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[melanchol-ism]

i think this blog is going to stay mostly inactive for the foreseeable future. i'm not really in the community anymore, nor is it really good for me; i won't deactivate in case i ever want to come back or make the occasional post, but for now this is how it will stay.

[madd-information]

MD Awareness Poll, EVERYONE

We’d like to take a moment to ask ALL MDers, on every platform, to take this brief poll.  Awareness efforts have been scattered, with everyone doing their own thing. We’d like the community, as a whole, to decide when is the best time for a Maladaptive Daydreaming Awareness ‘observance’ of some kind. Every single vote matters.

If you are bi-lingual:  Below there are links to this survey in various languages.  Please, take them, carry them to any community or Maladaptive Daydreamer you know of in these languages.

Here is the survey in:

English https://docs.google.com/forms/d/1GrMXHNKiVb-1AAgGbPWGG6YPYkh7qfFlSSWTah89OkI/edit

French/français https://docs.google.com/forms/d/1PNVBhKXDfYrNXTbHakaUfCgzSPtOPIOEiHAWoaQy6uo/edit

Portuguese/português https://docs.google.com/forms/d/1_ZRvULBwlaZMywlJS72N09s_cEp4E1w0n0m9PcdXddU/edit

Turkish/Türk https://docs.google.com/forms/d/1Koqup44B_i_vfbbdY5gO6-BDPPEYPxBKuxEl1tt8IIE/edit

Italian/Italiana https://docs.google.com/forms/d/1thm4YsKglvHon_jCG39k2AE3FZPXM4WyaAp9Q4oCYnk/edit

Hindi/हिंदी https://docs.google.com/forms/d/1PLRaQ2Tygz0yH5zI4NxKd3h_5znaMgyE81m6bDCEEWs/edit

Afrikaans/Afrikaans https://docs.google.com/forms/d/1hqxktqxWT5t0pdrmFrEgNxpadvyhOdA5dHUO_f-ktOA/edit

Spanish/español https://docs.google.com/forms/d/1k-9f8laIF0fGI-RMpRLZu4FXa-HgJO1aXH98XtdHc4Q/edit

[melanchol-ism]

i say this blog is dead but i still come back to vent lol

[melanchol-ism]

maybe i'll remake. if i still want to use this blog, i think i'd have to purge a lot just for my own peace of mind...

[melanchol-ism]

i say this blog is dead but i still come back to vent lol

[melanchol-ism]

god i ache so bad for my paras to be real. it's not even just them, i want to live in my paracosm so much that it hurts me. if i ever got to make a wish come true, it wouldn't even take a second for me to decide on what

[madd-information]

0 votes and 1 comment so far on Reddit

THIS IS HAPPENING RIGHT NOW. You have until Sunday (when she will be answering messages) to send in your questions!.  Go to Reddit and comment, it’s not every day we have direct access to a bona fide MD professional.  Upvote, comment, reblog, follow, share; make sure everyone gets a chance to participate. 

[madd-information]

Paracosm doesn’t belong to MD

I have seen this several times now across various MD communities; essentially that non-MDers should stop using the word paracosm as it originated with MD. It did not.  Paracosm has been in use since the 70s, it was not a term coined with Maladaptive Daydreamers in mind, it would be several decades before MD was even written about. The word does describe an experience that is very common among MDers, it is, for many of us, the perfect word and very often our worlds are, indeed, paracosms by definition. 

MDers here on Tumblr did take inspiration from this word (and others) when they coined para and parame to describe the characters of maladaptive and immersive daydreamers.  As the three often go together is seems a reasonable assumption to make that they were born together, but they were not, many people outside of our community have paracosms. 

[melanchol-ism]

sometimes I’ll be daydreaming n having a grand old time and then all the sudden, poof. daydream gone, train of thought disintegrated. and there’s like this sort of fuzzy feeling that something used to be there in my head and I don’t know what and I’ll spend about five minutes silently screaming and racking my brain before I remember exactly what it was I was daydreaming about

[melanchol-ism]

the reason this blog is so hard for me maintain is because when i'm depressed i don't have the energy to check it and post and when i'm not depressed i don't have anything to post

[melanchol-ism]

me: i’m scared :(

me: :(

my brain: your paras would protect you

me: :)

[echosms]

From what I’ve read on here, it seems like a lot of MADDers daydreams tend to look fairly realistic, but mine typically don’t. I tend to daydream in like, a “cartoony style”. I’m pretty sure it’s because of my face blindness, and the fact that I watch much more animation than I do live-action. 

I’m curious, do y’all’s daydreams tend to be realistic-looking, or not?

[maddhopex]

The world is such a dark awful place and i feel so glad to be able to escape to my daydreams where i feel safe and in control..

[melanchol-ism]

funny how pessimistic about the state of the world and my own future i am, yet i always fall back into the "everything may hurt now but things get better, humans are inherently humane" train of thought in my daydreams

[traumasuggestion]

i want to claw at my skin until every place you touched becomes nothing more than a raw bloody mess and even then i’ll still feel wrong

[melanchol-ism]

staring at the wall, daydreaming to miy_yuu's cover of kilmaa that's been on loop for a solid hour, depressed

[teacoffeemadd]

You can enjoy a song without daydreaming to it. You can enjoy a song without daydreaming to it. You can enjoy a song without wasting 4 hours acting it out. You can enjoy a song without daydreaming to it. You can enjoy a song without daydrea-

[melanchol-ism]

somebody tear out my spleen before i start daydreaming again