for 1 bar. Not only was the scanner saying it was 2 servings, but it wasn't even counting the 2 servings as the real point value. Be aware that the scanner might be wrong, and always double check when it sound too good to be true!

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January 7, 2015

Yesterday, I had a big NSV. As part of my Challenge, we get points every day for not eating sweets. Except you can only get points on 6 days because not eating sweets ever is not realistic. So yesterday, my office offered me a free lunch. Silly me, I took the lunch. I did watch myself though. I got the lunch with Pop Chips instead of regular, and I only ate half the giant sandwich (saving the rest). But it did come with a cookie, which I ate. Although the cookie was delicious, I felt like I should use the day I get no points for something more. Like it was my chance to have cheesecake and chocolate and ah! So after dinner I thought, well, maybe I will go get a candy bar. I looked it up, and decided on a Reese's Big Cup. I was in the parking lot of CVS (because I don't have any sweets at home right now), and I thought What am I doing? That one Reese's was going to be 9SP. 9SP I don't even have the Weeklies for. I talked myself out of it, drove home and had a Kashi Dark Chocolate Coconut bar. I feel really proud of myself for making a good choice. Even though my week is not turning out to be a perfect WW week, I have tracked and I have stuck with it. Hopefully it all pays off.

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Weigh-in Friday

Yesterday I completely forgot it was Friday until about 10am, but luckily I weigh every morning for accountability. I track my morning weight with the HappyScale app, which follows your average so you can balance out all the swings of day-to-day weight loss. I lost 1.5 lbs this week! I've been on the 8 Week Challenge for only 5 days, but I can already tell it's making me stay on the WW ship. (I was hoping for a really big loss bc people starting SmartPoints keep saying their first loss on SP was approx. 7lbs, but it's only been 5 days so I'm very happy with what I've got.) Start: 203.0 W1: 199.2 W2: 199.0 W3: 197.8 (5lb goal) W4: 185.5 W5: 197.3 W6: 195.8 Total= 7.2 lbs lost!

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January 4, 2016

Today marks the first day of what I call The 8 Week Challenge. In 2013, my sister and I embarked on our first ever 8WC (a weight loss points based game), and it turned out to be a success. We played 8WC for an entire school semester, extending the challenge into approx. 20 weeks. During that time I lost 15lbs by following the challenge combined with tracking via Weight Watchers. Now, we plan to do it again! At the end of May 2016, we are going on a cruise and I would like to set a goal for the same results as last time--15lbs by May 2016. We started by taking all our stats yesterday, and I am starting at 197.3. Hopefully by the end of May I reach 182.3. I feel like that goal number is still so much higher than I want to be, but I'm trying to stay positive and let the excitement of a new challenge fuel me.

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Weigh-in Friday

I forgot to do a Weigh-in Friday post for whatever reason. I’d like to say I had plans on Friday that prevented me from making a post, but honestly I went to Target and then home, so what I’m saying is I forgot. I did post on Connect about my loss though, so if you don’t follow me on there…you should. This week I lost 1.2lbs! I reached my first goal of 5lbs! ***** Then as you know from the post before this, it was a rough weekend of new programs and nights out. But that’s okay, I can do this. Next goal is 10lbs! Start: 203.0W1: 199.2W2: 199.0W3: 197.8 (5lb goal)

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December 13, 2015

I haven’t had a very good start to SmartPoints. Not that it has anything to do with the new plan. It’s definitely all me. 

Friday I went over points because I wasn’t used to the values. Then Saturday I went out with a friend and kind of shot my whole weekend. I have been off track since the change. I did track Friday and Saturday morning though, so it’s not the worst I could do. But you know what? I don’t feel bad about it at all. I had a really good time this weekend, and I’m not going to beat myself up over falling off. Instead I’ve already started tracking again, starting with dinner. All you can do is brush off the crumbs and keep going. 

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It's a whole new world...

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December 10, 2015

I'm determined to make today a better day. Yesterday, I stumbled a little. I let my inner fat kid rule me, and I had a cinnamon crunch bagel with cream cheese for breakfast. It took up so many points that I barely had any left for the rest of the day. So to balance it, I got a salad for lunch. Then I didn't eat all afternoon. (Hint: This was not the way to atone for the bagel.) By the time I left work and walked around Target for an hour, I was about to pass out. I felt so tired from not eating since noon that I could barely make words. So then I bought a sandwich to eat on my way home. I tried to make a good choice for dinner, but I was already out of points and I let my downfall get the better of me. I was kind of proud that I was trying though. And when I went home I had to bake cookies for a Christmas thing and somehow restrained myself to only eating 2. I know I shouldn't have had any of them, but to only eat 2 was a pretty big deal for me. I love sweets, and usually when I bake something I'm going to have at least half a dozen of them. So anyway, today is a new day. It's also my last day of PointsPlus. I'm a little scared about the change. I read you get half the weeklies and everything is a higher value. I want to be able to eat the bad things sometimes and not feel guilty, but I'm hearing that even morning coffee is costing a points fortune. For those who have switched what are your thoughts on the new plan?

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Aside from the yogurt mess, I'm sad there is no edit feature on connect to fix my typos. Is that what we are calling it, connect?

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December 7, 2015

Today has gone pretty well, I think. Didn’t eat anything crazy and have tracked all my points. I also had some NSVs, woo! At lunch I had Subway and I skipped the cookie. Then when the chips I got didn’t taste as great as I hoped I stopped eating them. (A leader once told me if it’s not delicious, it’s not worth it. It’s so true.) Then at dinner I only ate half my meat because I was not super impressed with it. My mom cooked and she tried to use pork in place of beef...it was not my favorite. 

After dinner I strolled through the new app features. I’m really excited about them. I like the new social tool. I used to follow a lot of blogs the first time I did WW, and got to know a lot of people. It gave me a good sense of community and support, which I lack IRL.

But more importantly, what the heck is Smart Points and what is going to change? AH! I’m only doing eTools, so I’m going to have to figure out what’s going on myself. My app hasn’t switched over yet, but I hear it’s coming. Help!

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So I feel like a hypocrite. Yesterday, I made a post about all my fears with online dating. Then this morning I wake up for find someone sent a message to my profile. First, I was happy and flattered. The I looked at who sent it, only to be disappointed. Not that he looked like a troll or something, but he was from states away, older, with children. All the things I do not want. But I guess I'll take the compliment. Even if it's from someone I was t expecting. So a polite thanks but no thanks, sir. Sigh, does it ever get easier?

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I’m a huge nerd and I actually paid for an account on Mouse Mingle today. I decided I wanted to try it out and if I don’t think it’s worth it, I can always cancel. 

But of course as soon as I set up this account the dive bomb of anxieties come over me. About how fat I look in every picture I have. About how anyone who clicks on my profile will dismiss me because of how big I am. About how they probably won’t even click because I’m so big. About how the photos I chose are the good ones and if they met me in real life I would be an obese disappointment. About how there are probably a million other girls on the site who are way pretty and way thinner than I am. 

Ugh. 

I’m so stressed. I should probably start buying cats because that would be way less emotionally trying. Maybe cat ladies aren’t lonely because no one would click their profile, maybe they chose to be alone to not put up with the anxiety.

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For anyone who wants to follow me on the new WW feature! I'll try to follow back anyone who follows me.

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December 6, 2015

Last week wasn’t my best. I didn’t track anything during Thankgiving weekend. I did end up losing .2lbs on Friday though. This weekend went better than the last. It hasn’t been my absolute best, but I have tracked everything at least. Hopefully, I can stay strong and keeping going for the rest of the week. 

Saturday I have a friend coming to town and I’m already feeling the anxiety about it. Of course we will go out to eat and then go get drinks. Friends can cause a lot of calories. Eek. 

I’ve done WW before and was very successful at it once. I can’t pin point what was in my at the time that made it go so well. That me would go to a party with a diet soda and not drink at all. I don’t know how to tap into that, but I could really use Skinny Me’s help next weekend. 

I’ll try and post my status on Fridays, but since I didn’t blog then I’ll post them now. 

Start: 203.0

W1: 199.2

W2: 199.0

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November 25, 2015

Things have been going well since Friday for the most part. I have tracked everything I've eaten for almost an entire week now, which is something I've struggled with in the past. I did have a hiccup yesterday (Tuesday) because the office I'm working for provided Thanksgiving to employees, and I didn't know that was going to happen. I tried to stick to one serving of everything, but I did go back for a second cookie. Oops. Then when I got home my mom wanted to go out to Noodles & Co. for dinner, although I did pick a good option there. The best thing though was that I tracked all of it. Even when it went over all my points for the week, I kept writing it down. I think getting in the habit of taking it all down good or not is a good place to start. Today, I'm back on track, making good choices AND tracking them. I had a salad for lunch, which I don't often do, and I feel really good about it. Today is preparing for tomorrow. I know tomorrow I will have no control, so hopefully today provides some balance. My weigh-in day is supposed to be Friday, but I haven't decided yet if I will do it Thursday instead. Friday being the day after Thanksgiving may not be so pretty. We'll see.

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November 20, 2015

So my WW journey for the last year has been rocky at best. In late 2013 I started a Tumblr blog, lost my 10% and was in the 170s. Then I got self-conscious. I didn’t like showing up to meetings when I gained. I feared going there and being a disappointment. Quitting was probably the worst thing I could have done for myself at that time.

Cut to 2014. I gain back the weight I’d lost previously, and I try meetings again. And again. And again. I find myself bouncing between 200 and 195 for a year. Today I checked my weight log, and I am only 1.4 less than my weight in December 2014. What’s gone wrong in the past year?

The honest answer is, I have no idea. I know I was derailed a lot by travelling. I know I was in a weird place in my life where I didn’t have a job or a routine. But I know a big factor was I had to quit a few times due to money. The plan is so expensive especially if you want to go to meetings, and there were a few times where I didn’t have $45 to spend that month. Of course, it’s none of these things fault. I simply didn’t try hard enough. I left myself fall off again and again because my head was never in the right place.

But now, I’m in a new place in my life. Coming out of a relationship, starting a new job, finding some realizations. And I know I need to try again. Really try.

So it’s time to go back to what I know. Routine. And blogging. And tracking.

I’m tired of my clothes not fitting. I don’t like putting on a jacket I haven’t worn in a long time to realize the arms are tight and the waist fits differently.

I’m tired of seeing photos of myself and thinking I look like a bloated, ballooned version of myself.

I’m 25. This is supposed to be my prime, and I should feel like it.

So here’s to trying. One. More. Time.

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4th day of tracking 3rd day of jogging Somehow I'm finding focus, and I hope that continues. It's already showing good results.