I haven’t been on here since I was 17 and now I’m currently 19. I’m still in the same shit hole a boyfriend whos now cheated on me twice his family who loved me once before hates me because we were talking about moving in together. His sister who is my age makes fun of me right in front of me their family friend and her best friend posted on ig saying I’m a cunt deserve to get broken up with deserve to have a mental breakdown I’m a dick and controlling. I’ve been dating this kid since I was 15 I never told him what to do once I’ve never controlled any aspect of his life he is is own person and it has always been that way. Yet because we discussed something it’s my fault I’m the reason. His mom cursed me out and called me every name under the sun too. And I saw the friend and sister yesterday they acted as if I wasn’t even here laughing in front of my face. The people who I’ve invited to my house taken out to dinner went to my job for massages would go grocery shopping with. My heart just hurts it hurts so bad and it’s not like the one person who I’m dating would actually care. He gets angry Bc I’m not running to talk to them I’m not overly happy and because it upsets me and I ask him to talk about it with his friends and sister Bc when I tried she just called me a cunt again. I’ve never wanted to run so far away and never come back im suppose to be working but I just want to go to the Disney college program and escape I want to be alone and distracted I want to be 15 years old and not have to deal with all of this. Contrary to popular belief words hurt and they hurt the worst from the people you care about the most.
