Eternal Agony

Laura/32 /french/ recluse nun, putrid mold/Only sapphic https://linktr.ee/laurdouceurr

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The nervous system. Man, woman, know thyself! 1908.

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“But my present suffering is not the worst. The worst is that time passes, that this suffering makes me more wretched and incapable, and prospects for the future grow increasingly more dismal.”

— Franz Kafka, from a letter to Felice Bauer written c. August 1915

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“My anxious heart is eating up my body, eating up my nerves, eating up my brain.”

— Katherine Mansfield, from a diary entry featured in “Journals,” c. June 1915

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La jetée (1962) Dir. by Chris Marker

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no thoughts, blurred brain

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[melancholic--soull]

I pray for you to find someone that loves you that way you deserve it. You deserve the world if not more. I deeply admire you and just wish the best for you!

Thank you, that's kind of you

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I don't even want sex at this point, someone holding my hand would already be a miracle

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I feel so imprisoned and unsafe inside my own mind, such a visceral loneliness, such an unbearable sense of being lost, such a desperate need to be absorbed, loved, and reassured so I can forget that I exist — to forget this void swallowing me whole, to soothe this anguish and terror of being alive by taking refuge in someone’s eyes, someone who could hold me together and help me breathe. But I’m alone, I’m suffocating. There is no one, and there will never be anyone to save me from the asphyxiation of being myself.

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Emil Cioran, The Trouble With Being Born

[midnightportals]

I’ll probably still think of you on my death bed.

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