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Trying to Climb Out

I hate the feeling of never being enough to the people I love or have loved. Theres a pattern here that keeps telling me that I keep choosing these people who cannot be fulfilled with what I have to offer and I always give everything I can to them, only to be left behind so they can chase other things. They leave to be alone or to find someone else and they always try to come back once they realize what they left behind, by then I'm over it and then I lose out on a love that I was once sure of. My unwavering faith and loyalty is always trampled, why should I give a second chance to the people who did that?

I'm currently at that spot again where somebody who I love so deeply questions if this is going to work because they didn't have a full sexual experience before me. Same thing, different reason. I don't fulfill them, they want to leave, but they're willing to work things out for the sake of my feelings. Should I stay with them because I love them so deeply or should I let them go from fear that I won't ever be good enough for them?

I just wish things were simple for me...

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Depression is a peculiar thing. You can’t force sadness away, but you can train to be numb from it.

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#call for help #tired of being tired #depression #im a little shit

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I want to be all the stars in your solar system. I want you to think of me every time you look up at that deep, dark sky. my heart is dark but my love for the stars in your eyes is endless.

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I Want To Go

There are some days where my depression doesn't affect me at all, there other days where I can't help but cry and feel hopeless, then there are rare days where I just don't want to be here anymore. Today is one of those days where I just want to end it all. Not because I hate myself, not because I think I'm a piece of shit, its because I am so sick of feeling. I'm so sick of feeling useless to those who I love or feeling worthless to those who I find more than worthy. I'm so sick of feeling like I'm failing everyone including mys lf. I'm just so tired of being tired. I'm so sick and tired of feeling every pinch of energy from everyone around me. I'm so tired of feeling absolutely lonely. I'm so tired of talking to myself. I'm so tired of getting lectured. I'm so tired of being sober. I'm so tired of getting high. I'm so tired of never sleeping. I'm just so tired of all the human things right now. Why can't I be normal, a regular human being with a regular heart and a regular brain? Why can't I just let things go? Let him go, let bottled up emotions go, let everything go. I want to go so bad, but I won't. I care too much about other people to go. Those people, every person, is my reason to live because I'm so addicted to helping people when I have a chronic aversion to helping myself.

#depression #crying #tiredofbeingtired #deepthought #suicidalthoughts #tiredofbeingstrong #imisshim #imnotokay

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Virgo: Now that U have worked through this recent bout of introspection, U can apply it 2 your love life and improve matters tremendously.

...I smoke all my weed, every time....

#cannabis #marijuana #weed

shelgon

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When someone breath be kickin'.

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Her inner darkness makes her desirable. She’s a mystery worth exploring.

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Le sigh.

#iwantyou #wordporn

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**note - most of the poems are written by tumblr users; I credited them in the tags

Venus in Aries: Did you see the way he stopped and stared as if he could be on his way to hell but stopped for a glimpse of heaven

Venus in Taurus: Dear lover, Thank you for kindly teaching me that love is a verb. That it requires effort and time.

Venus in Gemini: There’s an underlying reason why the universe brought me to you- I don’t know what it is, but I don’t mind finding out.

Venus in Cancer: And in the end I will seek you out amongst the stars. The space dust of me will whisper ‘I love you’ Into the infinity of the universe

Venus in Leo: Sleep here, stay here, until the years peel off another layer of love, or we run out of things to say.

Venus in Virgo: He tells me I am his favorite poem. I tell him he has bad taste in literature.

Venus in Libra: I need no perfection. I need only honesty, and I can’t seem to find it in you.

Venus in Scorpio: there isn’t a day that’s gone by where you haven’t consumed my every thought.

Venus in Sagittarius: Since I found you, I have never seen a dim sky. There are no stars too far away to shine and the moon, she hangs so proud, the brightest light of them all. I never knew love could inspire a galaxy.

Venus in Capricorn: How do you know you’re in love? Oh goodness, wildflower, you’ll know. It’s the spring creeping back up after winter.

Venus in Aquarius: It was always you who made me feel at home when I thought that I didn’t belong anywhere.

Venus in Pisces: I want to touch your heart, I want to touch your soul, Without touching you.

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Venus In Scorpio <3