the deadest of pixels

i'm not that funny. { rp. }

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[mepixels-blog]

Me: this person likes me and I have done nothing to upset them or make them dislike me. Everything is fine.

Anxiety: okay...that sounds fake but ok...

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[heliosv-deactivated20180626]

[coltre]

[thekneegrope-deactivated2015060]

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[melisica]

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I think it would be cool to have a normal brain for at least a day. So I didn’t have to live in a house with my friends and have the constant fear of them thinking I’m an asshole. Am I an asshole? I feel like I’ve been nothing but a fucking asshole for the past...whenever I got here. Excuse my language.

[coltre]

heart: *develops feelings* brain : no nO NO NOOO (chorus:no no no) stick to the status quo

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[wasoos]

i’m kinda fine but I kinda want to lay on the floor and never get up, so

[mepixels-blog]

Called up pizza place, stuttered out a pizza order, spent half an hour panicking about how the guy must think I’m an idiot. Gonna be one of those nights, and I just wish my brain would shut the fuck up.

Even though that guy does think I’m stupid.

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Life is fine, which confuses me. It’s probably more than fine, it’s better than it used to be. But the sneaking suspicion that everyone hates me is less “sneaking” and more “I fucking know they do”. So, I guess disappearing in my room for days on end is an acceptable method of coping. Acceptable in my book, definitely.

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a friend: [touches my hair]

me: [relaxes instantly, hums in approval, feels truly at peace with the universe]

[thesubliminal]

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