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legally allowed to buy booze and weed, but not legally allowed to seize the means of production. don't know what my life is meant to be, someone please help.

[merlinwycoff]

It seems one of my old friends from high school deleted their Snapchat recently. all those conversations and messages we sent each other for nearly 5 years, the last bit of evidence of a friendship lost to the passing of time.

I don't know quite how to feel, it kinda hurts, like a wound indescribable with words but immediately known to the soul.

[merlinwycoff]

I don't know why I'm like this, but I both want to ask people to compliment me more and also do not under any circumstances want to appear vain

[merlinwycoff]

Deeply craving the embrace of a person who loves me

[merlinwycoff]

Thinking about how I hardly receive compliments, and how I don't want to sound vain by asking people to compliment me

[sandersstudies]

Very torn between “Queen Elizabeth is a colonizer” and “but I do want her to outlive her stupid son”

[solarpoweredcreature]

Personally I think it would be funnier if he dies incredibly quickly after he gets the crown. Like world record shortest time with the crown quickly

[sandersstudies]

You’re illuminating me. Heart attack the moment the crown touches his balding scalp.

[sandersstudies]

Prince Charles dies on live television during his coronation likes charge reblogs cast

[jimmyfury]

sorry i absolutely HAVE to add how this looked on my dash

[merlinwycoff]

Wish I wasn't always feeling the desire to kill myself

[merlinwycoff]

I wish I knew when people are interested in me, bc gods I'm lonely. I just can't risk losing any friends by asking to their feelings, and it just leads to problems. I'm so tired

[merlinwycoff]

I don't want to exist anymore. Covid and now monkeypox, burgeoning recession, everyone is being overworked, fascism on the rise, rampant austerity, climate disasters are escalating, and worst of all; I don't have anyone to talk to about all of this.

I don't have a partner, close friend, or even a psych. My meds aren't doing anything to help, and drugs aren't working anymore.

I'm genuinely worried that I might flip and do something horrible. I hate this shit

[merlinwycoff]

I'm losing all my old friends and it's keeping me from making new ones

[merlinwycoff]

I've made so many friends and acquaintances lately, yet I'm still having recurring suicidal thoughts. This is some bs

[merlinwycoff]

I really hate it when I ruin relationships with people I care about, wish I didn't push people away so much

[merlinwycoff]

Holy shit I'm having a bad time. It's taking most of my will to resist the suicidal thoughts that hit me multiple times daily, none of my friends are talking to me; worst of all is I can't stop thinking about the person I blew my chance with because I keep seeing her around. Why did I have to fall for her so hard and so fast, and why can't I stop thinking about what could've been? I need to move on, maybe somebody will reach out without me having to initiate things

[merlinwycoff]

I'm honestly on the verge of suicide

[merlinwycoff]

A hot goth into axe throwing and cooking. I ruined my chances with a hot goth into axe throwing and cooking. Talk about an utter and absolute tragedy

[mtfoss]

Disabled people aren't being class traitors when they report on their civil rights and humanity being violated

[mtfoss]

You all need to be very very careful in these next couple of years to be extremely good allies to disabled people because it is very likely they are going to attempt to kill us and the way that's done in this country over the past few decades has been denying us access to necessary services and the money we need to acquire most of those services. So many people have died waiting on disability and the likelihood that this is going to get worse is very very high.

[mtfoss]

Hey, please take this seriously, this is me ringing the warning bell like I've done often over my life, I have been dismissed often and then have been proven by time to be correct. I would appreciate abled people sharing this.

[mtfoss]

[curiouscalembour]

i’ve been fighting to get disability for six fucking years, this is before we got a lot more disabled people cause of covid, all of whom the government wants gone

[infectedwithnyanites]

It's a silent genocide being committed by ableist eugenicists. If you're non-productive and can't have your labor exploited for the benefit of private capital your life has no value to the monsters who control our society. The judicial and state bureacracy intentionally moves at a snails pace in processing disability claims and cases to deliberately wipe out as many people as possible. The government is committing mass murder in this way and a hundred others.

[brunhiddensmusings]

this is pretty much exactly the kind of shit that was called out by Charles dickens and then you realize how little progress has been made in 150 years

[merlinwycoff]

Something about your best friend being confused as to why you started meds recently, as if they didn't spend over a decade hanging out with you and seeing you struggle with depression for a long ass time, that really just crushes a part of my soul deep down

[merlinwycoff]

I am consistently reminded of how much I missed out by fucking up on that relationship.i cannot believe how much I fucked up