𝄞tragic girl diary໒꒱ིྀ༝

daughter of cain and apple |a mess| punished by love ༘˚⋆𐙚｡radie⋆𖦹.✧

[melancholicvalse]

and if it was possible i’d kill and cannibalize that picture perfect version of a girl i wanna be but never will be

because im a dirty disgusting version of her but shes perfect

[melancholicvalse]

oml all this fake talk about liking rough sex none of the fake ass hoes talking about knifeplay and autassassinophilia

[melancholicvalse]

at the end of the day i just hate people

[melancholicvalse]

whenever i feel weak(physically) or tired i just want someone to comfort me so badly like just hug me and pet my hair anyone

[melancholicvalse]

somehow i always need to lose some weight and clean my room

[melancholicvalse]

i want to be an angry teenager again cuz being an angry adult is so much worse

[melancholicvalse]

everything is so boring

[melancholicvalse]

WHY DOES NO ONE WANTS TO UNDERSTAND ME AND FORM A MUTUAL CONNECTION EVEN PLATONICALLY WHY WHY WHY

[melancholicvalse]

i need to kill a person to feel better i want someone to comfort me i want to let out all my emotions to leave my body hollow i need something bad to happen to those i despise why am i always suffering i cant do this anymore i cant do this anymore

[melancholicvalse]

WHY DO PPL WHO ABANDON ME GET EVERYTGING GOOD IN LIFE WHY CANT THEY SUFFER WHY CANT I GET SOMETHING GOOD THIS IS SO UNFAIR

or maybe im just the anchor that makes others ppl life miserable and spead my own dread onto them to tge point if u’r not around me u will actually succeed in life? whywhywhywhywhywhywhywhyhwy

[melancholicvalse]

turns out deep rooted hatred and self-loathing DOES affect my life, relationship and overall quality of life

[melancholicvalse]

i hate everything i hate everytging i hate everything onfg stupid uni i hate final exams and then im doing masters ts gonna be worse god if u love me let me pass

[melancholicvalse]

just fumbled interview for a masters program i was so excited for oml fuck me #TheyWasGonnaPlayInHerFace

[melancholicvalse]

I HATE EVERYONE I HATE EVERYONE

[melancholicvalse]

im not pretty enough to be quirky

[melancholicvalse]

should i dye my hair the color he first saw me with

[melancholicvalse]

my dream life is so simple yet still can’t be reached