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Reasons to get up at 5.45am to get some fresh air before work #1

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little reminder that your eating disorder is nothing without you and you could be anything without your eating disorder

if you don’t feed it, it can’t live

if you feed yourself instead, you can

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self reminder

recovery is not about always being strong and amazing and happy, it’s about trying to be those things even when I don’t feel like it

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p.s. recovery is worth it

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To anyone recovering/recovered who has gotten their period back after a large amount of time without one, was it really really all over the place and pretty light when it returned? Have just come on for the third time this month (each about a weeks break) and it's really getting me down and also not good. Am on the mini-pill and don't know why it's so not normal? Anyone any idea? Help? Please?

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If the thing you’re most proud of today is getting out of bed and making yourself breakfast then the thing I’m most proud of today is you.

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and don’t let anyone make you feel bad about it

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Advice please someone? Okay so I'm at a very healthy weight and food is varied and healthy and sufficient however unless I have been on a break from the combined pill (which only happened twice as I switched over to the mini pill a couple of months ago) I haven't had a period since before I was ill... I'm starting to get really worried and I've spoken to doctors about it in the past however oestrogen and progesterone, LSH and FSH levels have all been normal when I've been tested and they've never seemed too worried. Basically I want my period back and/or some advice about fertility etc. If anyone can help it would be muchly appreciated!

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it’s hard because a lot of the time recovery doesn’t feel like winning. it doesn’t feel like freedom and happiness. recovery isn’t always laughing over lunch with friends. it’s not constantly feeling like the strongest person in the world. times like those you’ve got to remember just because it doesn’t feel like winning even though it doesn’t feel like freedom and happiness neither does it feel like coldness and hunger no longer are you fading away so maybe it isn’t laughing over lunch with friends or feeling like the strongest person in the word but neither is it dying alone in your bedroom and you know you’re stronger than you were before recovery isn’t always going to feel great it’s not always going to be the best but recovery isn’t going to kill you it’s a whole lot better than the alternative

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Fight it to the end.

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this change is not a bad thing

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I’m not going to look back in ten years time wishing I’d stayed sicker for longer I won’t begin to despise my health or wake up in the morning wishing I’d been just that little bit closer to dying ‘I wish I’d spent a few more years denying myself a life’ is not something that will ever pass my lips I learnt to choose breakfast, lunch, dinner food over words to live, not just survive the pain I can save my family will not be a regret of mine the hours I will swap for adventure over isolation I will not look back in ten years time wishing I’d stayed sicker for longer not choosing life would be my only regret and I’ll be looking forward, instead

it is okay to choose recovery today no matter where you are (via metamorphosisofmeg)

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struggling means that you’re trying

and trying means you still have the chance to make it we’ll get there some day  (via metamorphosisofmeg)

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Write a list of things that are going to get better. Start with you.

for when things don’t feel so good you will get better (via metamorphosisofmeg)