hello!! it is i, elliot, the self-shipper also known by my other url meldaciohq!!
i am currently in the process of moving all of my self-shippy and inserty activities to my new blog here and i am looking for my old mutuals and new mutuals.
so if youâre into self-shipping, self-inserting, oc/canon, and all that jazz, feel free to give my blog a little look around!! make sure to rb this post with your own blog if you donât self-ship on main so that i can find you, and be sure to give my byf and about pages a little look-see.
i promise i am just a tiny edgy nerd who wants friends, so feel free to have a look around
idk if anyone is awake but. the deed has been done. go follow me @cryptidchaos to get EVEN MORE ship content!! thatâs gonna be the main blog now. iâm still gonna keep this blog around for archival purposes and still use it for. eh. as long as it takes for me to get back on track with the new one but. now i donât have to anon everything >:3c
It's definitely super scary to share the fact that you selfship with mutuals who you think are Too Cool for that, but they might also surprise you! I know when I first started selfshipping I tried keeping it on a side blog and one of my mutuals just *found my selfshipping blog* and was like 'cool i'll follow it'. They don't selfship or anything either, they just were actually chill with it. You don't gotta do nothing you don't wanna do, but . . . I dunno. (1/2)
I guess what I'm trying to say is there're two things you could do, and one of those things has two possible outcomes, while the other thing has one possible outcome? So you could start over from scratch and delete everything and definitely lose all your mutuals, or you could just kind of. Post selfship to your main and you might lose mutuals or your mutuals might actually be supportive of it! But ultimately, what would they even do if they weren't?
@littlestarprincess
i know a lot of my mutuals on my main blog would definitely not be comfy with it. like. i KNOW it. some of them iâm a little curious whether they would be or not, and then some of them i just really donât care. i have mutuals from my OLD blog that i had for almost 7 years, and iâd hate to see them go, but.... i like, i also get it.
i mean my main worry is getting hate over it all, thatâs the BIG thing. i havenât had any issues on this blog which is just such a blessing. i just love (and in some cases, rely on) self-shipping that not being able to share it like i have been would be so upsetting to me!! even if i did get hate iâm pretty good with just. deleting and moving on, or doing shit outta spite, but still
iâll.... go ahead and make a new blog to set up so that i can at least move all my self-shippy stuff to a Main-main blog (like thatâs a guarantee rn, iâm making a new e-mail for it as we speak--probably will add THAT blog as a member to THIS sideblog), be able to interact with people, and keep my main blog over here since the activity has kind of sputtered down a but, but i still wanna keep it around for a) archival purposes and b) fandom stuff. if i eventually get to the point where iâm like âCOOL i donât care!! if you wanna follow me on my new, just absolute batshit blog where all my interests and self-inserting shenanigans go, then my dude go aheadâ iâll just shift all my attention to that blog
youâre always so active and responsive to people, it means a lot!!
iselfshipnerd replied to your post âiselfshipnerd replied to your post âalso!! i have been having the...â
its okay to start fresh. It's true that you're starting from scratch, but its not cowardly to do so. If anyone messes with you they'll catch these hands
iâd love to be able to start from scratch without fear and lord knows there are so many people who talk about characters like theyâre their husbands/wives, write reader-inserts, or have ocs that they ship with said characters (who are clearly self-inserts and theyre just not about to admit to it), but donât go deep into it like say, you or i do. which puts people off sometimes.Â
itâs just the fear of like. mixing the two things together that scares me SO much. i LOVE self-shipping, i LOVE being open about it, but i HATE the backlash that i know i would get if i just full-on threw my dick onto the dashboard and posted the art that i have on here or made my sappy posts or answered ask memes. because boy howdy do i love going on and on about my f/os but goddamn would that be a bit of whiplash to people who donât get it or are uncomfortable with it
iselfshipnerd replied to your post âalso!! i have been having the impulse to just kind of. deactivate my...â
i did it, but its a hassle to get all the followers back an reposting content ;;; do what you wanna my dude if you do make sure you look me up on your new account so I can find you
iâm not even worried about getting my mutuals from here back, or reposting content. thatâs like not my main worry.Â
itâs mainly an impulse to get away from bad stuff on my old blog, but itâd also be like the third time iâll delete and move to a new blog. iâm still really wary about wanting my old mutuals on my main blog to follow me if i remake and keep all my self-ship stuff on the blog, because i will. probably end up losing those mutuals since self-ship is still considered really weird. iâve posted insert stuff on my main before (and have for YEARS because iâm not worried about it) but itâs the shippy stuff that makes me nervous to share. if you guys have seen all the shit iâve written itâs been SUUUUPER sappy and heartfelt and the last thing i wanna do is expose myself like that to everyone on main lmao.
i could....just....like move all of my activity to my main blog, but like i said before, some people that i donât want to interact with again know that blog and if i moved my activity THERE, iâd feel EXTRA exposed and worried about being made fun of;;
Imagine cuddling with your f/o. Thatâs it. Just imagine being tangled in their arms, the satisfied sighs, the sleepy murmurs, the warmth of their bodyâŠ
also!! i have been having the impulse to just kind of. deactivate my main blog and take my sideblogs with it and then make a new blog so that my shippy blog can be my main, you feel me? because my main is kinda slow on content and getting that ask a day ago made me think about it... like i can have all my shit in one place and actually interact with people? but like. i feel like itâd take me a while to get back all the followers i have and then just have either a fandom sideblog or mix my shippy shit AND my fandom shit because really i donât care at this point but also. there is a voice in the back of my mind at all times that is like ânot everyone would interact with your main if you self-ship ON mainâ and then there is another voice that sounds like emperor palpatine that is just like âDEW ITâ so im really fuckin conflicted my dudes
every fanart of greed is horny. there is no exception to this rule heâs just a horny boy. i mean he walks around with his exposed tiddy in a cropped jacket and sharp teeth. itâs only FAIR
im about to fix up my blog probably. might change my url too oh fuck. sorry i got done fixin up my main blog and now im like. rubs my grubby hands together.
i havent decided on a new url yet but if anyone has suggestions i am ALL ears my dude
im about to fix up my blog probably. might change my url too oh fuck. sorry i got done fixin up my main blog and now im like. rubs my grubby hands together.
i havent decided on a new url yet but if anyone has suggestions i am ALL ears my dude
someone: i canât look at your favorite character without just automatically thinking of you! youâre both linked together in my head! i saw content of them and my mind immediately went âoh thatâs your character!â
you might remember me answering an ask a while back that involved me talkin about my nuka break/new vegas insert.
here is that ask. (I DIDNT KNOW YOU COULD LINK THINGS ON MOBILE SO D O P E)
WELL after watchin red star again i started to think through my insert's story and im switchin it up a bit.
so instead of meeting james after red star and before s1 of nb, i meet james about a year or two before the events of nuka break, like. several times. i havent gone through and specified where james is from bc i'm still researching vault locations and even though i THINK he and his family didn't live IN vault 7, that's where his roots are so they probably would have stayed somewhere near it. and my family has ties to a vault location as well but for the most part we'd be running a small farm and local bar in what is the post-war equivalent of my hometown in texas.
in my headcanon, the region of central texas would mostly be ranches and desolate broken cities, where you would find more concentrations of civilization near austin (as fort hood would be controlled by the BoS) or dallas (a metropolitan epicenter and a relatively large cluster of tribes so to speak), and my hometown is pretty much smack-dab in the middle of the two. so you're bound to cross into it due to i35 cutting through.
anyways. there is a small possibility that he could have passed through at some point with his tracker past, traveling by himself or at least tagging along with a small caravan to make his way and follow ben as closely as possible. a VERY small possibility but one nonetheless. another possibility is that when my family is driven from their home (one of my brothers would have joined the NCR after leaving home and now my dad and two other siblings are willing to uproot their lives to meet him there since there's a guarantee of safety in the west), shortly after making their way west, we're split apart by the raider gang, i promise i will find them in the future, yadda yadda. im thinkin that originally they were just keeping me for the pipboy (because im not about to give it up that easily---likely would strike a deal with whoever is leading the gang at the time to let me at least do this), or they had plans of sweeping up towards utah and nevada because of word of the legion and wanting to meet with them to trade slaves for protection, and myself being one of those possible slaves bc they think im a vault dweller (and the heterochromia is an added bonus).
so im stuck with the gang, james eventually crosses paths with the gang as they move north and i'm like droppin hints that i will do whatever he wants just to help me get to NCR (because im like okay youre a ranger coolio please save me). and he's like "no, im not a ranger and no im not about to save your ass, what, are you joking" and I get all mad and like the night after he leaves i cause a big fuss and sneak my way out of the gang caravan to try and find him bc NOW im mcPISSED
so i track him and end up meeting him AGAIN at a settlement, where he's like "jesus christ kid look i can't help you" and i dial up the sympathy card with "blease i just wanna see my family again theyre somewhere out west" and he's like "if they even survived the trip out there" and im like ":(" so he finally is like. "okay. i'll help". except he leaves before i do and im like "MOTHERFUCKER" and haul ass to follow him
meanwhile the raiders sent people after me bc theyre not about to give up on me so easy and let me just bolt bc pipboys are fuckin PRIZES dude. and i have no clue. that and i stole not only a legionairre denarius that the gang leader kept on a rope that was gonna be his other bargaining chip to the legion, but also a BLUE star cap that i fashioned into an earring and proudly displayed even tho it's a stupid idea bc those are RARE and VALUABLE and now im like a walking fuckin target with my sweet-ass loot
so after a few months (probs been almost a half to a whole year since i'd been separated from my family) we get a good steady thing goin and it's borderin on "hm almost gay" territory, but he catches wind of ben's whereabouts and he trusts that i can keep my wits about me and make it to AT LEAST arizona without his help and we'll meet up, i mean REALLY meet up, in like. tuscon or something in a few weeks bc he needs to go through feeling shit and finding ben and i'm like. okay :(
then red star happens, which i estimate to be aboooout a week or so in time-lapse. and we manage to actually meet back up on his way back up from there, and stick together like glue. i promise to help him find what he's lookin for bc im too nervous to leave him again, and a few weeks to like a month after that is when we meet twig & co.
while we are nearing ncr territory im like askin around about my brother's company, if anyone has heard of him, get distressed bc i don't know WHERE to begin, and james is half like "it's okay we got this" and half "well i mean i got what i was searching for...." but then we get caught up in twig, scar, and ben's whole escapade, yadda yadda, none of the info in the original post about said situation is changed tbh
after the battle with leon and his men we kinda try to high-tail it outta there so that james can help me find my family (spoiler: we do) and since he really doesnt have anything more to like. search for? we try to help the new family farm before we realize that we both miss being on the road so much and we still have that raider gang to take care of so we should prob do that
SO this is where new vegas comes into play. i am. pretty sure that if nuka break doesn't take place concurrently with new vegas then it's beforehand, so. at some point my brother gets sent to new vegas (the ncr is short-staffed in nv if i remember correctly) and my family gets moved to the sharecropper farms outside of new vegas. james and i help my family relocate to new vegas with a small caravan of other families and NCR supplies, because we have traveled enough to be comfortable in giving our help. once we reach nevada the fam gets settled down and the whole plot of nv takes place.
i'd take a job as a courier and james does more tracking jobs, sometimes accompanies me along the way. and that's that on that. i can be found pretty much anywhere in NV and probably meet THE courier and their merry band of idiots at some point but it's pretty disconnected from the actual plot of nv.
