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Masterpost 2.0

Hello and welcome to my overhauled Masterpost. ^^

I’m not sure if it’s better than before, but it’s up-to-date and prettier (in my opinion). And it has smileys now. :D

About Me:

early twenties | they/them; fae/faer | not actually from Berlin

AO3-Profile

University student majoring in History.

English is my second language, so, please forgive vocab/grammar/syntax mistakes – they tend to pop up from time to time, especially if I’m tired.

I’m always open to talking to people! It might take me a bit to answer (I'm really terrible at answering people), but always feel free to start conversations via DMs or send asks. <3

Fics: mostly Angst, Hurt/Comfort & Found Family, sometimes a bit of fluff; mostly Transformers

Ships: ships may vary depending on continuity/story and are usually not the focus of my writing; however, OptiRatch (TFP) keeps popping up here and there;

other hyperfixations: varying, but I really love the Spellslinger series by Sebastian de Castell; X-Men: FC and DoFP;

Fanfic Overview:

#masterpost #fanfiction #fanfic recs #ao3 fanfic #as a new post bc I wrote this over a few days in my drafts #and then realised that I would need to re-adjust a lot of the formatting again if I just copy-and-pasted #it into my existing master post #And yeah #I definitely jinxed myself back when I wrote that one and mentioned that I was keeping up well with it #but well #here is the new one #all shiny and new #and it probably won't stay like that for very long #so enjoy for as long as you can :)

Considering that I'm already at 6k words and I've barely started transcribing hand-written scenes, I have very little hope for Numb Little Bug chapter 6.

But I think that it's pretty much impossible for chapter 7 to get out of hand like that. Like, that should be the first time since chapter 2 that a chapter actually decides to stick to a word count of roughly 10 k words. (*knock knock knock on wood*)

#I'm not back from hiatus.#joking about Numb Little Bug's word count just transcends hiatus :3 #I haven't been working on fanfic too much bc of important university stuff but I've had some time this weekend due to visiting family #numb little bug

I think I'll be taking a tumblr pause for a bit. I haven't been online much anyway, but I feel like I've been allowing random fandom discourse to get into my head and it's been discouraging me from writing (honestly, sometimes my brain's a dick). Plus, I've been more tired lately than usual which really isn't quite ideal at all. So, really, a break is in order. Has been in order for a while probably.

I just want to take some time to focus on university (it's the last term of my bachelor), my (mental) health and my fics.

#no clue when I'll be back #probably end of april at the earliest #i might post on ao3 in the meantime #but i honestly don't know about that yet either #bc I've barely touched my notebook since wip week #and even back then it was already starting to feel like a drag

tokkibean

nothing reveals typos better than the ao3 publish button. who needs spellcheck honestly

writingdose

sometimes fanfic writing with english as your second language is “oh no! looks like I’ve ran out of english” or “that’s it, I give up english” half way through your fic. and then you continue writing in english.

#yes

chickensmashed

I love you dehumanisation and objectification of x-men telepaths; Jean Grey will forevermore be worshipped as a god, a concept of the universe, a cosmic being for the rest of her life, and can no longer live as a normal living person who loves, laughs, and cries; Charles Xavier views himself as a tool, 'something' easy to hate, a utility to be used and discarded once he exhausts all his 'usage' after an entire childhood spent in the shadows of his father's experiments; Emma Frost isolates and shuts herself off from others, baring her teeth to the world and hardening herself as the x-men's rock and anchor during their darkest hours (M-day) yet never letting herself feel emotions or get close to anyone.

All of them hated yet objectified and worshipped beyond reason for a gift none of them asked to be born with. All of them cursed to be feared because people assume they want to manipulate and control the world but it was the world who manipulated and controlled and tortured them first. Oh my tragic tragic tragic telepaths how I love you all.

justbreakonme

Caretaker who believes they are only a pit stop in people’s lives. They’re here on earth to care for other people, and watch them move on. They’re don’t know who they are when they aren’t taking care of someone else. There’s a sadness to them but no resentment. After all, it’s their purpose, right? They’re not someone’s soulmate, they’re no one’s “special someone”, and that’s…fine. It’s all fine.

#mh…. potential hot take but #es bumblebee #idk if anybody else can see the vision

madamadamiu

"...[The protesters] are recording their own deaths."

"It is as if the camera and the eye have become united in the same body.... Its lens and its memory have replaced the tissue of the brain. In other words, their cameras are not cameras, but eyes implanted in their hands: an optical prosthesis."

protest. The Aesthetics of Resistance; The Pixelated Revolution by Rabih Mroué

#that sounds super interesting #should definitely check it out

roodlesdoodles

…so there has been a resurgence of my fixation on Transformers and uh…yeah I’m not sorry about it.

#:D

justbreakonme

Caretaker who hates everyone but Whumpee. They found Whumpee beat down and broken and the door to their soul cracked open just enough to let them in before slamming shut again.

Whumpee has no idea why everyone else thinks Caretaker is such an asshole, because all they’d ever known from them was kindness.

Whumpee heals, slowly becoming aware of their position as the exception, meanwhile Caretaker is being slowly softened by Whumpee and the process of genuinely caring for another person.

#ratchet and bee #if I’m feeling extra self-indulgent

roll-to-the-sideblog

accidentally added this Ratchet pic to my cat board instead of my Ratchet board (named daddy ambulance, naturally) but i realized it fits so i kept it there

I feel like I should update my masterpost, but I really don't want to because it's going to take forever... ^^" But then if I wait, it's only going to be more update material... ^^"

#rambling

A Little Left of Right - Chapter 7

This time: Bumblebee's first night at the Shattered Glass Decepticon base. And he is absolutely continuing his worrisome behaviour. c:

I know it doesn't always feel like it, but once in 1.5 fortnite, I do update my stories.

#A little left of right #allor #my fics #this has nothing to do with ALLOR but I can report that my gaydar is absolutely on point #I've clocked every gay person in my shitty medical drama within five seconds of them being introduced xD