Unlucky. Is it just a fault in my stars?
Guess I just very unlucky in life. Families and love life. Though I can say I did very well in my career.
Why doe they expect perfection from me? Stop expecting I can do everything all at once and excel everything. I am extremely tired and to be honest, sometimes depressed due to their wishes and instructions.
Then last week, I decided to move out and try living on my own without fully interfered by them. I can say most of them were disappointed at my decision. But, let me do what I want for once. Maybe I’ll regret it later, or maybe not. Who knows, I just don’t want to be an extra baggage here in the household. I don’t think I’m very much needed in here anyway. Well, except for fulfilling those instructions given.
I am extremely exhausted at this.
I am head over heel for him for quiet sometimes, I constantly texted him and tried to communicate with him. I think I annoyed him at some point. At that very moment, when I fell for him hard, he broke my heart for a few times, cheated on me, lied to me, ignored me, upset at me for no reason, abandoned and rejected me and now he’s back at square one.
Now, he constantly texted me everyday with petty stuff, calls me dear, acted very sweet and gentleman. If I were still head over heel for him, I’d sure run and throw myself at him. But no. I think at this point, I got tired and my 518% of attachment and feeling towards him has dropped to 35%? I still did reply his text, but with less enthusiasm, unlike before.
This new year, I wan’t to lessen his affection towards me. Because though he kept on acting so sweet these days, there’s no way I can fully trust him like I did before. No. I just can’t undo those terrible things he did before.
Be good to me. I am tired of thinking about relationship. I wan’t to focus more on my career, get a good salary and enjoying my life. Dear 2016, bring more lucks, prosperity and blessing to me, pretty please? ^_^
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