Tara

23 yo mommy to Kailand (3) and Tempest (1). 💕 Learning to Thrive

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Do people even still use this app 🥺😭

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I don’t like that being a working mom is having to choose between providing for the kids and spending more time with them 💀 I want my kids taken care of but I feel so bad for needing to work over and having to be away from them so long in the day. My kids miss me even with us being in the same house all day everyday 🤦🏾‍♀️ working from home is def still working

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I didn’t feel alone today. And I’m relieved. I go back to work tomorrow and I’m not ready tbh but I feel okay about it. It’ll be good and I’ll be making money so 🤷🏾‍♀️ I’m going to make my grocery list and gts.

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I love my kids so much. They make my life so much happier. Tonight we had pizza and a movie and I felt good for the first time in the last two weeks. Their smiles and cuddles really do make anything I go through seem insignificant

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I fixed my rent issue. Now onto the food issue. Not really an issue but I want to make a grocery list of new foods for the kids to eat I’m sick of making them the same things even though Kai acts like he’ll die if he eats anything but fries and chicken 😒. Today I’m cleaning and decluttering. There’s way too much stuff in my apartment I want it all OUT. Then I need to do my hair. I’ll do the kids hair tomorrow because I know they aren’t in the mood for that today and I also just have gone over a month without my hair done and it might help me feel better to do this one thing 🤦🏾‍♀️

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I missed posting tmi to strangers 😭 sorry I’m advance because these next few months are going to be HARD. And I have like two friends.

I’m literally starting over from nothing this month. Alone. And I’m very angry about it. Because I feel like I keep doing things right and the universe just keeps TAKING from me. I helped everyone I could. That left me with barely enough energy, money, time...to help myself. I got a new job to eliminate my childcare issues. Got pregnant. Got a promotion and raise at the new job. Was stressed taking care of everything and everybody but still was super grateful. Lost my baby. Again. Missed work for recovery. Didn’t make enough money. Now am trying to figure out how to pay my rent with half a paycheck so I don’t lose my job and apartment and my freaking MIND. I don’t deserve this. I don’t deserve having to always handle everything alone. I don’t deserve being ignored when I finally need help by people I always help no questions asked. I don’t deserve to not even have a chance to mourn ANOTHER loss. I’m just angry and sad. I had a plan and with one ultrasound everything went to shit. I’m so done and I can’t do this anymore it’s too much. But I’m a mom. So I’m gonna fix it all anyways. Even though I definitely don’t want to do anything but die a little bit. Anyways that’s why I’m back. Just to document the process of me NOT dying a little bit. But fixing this mess and improving mine and my kid’s lives. It’s so crazy that missing just 3 days of work ruined what took me 4 years to build. But this is the last time something like this will happen. Never again.

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I’m SKRESSED so I’m back. 🙃

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I just realized I never even took this app off my phone lmao I’m honestly a horrible blogger I used to be good at this 🥴

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I think I’m over tumblr now I’m not pregnant I don’t wanna use it I barely used it before 😂 but y’all can def add me on Facebook if we talk 💕

Tara Nyomi. Same picture 😭

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I liked working Waffle House today. I have to change my availability tomorrow so I can start ups next week. And it’s so dumb but I honestly feel like me working these two jobs is gonna be what ends my relationship 💀 I got off today excited to tell this boy I signed up for extra shifts so i have 35hrs MY FIRST WEEK and his response??? “You gotta think before you pick up shifts. What if I had something going on that day?” Like...🥴 tf? You don’t even work what could you possibly be tryna do that’s more important than me making money to pay these bills and get the kids winter supplies and Christmas out the way??????? LET ME KNOW RIGHT NIE 🗣👀

I just got a feeling he’s gonna piss me off by playing over my jobs like they aren’t important just because he wants to go outside with his friends instead of watch the kids. And I’m not with it. I’m already planning on offering kais room to my brother until I can finish the season at ups then putting them in daycare starting February just in case he does exactly what I expect him to do. I’ll take sooo much and work through being annoyed by all the lil things but boy nah I’m not losing another job I don’t have to lose when I have two kids. I’ll lose you first 💀

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I literally get almost nothing from my right side when I pump and it’s so annoying.

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I gave up on UPS and did a Waffle House app the other day. My first day of or training was today. An hour after I got out of class, UPS text me asking me to complete my background check information. Here’s me praying I can do both since ups is seasonal but $14 an hour till January. I can use that for a car and Waffle House to pay bills. From no job and stressing over paying my lights to two job opportunities both within walking distance that happen to have shifts that line up perfectly with no overlap.

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My brother said she looks like she has somewhere to be lmao

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Every time my friends and family go out I’m the designated babysitter

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As an update, they’ve moved into a house together and are still super cute

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Gundam Guy is truly a man of patience and diligence. From his attention to detail building his models to the loving attention and detail for his wife.

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Never thought I could love anyone as much as I love my son, until I met my daughter 💕

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Everyone is sick except Tempest I love her for being in a good mood even though I’ve barely been out of bed today. Ik she must be bored but I literally cannot 💀