that gentle german girl

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Mond (moon in german); handdrawn and edited by @merlebnis (me)

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Day 22 and who are you?

-had very little school today (cause our teacher is in quarantine (her son‘s classmate got the rona so yay))

-had an episode making a big mess while baking brownies for our class hangout tonight (thank god my mom wasn‘t home to witness the chaos)

-drove for the first time with one of my best friends while it was her first time driving with anyone outside her family and her driving instructor (and the letting her drive the five minutes from my to her house completely alone (it went better than i feared but i did the parking after standing in a bush on the sidewalk)

-had a great evening with our classmates and our teacher was really open and supportive the whole time, just an overall really chill atmosphere

So yeah the evening was nice but you can all guess at this point, that i didn‘t do shit for cleaning my room and it get‘s messier by the minute...

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Day 21 (that‘s like 12, just different)

-couldn’t get myself to tidy anything or do productive stuff (yay to my bad cleaning habits i can‘t escape)

-met with my dad and at lesst did so sport in the form of swimming in his pool (maybe the last time this year (kinda sad but i really like autumn so kinda exciting too))

-almost finished the rolling stones dvd today and it is this really stupid kind of hilarious (at least for us lol)

so today was also kinda interesting as it was the first time being at my dad‘s place on a workday and it was like a small view into his and his family‘s normal daily life.

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Day 20 for all my non existent followers:

-had a pretty stressful school day (and long (mostly long))

-did the sport (and than another)

-did the homework

-did no cleaning or creative stuff so that‘s not great

Yeah not that interesting of a day huh.

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Let’s go day 19:

-me and my friends found the p0rn section in our drugstore‘s dvd shelf and spent way to much time laughing at the ridiculous titles like 14 year olds (how can you not laugh about escalation of ejaculation?? (there were way too many films for 16 and higher))

-my bf visited me and we spend the day watching netflix and after he left i finished the book i was reading (i‘m very nervous about my dreams now because i vividly process such stuff in them (see me on one-time-i-dreamed, or not))

-didn‘t do anything productive today, certainly not sports so tomorrow‘s gonna be a nightmare i‘m exited (p.e. and ballet kill me now)

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Day 18 here we go:

-didn‘t do much of anything except reading but after bringin back the car to my grandma did some schoolwork for the week

-one of them was this writing words as their meaning task and i did the german word for moon (Mond) so the o is obviously the moon and the other letters are like constellations and i think it turned out really nice :)

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Ookey here we go with day 17

-slept in as always and when i finally woke up found the bed gravity to powerful

-did some shopping and a bit of cleaning in the living room (which my mom and her boyfriend were so nice to let me and my friends use while they visited friends (thx mom :)))

-when my best bois and gurls finally arrived we watched saphireblue (a pretty good german movie) and had a blast

-picked another friend and our indian food up and had the weirdest desserts after our meal because the restaurant was so nice to gibe us indian snacks for free and it tasted really weird and funny to us (but some misunderstanding lead to one thing to be called frick and the other frick balls so that was really funny to our mentally 13 year old brains)

-finished the movie and had a really good time so overall a pleasent small gathering at a really fun evening :) (also peppa pig is 10x funnier if u watch it in dutch cause it really sounds like drunk german (dinosAUrus; grr))

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Day 16 way too late but here we goo

-woke up way too late to do anything else than get the car from my grandma and pick up my friends from their field trip (yay for not doing school work and productive things)

-had a blast filming us throwing rocks down a hill (producing a rolling stones DVD)

-did some more scetches in the evening (i really am a thousend times more creative when my workspace is organized)

So yeah nothing special overall but still a fun day :)

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Hey hey here‘s day 15

-it felt really like a friday cause tomorrow‘s no school for me and i‘m planning shit with my friends so here‘s me going to sleep really late and regretting it ater waking up (i predict)

-did some art stuff today and painted a paper crane, that was fun (paper cranes > paper planes fight me)

-didn‘t do any school stuff so i try to wake up early and actually do stuff, we‘ll se if it works

-nothing special happened otherwise, just cooced with my bf and hung out with him, which is always nice

It‘s now exactly 1:23 so i‘ll go sleep :)

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Day thirteen ((scary) but not actually cause this is day 14)

-did the school

-had a pretty fun day with my friends and a great break cause we had some free time between lessons and the city centre was not as overrun as always

-been dealing with motivational issues (nothing new here) but in the end i cleaned my desk and now that‘s an aisle of tidiness in a sea of chaos

-hope i don‘t have any homework left because i‘m going sleep now and i can‘t be bothered to loose any precious minute of sleep (at least i don‘t have to go to school on friday because everyone else is on a biology field trip and i don‘t have biology)

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Hey hey so here‘s day 12 i think

edit: i thought wrong this is day 13

-had much school but not as much because hockey was canceled last minute (not complaining tbh (i mean the official name for the course is literally stick games))

-still got time to finish my second pointe shoes and try them out in class today :) they feel great but i still have to form then so imma not get too exited at the moment (at least i try to)

-had to do some homework about soap bubbles so i got inspired and try to draw some but these frickers are very hard to draw so i’ll try again in the future

And now‘s sleepytime so night night :)

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Ok for everyone (0 people) who wondered where the updates went i have to say that i need to find my rhythm again so i write these actually before going to sleep.

Here‘s to recap day 12:

-i did my homework and all things school related after a good two hour nap nd many more of just laying around after class (but i did it!)

-sew one pointe shoe finished and don‘t know if the other one is gonna be ready for my ballet lessons tonight

-felt really like a college student as we went to a cafe and did school work that morning, except college isn‘t like that atm cause of the Virus stuff

-i did some more research into my dream majors and am mildly optimistic because there are german game studios hiring so i‘m positive they‘ll be some hiring when i finished my studies

-plan b is always becoming an interior designer cause of the Sims lol

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Day 10 & 11 because i was at my bfs place yesterday.

-i really missed him so much (even though it was like a week max)

-didn‘t do many productive things except so Ring Fit (i like that game pretty much) and helping at the confirmation of the daughter of a person i have a complicated connection to (was pretty good and we got money and free food)

-different PC Setups from my own kill me every time (like literally ingame)

-i‘m tired and not really excited for school tomorrow

-and i bought some new pointe shoes today, hopefully they‘ll not somehow do an 180 on me and feel awful with the ribbons on

I think that‘s it generelly, i hope tomorrow will be better for my demessyfication. Good night for now

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Okay so here‘s the recap of day 9:

-first it was nothing out of the ordinary and in school my friends and i planned to meet in the evening for some casual fun

-i spilled ketchup on my pants as a demonstration of my skills of not being able to eat (that night i also spilled beer on my pants as a demonstration of me not being able to drink)

-at home i just hang around not being able to do something productive and then i got into a small argument about my bf not wanting to go to the gathering

-in the end it was a nice evening because he did eventually come with me and for the first time in a very long time we had a sleepover at his place

So in the end everything turned out fine and i‘m happy overall (except not having done anything yesterday and being a lazy bastard)

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Me trying to keep in my emotions like:

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Okay so here‘s the recap of day 8:

-my clothes are completely reorganized and now i got a whole new empty shelf i don‘t know what to do with (put stuff in is my best bet at the time (but what stuff though?))

-got really tired after that and had a good long nap to really frick my sleeping scedule (was dreaming wild things as usual)

-not much else happened today but i‘ve totally given into my social media addiction and watched nonstop YouTube or scrolled through Instagram/Tumblr

-i really want a kawaii Lolita dress but am worried about the size difference between Japan and Europe, don‘t know when to wear it and am currently broke (sad life for my inner pastel princess (am currently looking for cute casual wear to at least have a taste of the kawaii life))

-my cat can be a real smug about laying with me and not being able to walk on the slippery roof in the rain (i‘m sorry i‘m concerned about your dumb ass falling off my lady (and am also sorry about not immediately petting you when you just woke me up with the loudest purr in the world))

-i have to do some homework anytime now and am not exited about that because i haven‘t gotten to cleaning my workspace and school stuff (big oof on the school productivity side)

Maybe tomorrow will be a day complete without social media who knows if i can do that.

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Hey hey look who got through a whole week today (me. it‘s me. (but you too so great job stranger :)))

So far this whole project showed my incompetence to stick to a plan, or maybe my reflection skills and the ability to adapt my behaviour. Who knows...

Today was a pretty good day because i got pretty far in cleaning out and reorganizing my clothes and it hits different when things you use daily are just made so much more convenient when they actually have a logical storage space. So what i‘ve learned today:

-i‘m becoming a sucker for neatly stored things that are easy to overview (i‘ve not worn half of my socks this year because they were stuffed away under other socks (kinda sad about not being able to wear my fruit socks because they‘re short and it get‘s cold))

-i just need that first move into the direction of working or tidying up and after that i‘m so concentrated on the details and doing it right, i can‘t be stopped easily (so i‘m the definition of inertia (once i‘m rolling you can‘t stop me))

-i‘m utterly convinced there is always the same amount of chaos in my space. Every time i try to remove some of the chaos, new chaos comes into existence in another place. (that sucks but some day everything will be neat and tidy (even if it‘s the day i‘m moving out of my mother‘s home))

-at some point i need breaks to get through the day. My body physically needs some time off, but i often feel like i can‘t get up again after that downtime (can i give away that inner magnet that attrects me to distractions and lying around unproductively the whole day?)

But overall it was a success and next week will be better than this one.

See you laters alligators