starpie

19 and spiraling

[losingmymindfasterthankcals]

june rules <3 (you can follow along if you’d like!!)

-3 fasts a week minimum

-days that fasting doesn’t occur, my limit is 600 cals

-my cal counter must show that i have burnt off half of that by the end of the day or it’s an automatic fast tmr

- weigh-ins are every 2 days because i love my scale

- i have a tough time drinking water so atleast 2 water bottles a day

[wwwiaen]

remember, you have been craving that food for five seconds, while you have been craving that body for years and years. do you want to keep being miserable forever?

[leililwl]

i love how empty f@sting makes me feel. best feeling in the world ♡

[thinslixis]

Let's play a game called "how skinny can I get until my mum genuinely apologises to me"

[kcodii1]

Imagine, being able to sit down and hunch over whilst still maintaining a completely flat or sunken in stomach. Not having to feel hideous when you see how big your arms look when they're flat to your side. Being able to see your bones instead of layers of fat each time you look in the mirror. You dont have to imagine it, you can have it. Just dont lose control and practice discipline and you WILL get there.

[meowmurin]

[meowmurin]

look good, feel good

keeping accountability every day, everything i eat.

5’2 108 lbs

kinda pissed i didn’t keep the best track of everything i’ve been eating for the past few days but trrrrrust me i’ve been very aware of whenever i eat. ive slipped up here and there but thankfully only bites. a sandwich, tacos, not horrible but definitely made me feel fat.

i even almost accidentally let myself slip up with cheesecake. well to be fair, i did, but i threw most of it up not even an hour later.

i don’t want to necessarily encourage others but i understand needing this. i need to be thinner. im waking up now at 108 lbs which makes me super happy but im still fat. i’m giving it time, the results will show soon considering ive been eating roughly 1200-1500 cals a day and starting a work out plan tonight.

i’m going to try my best to continue this little blog up lol because its a great way to build consistency and discipline.

[imcold0]

Imagine hating me and im just at home doing this

[meowmurin]

look good, feel good

keeping accountability every day, everything i eat.

5’2 115 pounds

2 coffees 280 cals

5 carrots 30 cals

2 turkey ham slices 140 cals

cheese stick 90 cals

5 crackers 70 cals

10 grapes 35 cals

10 grapes 35 cals

half a margarita 200 cals

small vodka redbull 200 cals

2 crackers with tuna 80 cals

5 carrots 30 cals

turkey ham 70 cals

5 grapes 20 cals

today was really fucking hard but it’s also my first day really trying and being aware. i always eat less (or ironically, more) when im not aware so now at least i can keep accountability by writing everything down.

roughly around 1200 calories today. i’m struggling but im learning to love it.