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dont ever come near me again. dont try to talk to me, and dont you ever dare try to come back into my life

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You got excused because you were mentally ill, yet you caused me my mental illness.

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you ripped my heart out and played me like a fool, having me wrapped around your little finger for years. i wish you could admit to your new partner the disgusting things you did to me so they would have the chance to run away before you screwed them over too

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I wanna play that game again. It's one of my FAVORITE games. but I can't even open it without thinking of you and all the pain you caused me. When the hell will you stop haunting me?

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I think I might have ptsd after this. and its so fucking stupid too. but the way you hurt me, I TRUSTED you. I was a fucking dumbass. I wish I took off those rose colored lenses sooner. I couldn't sleep until after 4 am when i should've been asleep at 10 pm. I was so scared you'd come after me and hurt me again. But clearly, you're sorry. fuck that shit.

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Ironic that someone I thought I loved managed to make my shitlist huh? I Don't. Get. Angry. And yet, when I think of you, I'm absolutely furious. I don't act like myself. I care less about others. I hate it. I hate you. Why won't you fucking get out of my head.

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I'm so hesitant to call you an abuser because you said you were abused, but whatever the hell you were, it certainly wasn't fucking good. You lied to me at least fucking twice over major fucking issues. How do I know you didn't lie to me about other things? Or that you *ever* told me the truth? I cared about you. We knew each other for two years. We dated for just over one. And I don't know if you ever told me the god damn truth. I want things to be better, but you need to stay tf away from me.

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the things you encouraged me to do and the person you encouraged me to be will haunt me until the day I die.

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i killed a part of me to keep you alive

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I hate that I still have to defend you to my family. You were a hateful, denigrating, violent, abusive piece of shit, but I still don't let people talk shit about your transition. And yet you still have the gall to say those things about me.

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you ruined my longest-running relationship. you manipulated me into being angry at her and afraid of her. i cant look at her anymore without remembering all of the pain you caused us

[messagestomyabuser]

Kill me kill me kill me kill me, God, please kill me, i caNT TAKE IT ANYMORE, YOU SON OF A BITCH

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you broke me. i can’t trust anyone anymore because of you and your fucking little friends.

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you have put internalized self hatred into my body. I am unable to enjoy things without catching myself in the act and then getting frustrated. My significant other has to watch me tear myself apart because I can't be happy without your voice calling me obnoxious. My significant other has to deal with the shit you did to me. This is all your fucking fault.

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stop preying on fucking minors you sick fuck. stop saying I liked it.

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i love how you just conveniently “forgot” to ask for consent in the heat of the moment after i told you no earlier that day and you conveniently "didnt notice" me shaking and almost crying. youre a rapist and i hope you feel so bad you never even consider touching another person again. 

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I thought I was a bad victim because I didn't fight back. You raped me, I took a shower, and then we sat on your bed and talked about your dysphoria. You did it again. I took another shower. We sat on your bed again and I offered to help buy you a binder.