calm down, it's just the internet

nightblogger extraordinare

[meistens]

but seriously

about to do an iq test really fkn stoned see how this goes

maybe good? maybe not? more at eleven

[meistens]

update: went medium well

[valtsv]

son of a bitch everything costs money

[meistens]

but seriously

about to do an iq test really fkn stoned see how this goes

maybe good? maybe not? more at eleven

[meistens]

hi there thanks for checking in

🎶i’m still a piece of garbage🎵

[meistens]

so close to no longer being a wine nerd but a certified wine nerd

[meistens]

also just fyi there are a lot of winemakers in the world who make biodynamic wine which is basically organic wine but they prune vines, irrigate, harvest, etc based on astrology and that’s just the best if you ask me

[meistens]

when I am very very old and I can retire all I want is to live in a little old farmhouse someplace warm and be a cute old man tending to his grape vines like grandchildren, making wine for fun

[elftwink]

i hate the idea of a True Self that you Never Show To Anyone like the me by myself isn’t me partly because humans are defined imo by their social interactions as we are social creatures but mostly because that guy is a gremlin. the disgusting idiot who crawls out of my bed at 1pm and eats peanut butter from the jar isn’t me he’s the manifestation of a collection of weird impulses that all give way at once. saying that dude is Truly Me In An Objective Way, as if that exists, is such bullshit like [holds up a creature that is on the cusp of going insane because its species literally cannot be alone for any significant amount of time] behold, a True Self! give me a break

[elftwink]

peanut butter gremlin man is exactly as True as the dude who got invited to a frat party is exactly as true as the man who goes to job interviews and doctors appointments and applies to specialized courses and it’s useless to insist that one is truer than the others. truth isn’t real and peanut butter man has a 3.5 gpa. the self is a whole even when we insist on looking at it in situational fragments

[meistens]

so I’m in school right now taking my first steps to becoming a somm and I’m very pleased about it. like I found something I really like that I’m good at that has actual viable career options? wild

[meistens]

hello internet

today weed became legal in Canada

🥦

[meistens]

in other news I’m going to London and Rome for two weeks so if you have any music recommendations that would be rad. because I have more or less lived under a rock my whole life I’m apparently just finding out about Hole now and would like other music to feel sad to

[meistens]

packing for a trip is simultaneously amazing and awful when I’m feeling anxious because seeing a whole bunch of clothes folded perfectly and laid out in order with a detailed checklist beside me is very soothing

but the second I put everything into my bags I feel like I’m forgetting something and all I can think about is tearing apart all of my luggage and starting over!!

[meistens]

if I could stop finding out what people from my past are doing now that’d be great

[meistens]

today I did a very Grown Up™ thing which was entering a grocery store with the express intention of purchasing fresh fruit and vegetables instead of mac and cheese

[meistens]

update several months later: I have eaten four boxes of mac and cheese in the past two days

[meistens]

fuck I miss having someone to read my writing

[meistens]

maybe now that there’s gonna be a united states space force we can tell trump there’s a presidential rocket called space force one

and just fuckin fling him into the sun already

[moved-to-naltorians-blog]

[gayassjana]

I’m losing my SHIT