𝄞tragic girl diary໒꒱ིྀ༝

daughter of cain and apple |a mess| punished by love ༘˚⋆𐙚｡radie⋆𖦹.✧

[melancholicvalse]

WHY DOES NO ONE WANTS TO UNDERSTAND ME AND FORM A MUTUAL CONNECTION EVEN PLATONICALLY WHY WHY WHY

[melancholicvalse]

i need to kill a person to feel better i want someone to comfort me i want to let out all my emotions to leave my body hollow i need something bad to happen to those i despise why am i always suffering i cant do this anymore i cant do this anymore

[melancholicvalse]

WHY DO PPL WHO ABANDON ME GET EVERYTGING GOOD IN LIFE WHY CANT THEY SUFFER WHY CANT I GET SOMETHING GOOD THIS IS SO UNFAIR

or maybe im just the anchor that makes others ppl life miserable and spead my own dread onto them to tge point if u’r not around me u will actually succeed in life? whywhywhywhywhywhywhywhyhwy

[melancholicvalse]

turns out deep rooted hatred and self-loathing DOES affect my life, relationship and overall quality of life

[melancholicvalse]

i hate everything i hate everytging i hate everything onfg stupid uni i hate final exams and then im doing masters ts gonna be worse god if u love me let me pass

[melancholicvalse]

just fumbled interview for a masters program i was so excited for oml fuck me #TheyWasGonnaPlayInHerFace

[melancholicvalse]

I HATE EVERYONE I HATE EVERYONE

[melancholicvalse]

im not pretty enough to be quirky

[melancholicvalse]

should i dye my hair the color he first saw me with

[melancholicvalse]

my dream life is so simple yet still can’t be reached

[sunbleachedbrk]

might fuck around and forgive it all as it comes back to me idk

[melancholicvalse]

my fears of being replaced were true

[melancholicvalse]

im having sm fun

[melancholicvalse]

cry count :again

[melancholicvalse]

somehow anything i do every decision i make is the worst possible course of action and someone always gets mad at me. oh wow

[melancholicvalse]

piercings and tats i want:

-snake bites

-bridge(ik)

-two holes on the side of my nose to put a chain between them(can’t add more pics)

-angel fangs(i think thats what thats called) (optional idk jet)

-belly button

-bruise tat

-back tat(maybe remove my current one or cover or continue it idk yet)

-hand/finger tat(maybe in black)

-thigh tat(like this but tat)

-maybe collar tat like this

-sh3 save tat(maybe not on the back but i want it

-tatoo w lilies

-ethel cain lyrics

[melancholicvalse]

when i have a good day with my friends but then come home and suicide seems like the only option again