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The Riki of ShEdblr 𐂯 He/it ཐི ♠ ཋྀ 𓉸 2009-2029 🩹Block don't report🌑

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°˖➴ 1ntroduct10n ⌯⁍

ᶻ 𝗓 𐰁 This blog is a virtual representation of a weird boy's mental state. It will include mentions of sh/ed/suicide/csa and more uncomfortable topics. You can block me, or you can interact, I will judge you for neither. ♣

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Sevi or silver

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Also called sevster, strawberry, strawb, sevi-pie, fox-son, son boy, little fox [anything with son and fox is from dad].

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⚠︎ Warning: this blog will contain:

-> Human rights. [Women's, Poc's, Lgbt's, ect...]

-> LGBTQIA+ topics, labels, relationships, ect....

-> Xenogenders, xenopronouns, neopronouns, contradictory labels (lesboys, bi-lesbians, turigirls, archillian sapphics, alloaromantics/alloaroaces, ect) you're not entitled to other people's lives and labels. Stop policing harmless personal labels. We have bigger fish to fry.

-> Me being loudly Anti-AI

-> Me being against communal/organised religions as a concept; though some of my dearest loved ones are religious and I fully respect their choice.

-> Mental health issues and illnesses

-> Suicide talk, Sh (even maybe pictures of it, depends on how much I care about this blog..), EDs, Gore, ect...

-> Fandom. Js fandom...

-> Anti-Censorship. Yes, I'd let kids have access to prn or wtv if it means not being censored. All responsibility falls on parents and caretakers, not random people on the internet.

-> Lots of weirdass shit I'm into, not everything I consume or enjoy is something I agree with morally. I separate the works of dead authors from them, but don't do the same to living authors who may earn anything from my support.

User uses He/him, It/its, as well as some neopronouns and xenopronouns:

-Hx/Hxm, Fae/faer, vul/vulp, star/stars, strawb/strawbs, ect....

User struggles with EDs [mainly bulimia, anorexia, and pica], Sh, parasocial relationships, daydreaming, hallucinations, depersonalisation, derealization, stalking urges, kleptomania, compulsive and pathological lying, and other impulsive or disassociative behaviours.

Do not recommend therapy, deleting this blog, or calling the authorities.

User is very attached to the character Riki from AnK, while acknowledging his immoral actions and those of the other characters in the show.

‧˚꒰🖤꒱༘‧— kill me already.... [Tags of people on Tumblr]

@ blurringmysoull - my twin, #eaten in the womb

@ justaverydeadfish - my dad, #a fish and a fox

@ fireinthefoxpen - my feral cat, #suite in arms: Mothusiast

@ eyes-r0ll-b4ck-4r0und - angelic moth, #following the light

⭒˚𖠋𖠋𖠋*.⋆ TAGGING SYSTEM ⊹♡

#sevi cries - main tag, on every post.

#sevi rants - rant tag.

#sevi's attentionless - attention seeking tag.

#sevi's asks - asks tag.

#sevi's pie - sh tag.

#sevi's queer - queer tag.

#sevi's fvcked - neg tag.

#sevi's NOT fucked?! - pos tag.

#sevi's ma - mom tag.

#sevi's khal - uncle tag.

#sevi's ank drama - Ank tag.

#sevi's mecha - mecha tag.

#sevi's flora - Plant tag.

#sevi's vulps - Fox tag.

[mentally-metallic]

I wanna go back home

[mentally-metallic]

Mom hiding racist shit behind "those.. Africans"...

Mother what are we????

[mentally-metallic]

I miss fish.. like... A lot

[fireinthefoxpen]

Yeah. I Have no words. Nvm I have one.

You.

holy. SHSITK AHHAHAHSHAHAJIEHEKS ITS ME!!!!! A pancake whale shark my days im might cry

[mentally-metallic]

Holy shit I go back online to see bro putting it as THEIR PROFILE PICTURE.

[ghost-in-park]

when the hair is hairing but you have to tie it up because work

[cuppydogshane]

all the rights that come with marriage you should be able to have without marriage btw. you should be able to designate a person who can visit you in the hospital regardless of your relationship to that person.

[mentally-metallic]

My friend called ME objectum for this and tbh...... I have no defense, your honour.

[mentally-metallic]

Please don't die or get termed in the next 12 days ily

What... What happens in the next 12 days... Should I be concerned...?

I love you bombomb!!! Take care of yourself!!

[strawberri-bomb-bombz]

No no it was nothing big just a school trip where I couldn't take my phone with me 😭😞

But I survived and I'm back >:]

[mentally-metallic]

Ouuu okay !!

[mentally-metallic]

Tbh I always feel bad for my mother for having to raise a difficult child alone but.. idk..

I mean she knew my dad was terrible, how did she believe having a child would fix him? How can fatherhood make someone less despicably immature?

Why did she let me be sexualised by my family at an early age? Excused the rapes and assaults I've went through? Sexualised things as simple as tampons?

Why bully my size, hair, colour, race? Why did she make me feel like an alien? Like a demon? a whore? A slut? For what? Being disobedient as a teen?

Why did she ignore my suicidal thoughts? Ones I've shown so early on? Why didn't she stop my self harm? I hit myself in front of her didn't I? Was I an extra?

Idk it makes me feel weird because... If you love me more than any parent loves their child, why was your version of protection only physical corrections over and over and over and over again? The amount of times I've bled and fainted, and your first thought after going too far wasn't "is my child okay?" But "when will you end this act? Why must you embarrass me? When did you get so weak? Do you think I'll fall for your pity stunt?" Maybe a five year old isn't a master manipulative narcissistic psychopathic jinn and instead a child who loved you and didn't feel that love back? A child that idolised you and yet was told over and over that it apparently hates you? That it looks like some man it never met and that's its fault?

Idk I love you mom and I know or Ig I hope that you love me too but what happened between us can never be fixed.

Unfortunately I'll never sit down with you and explain my feelings. Unfortunately I'll never get to express myself over tea brunches. Unfortunately I'll never hug you and tell you who hurt me then.

I'll never tell you why I want to die, because when I first explained it, you weren't listening. Because when I was focused on heaven and death you saw it as pure. Because you thought my suicidal tendency was a joke. Because you thought I liked heights, I just liked staying underwater a bit too long, I had a weird interest in medication, must be a future doctor. I had a weird relationship with knives and fire. Must be a demon or my lineage. I'm so tired of acting all cheerful like I don't desperately need a gun to my face.

[mentally-metallic]

How tf do I write an about me section

[mentally-metallic]

Oh no I accidentally blocked a moot.

They're such a kind moot too. Omfg.

[fireinthefoxpen]

drink water :)))))

Drink a bottle cap of water

[buckysrightarm1]

nooooo ya gotta drink more than that!!!

[fireinthefoxpen]

water is water

[buckysrightarm1]

I’m gonna force feed you watermelon.

[fireinthefoxpen]

dont threaten me with a good time

[mentally-metallic]

It's a win-win situation go eat a watermelon Ree

Also now the damn song is playing in my head and it's your fault

[ru1n3r]

can people talk about and idolise women characters, especially women of colour, the same way people on tumblr babydoll boring straight white men

[spin-the-wheel-polls]

You have became this medieval role, how do you feel about it

you are in the medieval era and you have this role!

How do you feel?

great!! I love this

good!

It's okay

So bad. I hate this

This is similar to my real job!

Results/other

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[teapotsoffcialyup]

[strawberryfairyflower]

I hate the internet and this dystopian world we call our reality