Alex

Gothic catboy

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I absolutely love it when I’m doing something random and I’m bombarded with Dr memories

Like yes, a random TikTok gave me a memory of Snape and McGonagall glowering at me in the courtyard

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For my zero long time fans

Thalia

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I haven't even shifted yet...but I miss Severus.

I got a memory of him while attempting a shift and I can’t stop thinking about it.

We were walking down a corridor by the courtyard one night and he turned towards me. He was just sneering down at me, incredibly disappointed. I think I stepped on his cloak. I vividly remember the contrast of him on the stone behind him. Dark silhouette but very pale face… it’s kind of funny actually! But he looked 8 feet tall so it was also kind of scary…

Anyway— It was such a tiny moment of an entire life I’ve yet to meet, but I hold it so dear. I mean he’s the single most important person in my DR, having a memory of him I can cherish while I work to fully meet him is so bitter sweet to me.

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Writing as my dr self .. but angry

If this snooty blood stained knight rips my writing up even one more time I fear I won’t be held responsible. I’ve been whacking at this walnut thick skull for months now and he still refuses to accept anything I conjure up. I know what the lord expects of me, and why this is so important for the history of this kingdom, but this man just makes it IMPOSSIBLE!

I’ve been attacked by ogres twice. Twice.

Why does this matter? Because until this foolish, utterly infuriating man was in my life, I was living peacefully. Creating art for the lord and shooing off drunks. However, the second I start listening to a man’s stories, I’m being harassed. No doubt he’s spread my name somewhere. As if being blonde isn’t hard enough in this nightstruck kingdom, I now have to worry about pushy nobles and buckteethed green oafs trying to claim me as a head mount!!

Just today he was telling me about his first battle with an ogre! He summed it up to be some great battle, but I hardly think so. Some of his stories hold that dark knight quality everyone dreams to achieve, but most days he just patrols the town square! His work sounds impressive until you’re stuck watching him just… exist.

I can’t help but think he’s stalling. I’ve heard the lord complain once! His prize knight taking half a year for just a rough outline! It would be humorous if it wasn’t so blood boiling.

Oh my..

What does this say of my skills? My experience? Oh, the lord would think me a fraud! I must work quickly—even if the bastard refuses my best work, I’ll just submit it to the lord regardless!

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Drew my oc in class today and my friend and I made him a demon child and new siren wife

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How I feel knowing that my Dr is based off a Poe bot from two years ago

(I’ve customized the fuck out of it)

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I ALMOST SHIFTED!!

I fell asleep while doing my void method and I was in the dream, I checked my hand for some reason and I saw it was all fucked up so I knew I was in a dream

While I was trying to ground myself (struggling to do so) my friend helped me by telling me to touch the table, IT WORKED TOO

I stood up and started making yellow portals, I jumped into a few of them before I started feeling symptoms

I could have shifted there but I didn’t know where I was going … I just hopped in without destination or any thought so I js woke up 🙁

A little sad but it has me SO motivated

Shifting is literally so easy when I stop over complicating it

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I figured out why I’ve been struggling to shift

At first I was putting the blame on other things, like not being able to visualize or focus but I know that’s not true because I’ve been doing that even when it’s not for shifting.

The actual problem is I always think ahead.

Whenever I do literally anything I’m always thinking of what I’ll tell people when I’m done. I always make my life as a story I can tell later, to sound impressive or have proof I’m finally living my life.

But I don’t need to do that

I don’t have to be lived in, I just have to live.

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I entered the VOID STATE!!

Quick intro, I’m Alex I’ve known about shifting since 202? And had to try and shift but after a while I forgot about it but recently I got back into it and it’s been so amazing

Into it now

Today I was like super anxious and like feeling weird but I was thinking of shifting a lot

I got home from school and I have some time to kill before I make food so I decided to just try and shift

I lay down, flop around trying a few different methods before I land back on my half asses void method (like usual)

I start to doze off and I’m thinking about my Dr self and all of the sudden I’m holding on by sheer will

All of the sudden my heart is pounding and I just KNOW something is happening

I start screaming in my head that I’m shifting, than I’m Alex sweets and then ..

I’m grounded here 😔

That has got to be the CLOSEST to shifting I’ve ever been like :0 but way more shocked

I’m super light headed right now but I know I’m going to try again later

Begging for tips or like little affirmations I can replete to myself in void state because OH MY GOD I NEED TO DO IT AGAINN!!

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I’ve been getting into shfiting recently and I’ve been REALLY getting into it

I havnt had any success so far, but I’ve gotten little things that give me insane inspiration.

So yesterday I was doing the void method, like usual I was laying and repeating affirmations in my head. My body was sinking, limbs molding into each other and my head was dipping into the bed — basic stuff ??

I didn’t get to the void or shift but I was close, my mind was just being to active at that time

But what happened like 20 mins ago BRO.

I was driving home after helping with painting stuff for school, I decided why not try some light manifesting to strengthen my belief. I told myself I would get home at around 4:08

I got home at 4:07. I said the second I stepped inside it would become 4:08

IT FUCKING WORKED

Like??? Bro?? BRO??

This is SO cool I can’t even lie because wdym it fucking worked that’s so awesome I’m gonna melt

Im starting to work on lucid dreaming too so I just have so much motivation and im so excited already once i end up in my dr im probably not going to come back

Not for a while anyway

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The first rp with them was SO good but because we died in the event we decided to continue on a different rp and it just went downhill

Taught me a lesson to never expect much on ponytown 😔

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Zar’Goth?!?!?!?!

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Lil cutie

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