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@meyuelikesbirds
Thought I should make this bc I'm actually posting stuff on here now;;
About Me:
✿ I'm Meyue (20) and I should really be locking in for my classes instead of yapping on here :') This is both a personal AND writing blog.
✿ Current Hyperfixations: Genshin Impact (for my blorbos Illuga and Lohen) + Project Sekai (WxS, mainly Nene)
More info below the cut!
10 People I'd Like to Get to Know Better
tagged by @californianedgeworth, thank you very much!! :^]
last song: vanilla (unplugged version) by gackt on repeat! i love when there's another version of a song and it's awesome like yippee more song per song for me!!!
currently watching: supposedly kamen rider w (famously pronounced "double") and kamen rider ooo (famously pronounced "ohs") but i keep forgetting to do so
currently reading: just finished random shelf pick "black hat jack" (western novella) so nothing at the moment..... thank you for reminding me to put more comics on hold!
current obsession: still "den-o yakuza crossover 4koma ideas" LMAO, still thai tea, and perhaps now i should look into visual kei (due to gackt)
currently working on: supposedly the one (1) single drawing of my oc (eve le vilnight) i've been shirking for weeks, which is the only thing holding back me and my friends' "oc interview zine volume 2" from completion.......
currently wearing: pajamas (tshirt and shorts)
last google search: "golden kamuy asirpa miso" cus i was trying to use her disgusted expressions as a reference for something LOL
no pressure at all but tagging @sparkbird @most-calm-revice-and-geats-fan @localbirdperson @mlimby @wirtsroom @courierrsix @cleveradjacent @kentm4nsley @rowenoke @zoetheduckling
(and also anyone else who sees this!!)
Oh shit guess I’m doing this-
tagged by @wvnaros
last song: Highlight by KIRA ft. Hatsune Miku (I listen to a lot of Vocaloid)
currently watching: Nothing much, but I’ve lately seen a few episodes of Ultraman Teo and Kamen Rider Blade as of late!
currently reading: Days at the Torunka Café by Satoshi Yagisawa (translated by Eric Ozawa), a book picked up at a charity shop after I got curious
current obsession: Kamen Rider/Tokusatsu is my main. Bugsnax was my former obsession! Amongst my Rider loving, I also have interests in Mario, Rayman and Vocaloid. Other interests or anything I latch onto for a while are very niche and I get embarrassed talking about them sometimes TwT
currently working on: Currently have a drawing of Kamen Rider Keilow and Kamen Rider Dread planned, but I have other projects and other stuff to go through first. I always like keeping myself busy!
currently wearing: Pyjamas; fleecy pink long sleeves with big white star prints! (It’s 4:34am here help-)
last google search: Pokémon X/Y Vivillon all patterns (looking them up for a friend)
Okay peoples (it’s okay to ignore this and I apologise for pinging): @joker-undead @diehollenpolizei @mephilesthedork @takerusatohismyworstenemy @dawnisbadatgames @flaretumbles360 @luvimin99 @whyaamihere @partridgeinayanderetree @sapphirefrost1
Wasn't expecting a tag LOL here goes nothing!
Last Song: Parade from Paprika (Gumi cover)
Currently Watching: Uhhh..... Haven't watched much recently besides YouTube videos but Kamen Rider Zeztz
Currently Reading: haven't been reading in a while but I plan on continuing the Once Upon A Broken Heart series soon!
Current Obsession: Kamen Rider, Uma Musume, Vocaloid (and vocal synths in general), Pretty Cure and Super Sentai
Currently Working on: Nothing yet but I plan on writing and drawing stuff
Currently Wearing: Pyjamas
Last Google Search: It was either "pinkpantheress songs", "TV tropes" or a name website. Google on mobile is kind of a bitch when it comes to figuring out what the last thing you googled was.
@bluvioletbird @theinkedfoxsl @kamenriderdawn @kingsparkles03 @covetkisses @kamenridergaysex @mariinetact @mooniebakugf @denebsapphic @maou-the-tree
thank u for the tag oomfie
Last Song: just tonight (the pretty reckless)
Currently Watching: shinkenger!
Currently Reading: my own fics usually
Current Obsession: toku, persona 3/5, wuwa, my own ocs<3
Currently Working on: oc dynamics month and writing blog reqs o7
Currently Wearing: pride shirt and shorts
Last Google Search: halo infinite cortana.....
tagging: @just-etienne, @justablobiguess, @nohookstobefoundhere, @w-erewolf
HI LANEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!
last song: Story of a Warrior by John Michael Howell methinks
currently watching: the wonderfools (i gueeeeesssss?? its been a while since i last watched a show tbh. last watched an ep of the wonderfools in like. june maybe. ...i did watch spiderman brand new day yesterday. if that counts..?)
currently reading: 😭girl who has no time to read(points to self)....but either the Bible or my calc textbook;-;
current obsession: ...hay day. also lowkey playing guitar. mobile legends bang bang. Sovereign of the tower and some other interactive fiction games/stories.
currently working on: passing my summer course;-; (calc 2). and also some short story stuff!! (oc drabbles included)
currently wearing: a hello kitty one piece/nightdress thingy its past midnight i should be sleeping
last google search: terrace (😓i wasnt sure i knew what i terrace was)
tagging: @tiredsleep @mocha-bunbun @sea-of-dandelions @caracalia (are you alive) @cryo-locket (are you alive pt.2)
Omg Yoonyoon (I typed goongoon by accidnet)
last song: Lemonhead - Tyler, The Creator and 42 Dugg
currently watching: interview with the vampire and Hannibal (both very on and off)
currently reading: my nightly fics, if that’s anything
current obsession: ummm. Oc stuff I think??
currently working on: studying and apps 😿
currently wearing: black pajama pants and a baggy maroon Henley
last google search: Are taking expired vitamin B pills safe?
Tagging -> @seaofkavs @koiukiy-o @starglitterz @dogdais + anyone else!!!
omg TIRED !! u already know me mind body and soul pookie what are you @ ing me about 🫶
last song: romanticist by yves tumor (the orphic playlist… teehee)
currently watching: sakomoto days, sparks of tomorrow, off campus !! (watching sakomoto days and drooling over nagumo as we speak)
currently reading: release me by tahereh mafi (but im so bad at reading nowadays…) the poppy war by r.f. kuang (audio book!)
current obsession: enjin (gachiakuta), gojo satoru (im ovulating), phainon (hsr) and FLUFFY WHITE YARN!!!! and that one character xray trend on instagram. and the bastard munchen kaiser jersey i recently bought. AND THE GARLIC BREAD I JUST BAKED!!!!
currently working on: my anaxa series… a crochet project and custom sticker sheets for my friends upcoming bday, relearning unity’s input system for a game jam… my stupid degree, j*b interviews… preparing for panel review on my project, and an ongoing internship!!
currently wearing: dark blue shirt, dark blue shorts and a fugly hair tie. and cinnamoroll socks (highlighted)
last google search: ‘dog friendly restaurants [location]’
tags: YOU, TIRED. @refeverie @chokifandom @pranabefall + anyone else who’d like to join!!
literally never expected to get tagged in one of these ever 😭
last song. serve by xlov
currently watching. tokyo revengers, tougen anki, nanbaka (anime); alchemy of souls, dear x, dream to you (kdrama); rewatching riverdale for fun & keeping up with house of the dragon. … it literally depends on my mood
currently reading. STILL Mo Dao Zu Shi (i’m at the end of the last book); keeping up with sakadays & reading blue lock (still at neo egoist league arc); ao3 fengqing 100k word fics
current obsession. my never ending obsession with eren (aot), xiao (genhin), enhypen (kpop) are my three reasons to live. then, as of today, i cannot stop talking about football (ESPECIALLY liverpool fc & virgil van dijk); shin (sakadays); SAE ITOSHI (bllk); edits of nicholas from &team; lego flowers; skullpanda the root figurine i just got (SO PRETTY AND CUTE I LOVE IT); ginger beer and any drinks with it; knox’ anaxa series; fengqing fanfics; the little donkey keyring my cousins gifted me after their trip to munich for the bts tour; the way the name michael kaiser rolls of your tongue so good; aventurine sp hairstyle<333
currently working on. my wanderer series & fengqing one shot; getting my dream job; physical training for the said dream job; packing my luggage for the future trip to Albania; building a wooden book nook; tidying my room; deep researching MANY things i am interested in, like seed cycling, chinese philosophies & dutch culture and language; farming for odette (i KNOW i can only farm mora, books and weekly boss…) and sandrone; finishing fate x hsr collab event; creating and reordering my spotify playlists
currently wearing. … um only my new pretty pink kyoto city oversized shirt with a huge tiger on the back
last google search. sixth dimension (finally ordered my dream skirt!!)
tags. i would love to know more abt @slviae BUT i also dislike tagging and obliging others to do these soooo if we have anything in common & are mutuals or want to become them, then do it as well (just tag me after<3)!!
my first time getting tagged to these, too ahqjwuznq thank you persephone 𖹭
yapping under the cut ;
another tag game so fun!!! proceed at ur own risk….(lots of yapping)
tagged by @slviae THANK U <333
I LOVE TAG GAMES THIS IS SO FUN <3 i'll contain my yapping beneath the cut hehe
tagged by @kinichiwa thank you thank you!!! <333
Omg omg my first tag game :000
Thanks to @orang3rinds for tagging me!!
Long yap after the cut lmaooo
Around the Rumor Mill (Lohen x Fem!Reader)
Summary: After Lohen joins the knights, you’re left to do your commissions all alone. If only the other adventurers had the same faith in you as they did your ex-adventuring partner...
Also cross-posted to ao3!
WC: 4.4k
Warnings/Tags: Angst, hurt & comfort, Adventurer!Reader, Shy!Reader, reader has a vision (element not specified), rumors directed towards reader, pre-canon, pre-relationship but Reader & Lohen act so close they might as well be dating, Theodore appears briefly in flashback form
Notes: This is technically a prequel to a Lohen x Witch!Reader series I'm working on, which is why I'm using Fem!Reader here. The idea for this fic was inspired by a prompt from @darkmodeilluga in which someone spreads rumors about the reader and Lohen comforts her!
You’ve done this hundreds of times.
Well, Lohen’s done this hundreds of times, but he’s a knight now, so you have to go pick up your commissions on your own. All you have to do is walk up to the request board, pick the four you wanted, let Katheryne know, then go on your merry way.
It should be simple. Easy.
Not for you though, for a multitude of reasons.
On your very first day as an adventurer, you managed to jumble up your words so badly when introducing yourself to the point where the only things that came out of your mouth were your own name and ‘please’.
You vowed to never step foot anywhere near the Adventurers’ Guild ever again after that, and you’ve managed to keep your word. Until now, that is.
Lohen still hasn’t let you live that down, but seeing how genuinely terrified you looked around the other adventurers, he was kind enough to handle the talking for both of you, though not without some teasing.
Honestly, you don’t really know why you choose to stay as an adventurer. The only reason you joined in the first place was because Lohen needed you as an alibi to hide his daily escapades from his parents, insisting it was much easier to tell them he was going out with you every single day.
Maybe it was because you wanted to hold onto this thing that the two of you once shared, so you could still feel connected to him even as you spent less time together.
Maybe it was because, even with this setback, you’d still get to go most of your day without needing to socialize, unlike most other jobs.
Or, maybe you were secretly a masochist like Lohen, who knows?
Taking a deep breath, you walk over to the request board to see the daily commissions.
Two of them instantly catch your eye. A storm eye needed to be dealt with in Dadaupa Gorge, and a hilichurl camp had to be cleared not far away from it. Those shouldn’t be too difficult, even without Lohen’s help.
Unfortunately, just as you pick them off the board, you see someone you recognized as ‘Reckless Pallad’ walking in your direction.
‘Please don’t talk to me, please don’t talk to me, please don’t talk to me-’
“Hi there! It’s a pleasure to finally meet you.” He says, reaching his hand out to you.
You freeze on the spot.
It takes just a little too long for your brain to start working again. When it does, you become acutely aware of how awkward you must look.
“Nice to meet you too!” You say a little too loudly, fumbling to shake his hand. This was not a good first impression, but at least it was better than that other time.
He smiles at you before looking around, confused. “Where’s your adventuring partner? Aren’t you two always together?”
“Oh, it’s just me now. He joined the knights recently… but, thanks for asking?” Your fidget with the paper in your hands. “I’ll, uh, be on my way now. It was nice meeting you!”
Before you could swipe two more commissions and go running for the hills, Pallad looks down at the ones already in your hands before speaking again.
“Are you sure you can handle those on your own?” He gives you a questioning look.
His words throw you for a loop. Why was he doubting you?
“...what’s that supposed to mean?” Looking back up at him, you swear his expression bordered on condescension.
Did you do something to warrant that look?
“It’s common for adventurers to be overconfident in themselves right after they leave an adventuring party.” He laughs. “Here, why not take these instead?”
Before you know it, he’s shoving four random commissions into your hands while taking away the two you already had, claiming those should be much easier for you.
You were too stunned to even respond as he guided you off to Katheryne.
Taking a closer look at the commissions you were given only serves to confuse you more.
Who thought babysitting Klee was an easy commission?! Well, at the very least this was going to be an… interesting day.
“It’s a shame she lost such a good partner. Poor girl, I hope she’s going to be alright.”
Those words catch your attention as you pass by the Adventurers’ Guild later that day. Were those adventurers talking about you?
“She can’t be that desperate for mora if she’s still willing to take on those dangerous commissions, can she?”
Your brows furrow. How did they even come to that conclusion? You wanted to take the same commissions you normally did, with Lohen or not.
Was the other adventurers’ opinion of you really that bad?
“Should we invite her to join our team?”
After hearing them say all that? You wouldn’t join them even if you were as desperate for mora as they claimed.
“Are you kidding?! Did you see who she was partnered with? Half the times he’d come back with some of the worst injuries I’ve ever seen! And there’d she be, unscathed right besides him. She must be a coward for that to be the case…”
You clench your fist. It was Lohen who always ran directly into danger armed with just a dagger and his bow. He was happy to do so! You certainly weren’t willing to do the same. It was a lot harder bludgeoning enemies to death with a catalyst than stabbing them with a sharp object.
“No wonder why he left for the knights, I wouldn’t want to be saddled with someone as useless as that either.”
That isn’t true. You know it isn’t. Lohen would never do that to you and you certainly pulled your own weight.
But even so, hearing those opinions about you hurt way more than it should've. It felt like you were taking a hilichurl club straight to the gut, but at least that would’ve been easy to heal.
“I bet she'll last a week on her own, at most. You know it’s bad when Reckless Pallad takes pity on you!”
Your head was starting to hurt from thinking about their words.
Is that why Pallad came up to you earlier? Were you correct in identifying how he looked at you? Did he really think that lowly of you?
Just how long have people been talking about you behind your back? Has it always been like this, or did they just start recently, thinking you were an easy target now that you were without your knight in shining armor?
You always prided yourself on your perception, so how could you have missed this? Were your skills worse than you thought? Have you just been deluding yourself this whole time?
Did their cruel words have merit behind them?
“Well, all it means is better commissions for us. Finally, we don’t have to worry about those two always taking all the good ones!”
With that, you quietly leave, trying not to let your emotions overwhelm you. If you broke down now, it would only serve to prove them right, that you were as weak-willed and useless as they claimed.
Those were just a couple of words. Mere opinions. Hurtful ones, but surely you've survived much worse.
So why did it hurt so badly?
You must be overthinking things. That had to be it.
Of course it'd be normal for people to doubt you when it always looked like Lohen did all the work.
(But you were always by his side, no? If they've seen the injuries he got, surely they've also seen the neat bandages covering them. The bandages you covered him in. You know you’ve come back with a couple of cuts and bruises of your own multiple times as well. Did they not see that?)
Of course no one believes in your abilities. After all, it was you who went out of your way to conceal them, not wanting to draw unnecessary attention to yourself.
(But, maybe you were wrong in your approach? You didn't even think about how it must have been for Lohen, looking like he was associating with someone who’s nothing but deadweight. Your choice certainly feels like a mistake now. Maybe having all those unwanted eyes on you would be easier to bear with than this.)
Of course.
‘Of course…’
You didn't say anything about this to Lohen when you met up for dinner later that evening. He's been keeping you updated on how quickly he’s climbing the ranks.
You don’t need to distract him.
This was your first test of strength alone, an opportunity to prove to everyone that you’re just as capable as Lohen is. Surely, even if you never worked up the courage to confront those rumoring adventurers directly, the issue will go away on its own with time.
Until then, you could grin and bear it.
With each passing day, more and more people in the guild were treating you like glass: a liability.
There would always be someone to intercept you when you went to go pick your commissions, handing you nothing but the low-risk ones. More often than not, it was one of the adventurers you overheard gossiping about you.
You’d recognize their voices anywhere.
You swear you could hear their whispers growing stronger around you, infecting everyone with their negative views on you.
Those rumors cut deeper and deeper the more you heard them. Yet, why were you getting so worked up over this anyways? You knew better than anyone that they were baseless, and you could prove it easily, all you had to do was stand your ground.
So why couldn’t you do it?
Why do you always freeze up whenever anyone approaches you?
Why couldn’t you say anything to defend yourself?
All it took was one simple action. So why can’t you do anything?
What would Lohen think if he saw you like this? Would he agree with them?
You didn’t want to think about it. It’ll go away on its own. If it didn’t, well–
“Huh, didn't expect to see you here!”
Lohen’s voice catches you off guard while you’re finishing up a commission at the cathedral later that week.
“Eep-! What are you doing here?!”
It was barely the afternoon, shouldn't he be off training somewhere?!
The smirk on Lohen’s face droops ever so slightly. “One of those incompetent knights shot me with a training round. Honestly, I don't know how someone with that bad trigger discipline even makes it into the 5th.”
“What do you mean you got shot?! Where?!” All your previous worries disappear from your mind as you start looking him over, trying to find the wound.
Lohen has the gall to laugh in your face. “Relax, training rounds can barely break through skin. I would know.”
You stare at him, wide-eyed. “How often do you get shot?”
It hasn’t even been a week since he joined the knights, how is this already a normal occurrence?
“Eh, often enough to know they only leave a bruise. A bit of a nasty one, but still, just a bruise.” Lohen sighs, looking down at his arm. “Adorno isn't convinced though. He sent me here to get checked up.”
“But…” His smirk becomes more devious as his eyes return to you, “Since you're here, you can do it instead!”
Throwing an arm around your shoulders, Lohen quickly drags you off to a secluded corner. Upon stopping, he offers you his right arm and looks at you expectantly. As you roll up his sleeve, you're met with one of the nastiest bruises you've ever seen.
“Half the time he’d come back with some of the worst injuries I’ve ever seen! And there’d she be, unscathed right besides him. She must be a coward for that to be the case…” Your hands still for a moment as the adventurer’s words echo in your mind.
“Say, why were you at the cathedral?” Lohen questions as you start healing him.
Your hands pause again momentarily. “Oh. I had a commission there.”
“Really? Why would you pick that one? You hate how talkative some of the nuns are.”
You look away from him. “I woke up late. Got stuck with some of the bad ones.” It was a horrendous excuse, but at least it was somewhat believable.
Quickly glancing back at Lohen, you see him staring directly at you, his expression unreadable.
You don't like how piercing his gaze feels.
He gives you a tilted look before leaning in extremely close to your face. “You know you’re awful at lying, right?”
The sudden closeness makes you take a step back.
“No I’m not!” Your face turns red as you continue looking off to the side, having been caught red-handed.
Lohen jabs two fingers into the side of your neck. “Your heart rate is up, you’re looking everywhere except at me, and your face is giving it away.”
“Rude.” You pry his hand off by the wrist, though you’re reluctant to let go afterwards. His warmth was more than comforting, making you realize just how much you’ve missed him these past few days.
“You okay?” Lohen shifts that same hand up to cup your cheek, with no resistance from you.
He hasn’t seen you look this distraught in a very long time.
“Yeah, adventuring is just a lot lonelier by myself.” You let out a choked laugh, feeling your eyes water.
If only you had the drive to join the knights like him.
You wouldn’t be in this situation if you did, but instead, you’re stuck here dealing with the storm of emotions raging inside you.
“Anyways, I need to get back to my commissions. The one at the cathedral took a bit too long and I still have two left.” You savor the feeling of his hand against your face before you take a step away. “You should get back to the knights as well, Adorno’s probably worried sick.”
You muster up the brightest smile as you wave him goodbye. “Let’s talk some other time! You need to tell me how it’s like being in the knights.”
The feeling of his piercing gaze on you, even as you run away, sends shivers down your spine.
It felt awful shutting him out, but there was no reason to bother Lohen about something as trivial as this. Surely he had more important matters to attend to than you.
Tap tap tap.
That night, you wake up to the sound of something at your window. Groggily opening your eyes, you look over at the small clock on your nightstand.
4:28AM.
There’s only one person you know who’s crazy enough to scale the side of your house at this hour.
You close your eyes and throw your blanket over your head, hoping that a certain someone would get the hint and leave you alone, at least for tonight.
The tapping at your window stops after just a few minutes. You let out a sigh of relief, only to hear the distinct sound of your front door opening moments later.
Sounds like he did not, in fact, get the hint.
“Rise and shine, sleepyhead!” Lohen says cheerfully, nonchalantly entering your room as if he didn’t just break into your house at an ungodly hour.
“You really need to invest in some better locks.” He teases, tearing the covers off you.
“You’re the only person I need to worry about doing this…” You grumble, grabbing your pillow as you flip onto your back, holding it over your face in hopes that maybe, just maybe, he’ll give up and go home.
Lohen was, unfortunately, not a quitter. He proceeds to also rip your pillow away, making you pout and finally open your eyes again, only to be met with an extreme close up of his face. The sudden closeness startles you into a seated position.
“You wouldn’t let your best friend bleed out in your bedroom now, would you?” He says with a smug grin, holding up a medkit he definitely didn’t take from your bathroom cabinet.
Sighing, you take the medkit from his hands before setting it down on your nightstand, trying your hardest to focus in your still half-asleep state.
“You know the drill.” A yawn escapes your mouth along with the words.
By the time you turn back around to face Lohen, he’s already seated on your bed with his cloak and shirt discarded on the floor.
“You should be more careful. Any half decent lockpick could’ve gotten in here just as quickly!" He jokes.
“I gave you a key for a reason.” You deadpan. Turning on the lights, you’re forced to squint as your eyes slowly adjust to the sudden brightness.
Looking at Lohen’s front, you quickly notice something was off.
He didn't have any injuries.
Now that you think about it, his clothes look a little too clean to have just come back from combat. You place a hand on his shoulder to support yourself as you lean over to look at his back, wanting to confirm your suspicions.
As you do, a pair of arms wrap around your waist, squeezing you tightly.
“Lohen! Let go of me-!”
“It's a lot harder for you to run away like this, wouldn't you say?”
Shit.
“You were acting strange today. What’s wrong?” His voice is gentle. “Anyone I need to get rid of?” The second sentence sounds just a little too serious for your liking.
“First of all, please don’t kill anyone. I imagine it’s very unbecoming for a knight.” You can feel tears building in your eyes again. “Second, it’s fine. Nothing to concern yourself with.”
“Anything that concerns you also concerns me.” His soft tone shatters any of your remaining defenses.
“I-” A sniffle cuts you off as the tears start streaming down your face.
“Don’t think you’re getting rid of me that easily just because we aren’t adventuring partners anymore,” he teases, “Now out with it.”
“How do you deal with them?” You mutter, frantically trying to wipe your tears away with your hands.
“Deal with what?” Lohen pulls you down to sit next to him, keeping an arm around you as he hands you a handkerchief.
“People.” You sob, resting your head on his shoulder while unceremoniously blowing your nose into the cloth.
He muses for a moment before responding, “Normally with a dagger.”
“Lohen, I’m serious.”
“So am I! A good threat or two is the perfect thing to get what you want out of people.”
You can imagine it now: If Lohen was in your situation, those adventurers would’ve stopped day one. The thought makes you laugh, even as your eyes start to sting.
“That’s not going to stop the rumors. It may make them worse, actually.”
“What rumors?” He questions.
You try to look away, only for Lohen to place a hand on your cheek, forcefully turning your head back towards him.
“What rumors?” He repeats, tone colder this time.
With that, everything comes rushing out. You throw yourself around him with enough force that it causes the two of you to crash down onto your bed, you landing on top of him. Another wave of tears pour out of you, just like the words from your mouth.
You tell him everything: what you’ve overheard from the other adventurers, the tears you’ve been fighting back every night, your pent up emotions from the past week, how much you’ve missed spending time with him, how much more fun it was when you were together, and how much you didn’t want him knowing about any this— not wanting him to think you were weak.
Lohen gently strokes your hair as you let everything out, listening attentively to each and every word. You’ve always struggled with talking to people. He was worried about this exact thing happening after he passed the knightly entrance exams, but you kept insisting that you’d be fine on your own.
“Why can’t I do anything? It’d be so easy, so why can’t I…!” Your voice was growing hoarse from how much you were yelling, with each word coming out less powerful than the last.
“Poison them instead. That’ll get them to shut up.”
“That’s your thing, not mine. They’d know I ran to you for help.” Your voice was nothing more than a whimper now.
Lohen was shocked. You were worried about that?
“Okay. Use one of your fancy spells on them then.” He suggested.
“That’s not much different.” You argued.
“Magic is your thing. Not mine.” Lohen parrots back at you. “Everyone knows you’re the one with the vision. If they’ve paid any attention to you, they’d know that. If they didn’t, then they’ll know now.”
He tightens his hold on you. “Don’t be an easy target. I know my bunny’s got too many tricks up her sleeve to let those idiots get away with it.”
“...Think the silencing spell would work?” You sniffle quietly.
The only times you’ve used it were to prevent someone from complaining about yours and Lohen’s antics, namely Theodore.
A small smile graces your face at the memory.
“Theo! We have a quick question for you.” You slap a hand on the brunette’s shoulder, slyly placing a sigil containing the spell.
“Think we can take down three ruin guards in ten minutes?” Lohen asks, holding up a commission the two of you took detailing exactly that.
Theodore opens his mouth to respond, only for no words to come out.
“So… is that a yes?” You raise a hand up to your mouth, trying to cover your cheshire smile.
Realizing what you’ve done, Theodore quickly changes tactics to crossing his arms ‘no’.
“I think he’s telling us to go eliminate them.” Lohen purposely misinterprets.
“Thanks for the answer Theo!” As you wave him goodbye, Lohen’s already grabbed your arm and started running for the gates of Mondstadt.
You cackle like an evil witch when you see Theodore chasing after the two of you, still trying to tell you it’s a terrible idea in any way he could.
The three of you must’ve looked crazy to the rest of Mondstadt.
“If Theodore didn’t notice, I doubt they would either.” Lohen agrees, seeing your smile brings one to his own face as well.
“And if that doesn’t work,” He reaches into his back pocket, pulling out a little green vial. “You can always borrow this.”
“I think I’d rather commission you to do that instead. I’m already the socially awkward one, I can’t be the crazy one too.” A quiet laugh escapes your lips.
The sound warms his heart. “If anything ever happens to you, let me know. Okay?” What was his strength worth if he couldn’t even aid you with something like this?
“I don’t want to bother you-”
Lohen pushes your head down onto his chest, preventing you from finishing your sentence.
“Don’t say that.”
There are so many things Lohen wants to say to you: how he’ll always be by your side no matter what, how you’ve always been his anchor in his pursuit of power–the beacon that keeps him from straying into the dark–and how he needs you as much as you need him.
But for now, he decides hugging you in a crushing embrace would be enough to convey those feelings.
“Think you can stay the night?” You murmur, face still pressed firmly against his chest. This feeling of warmth was comforting, and you didn’t want to let it go just yet, especially not after the shit show that was this week.
“Anything for you, Bunny.”
“...also please put your shirt back on.” Calming down, it occurs to you that Lohen was still very much shirtless in your bed. You can’t tell if the renewed burning in your cheeks was from the remnants of your tears or the wave of embarrassment upon realizing how romantic this looked and felt.
“I thought you liked seeing me like this.” He teases, making no effort to comply with your demand.
You move to throw his shirt in his face and quickly turn off the lights, praying the darkness hides your blushing face.
You wake up the next morning alone, with the Lohen’s cloak draped over you.
The time read 9:44AM.
Lohen was probably at the knight’s headquarters by now.
Stretching, you notice something on the back of your hand. It was a crude drawing of a bottle of poison with a skull above it. Next to it, you can make out the words ‘Remember: They deserve it.’.
You brush your thumb over the message, smiling at the absurdity of Lohen’s encouragement.
Taking a deep breath, you get up, get ready, and head out to the Adventurers’ Guild, looking down at Lohen’s message every now and again to keep yourself relaxed. Walking up to the request board, you take a quick scan of the commissions before grabbing the most difficult one you can find and place a tiny sigil containing your spell on the back.
“What are we working with today?” As if on cue, one of the adventurers that’s been gossiping about you approaches from behind, peering over your shoulder to see your pick.
“Sure you want this one?” She takes the paper from your hands.
Her disgustingly sweet tone sickens you.
“Oh, you’re right, I’ll just go with these then!” You quickly grab four other commissions. One of them requires you to kill a ruin guard while the other three require you to take out hilichurl camps.
That much combat was going to be intense, even for you, but it was the best way to get your message across: that you were more than capable of handling yourself.
The adventurer opens her mouth as she tries reaching for you, only to bring that same hand back to her throat once she realized she couldn’t talk anymore. Her confusion gives you ample time to escape, as well as dispelling the sigil from the paper as you walk away, making sure no one can trace the cause of her silence back to you.
She looks weary of you the next morning, shocked to see you’re completely unscathed from your commissions the day before.
Seeing her reaction, you press on Lohen’s now faded drawing again, hoping he’d feel your gratitude through the action.
No way anyone’s going to keep doubting you after this.
You need to find a way to repay him later. Maybe you can take him to ruin guard hunting on his next day off?
Further Notes: Highkey idk how this got to over 4k words considering the writer's block was STRONG with this one- The amount of editing was insane (╥﹏╥)
All colorful floral dividers by @/hearts4mychem!
Lohen: Hi.
Reader: Hi!
Lohen, internally: (Okay, remember what Varka said, don't send any mixed messages.)
Lohen, trying his best: I have a gun.
(I very much agree with the headcanon that Lohen can't flirt to save his life when he first tries to get with someone he likes romantically LMAOO)
Heart Challenger (Lohen x Reader)
Summary: You hear a conversation between Lohen and Theodore that you definitely weren't supposed to. Long story short, you're now trying to set him up with yourself (his crush) while simultaneously trying to bury your own feelings for him so as to not ruin his budding love life.
Also cross-posted to ao3!
WC: 2.3k
Warnings/Tags: Modern!AU, fluff, jealousy (on reader's part), childhood friends to lovers, reader and Lohen are both freak4freak and idiot4idiot, Theodore is so done with your bs, the three of you share one brain cell and Theo has it 99% of the time, soft Lohen, there's one quick line of implied NSFW at the very end but it's plausibly deniable
The title of the fic is a reference to this song of the same name! There's no relation beyond that, I just think it's a cute song :D
You were supposed to meet up with Lohen & Theodore at the former’s apartment 30 minutes ago. Unfortunately, one thing led to another and here you are, showing up fashionably late. You sent a text in the group chat to let them know about your predicament, but got no response.
As you walk up the front door of Lohen’s abode, preparing your rant about how much the universe hated you today, you hear some… peculiar words.
“Taking them out to a shooting range on the first date is a terrible idea!”
You slow your steps at the sound of Theodore’s voice. What on Teyvat could he possibly be talking about?
“Hey, I’m trying my best here! How am I supposed to know good places to take someone on the first date?” You hear Lohen respond.
Theodore sighs, “You should focus on telling them how you feel first.”
“I’m working on it.” Lohen grumbles.
“You’re not working on it hard enough. You’ve been crushing on them for months now, and the closest you’ve gotten to confessing is telling them ‘I like your shade of blood.’ while they were sleeping.” Theodore deadpanned.
Hold up. Lohen has a crush on someone? Lohen? He has feelings for someone?!
You quickly unlock the door and let yourself in.
“Why didn’t you tell me earlier?!” You exclaim, barging into the not-so-secret conversation considering Lohen and Theodore were talking so loudly you could hear them clear as day through the former’s front door.
Both of them whip around to face you at the sound of your voice. Theodore’s looking at you in shock while Lohen’s face quickly turns red.
“Hey- are you okay?” The sight worried you. You quickly make your way over to check if Lohen’s coming down with something. The last time you saw his face this red was when he got extremely sick with the flu in fifth grade.
As you brush Lohen’s hair out of the way to place the back of your palm on his forehead, his face somehow becomes even more red.
“I’m fine!” Lohen tries his best to say it with his usual air of charisma, only for his voice to crack as the words come out.
He felt like he was burning up. You are very much not convinced that he’s fine.
“He just uh… saw his crush walking by outside the window!” Theodore stammers out.
You gasp, quickly running towards said window, slamming your palms besides either side of your head as you smush your forehead against the glass. “Where?”
“Oh they've already gone inside by now.” Theodore nervously chuckles, shooting a glare at Lohen while you’re still focused outside.
(He wasn't lying per say, just stretching the truth a little. Lohen had been watching you approach the apartment complex while you were still quite the distance away, and now you're inside.)
You let out a disappointed sigh before giving up and going over to flop down on Lohen’s couch before pouting at him as you repeat your question from earlier, “Why didn’t you tell me?” You sounded hurt.
“I… thought you would get jealous?” Lohen wants to punt himself out the window with that line delivery. He doesn’t need to turn around to know that Theodore’s got an exacerbated look on his face as the brunette fights every urge in his body to facepalm right then and there.
Lohen was always a ferocious child. He’s gotten into (and won) so many fights over the years. So how the hell is he losing to you in a battle you didn’t even know existed?
“Lohen.” You sit up straight, grabbing both his shoulders and pulling him close to you. “I’ve been trying to get you to make some more friends for years now. Why the hell would I be jealous?” Your words came out with just a little too much malice.
God you looked so attractive when angry.
If Lohen wasn’t mortified about the current situation (and if Theodore wasn't here), he would absolutely close the distance between your lips right now.
“Because I’d be spending less time with you?” He tries to reason. At least it sounded believable.
Your angry expression morphs into a stunned one before you start laughing, “You have got to be kidding me! We’ve been friends for so long now. Go confess your feelings to them! I know you won’t stop spending time with me just because you get a partner.” Your words sounded strained.
“Maybe you can help him with that.” Theodore interjects.
Lohen mentally adds him to his poisoning hit-list.
Two days later, here you were, sitting in front of Lohen so he can practice confessing his feelings, while Theodore is quietly snicking in the corner.
The two of you were seated across from each other at his dining room table. You thought it would be helpful to set the scene as if you were on an actual date. Theodore is playing the role of the waitstaff while you act the part of Lohen’s crush. He did seem oddly jittery about this whole thing, maybe this will help him be better prepared for the real deal?
(This definitely wasn't your poorly veiled attempt at feeling like you were on an actual date with him. Your crush. Definitely not.)
Though, the only things Lohen thought were ‘helpful’ in this situation were the dimmed lights. They were doing a lot of the heavy lifting in concealing his raging blush.
“Today was just wonderful, wouldn’t you say?” You said, dreamily, looking into Lohen’s eyes with a soft smile.
“I’m, uh, glad you had fun?” His voice went up a little too high near the end there, but at least it didn't crack this time.
You signal him to keep going, this was the best he’s done all day! But to be fair, nothing can be worse than him thinking a good way of impressing his crush was by playing the knife game with his own hand.
You would've been a lot more concerned if only you hadn't seen him do that a million times by now. Sometimes you even let him use your hand when you’re bored. You trust he knows what he's doing.
(Lohen’s been asking to use your hand much more frequently these past few months. It's the perfect excuse for him to hold your hand, if only for a moment. He's even managed to convince you to let him play with your palm faced up. He says it's to spice things up. It's not. He just wants an excuse to stare at those pretty veins on your wrist.)
To help aid him, you reach across the table to hold one of his hands in your own, giving it a comforting squeeze whilst trying your best to ignore the butterflies in your stomach.
Lohen looks down at your entwined hands, pausing for a moment before finally saying, “Your hands would look great around my neck right now.”
He cannot be serious.
“Lohen. Respectfully. What the fuck?” You deadpanned, “Okay, that may work on me, but you’re supposed to be pretending that I’m your crush right now!” You let out a sigh, “Let’s try it again from the top…”
Theodore bursts out laughing from behind you as Lohen wishes he could burst out the front door.
“So… are they here yet?” You ask for the fifth time that hour alone.
“No. And stop asking, you’ll blow our cover.” Theodore shushes.
“We are standing in the arcade holding newspapers in front of our faces. This is the exact opposite of what having cover is.” You hiss back.
The three of you were at the local arcade, a place Lohen’s crush supposedly frequented, due to your insistence on at least seeing who said crush is. You’ve been there for almost four hours, doing nothing but slightly shuffling locations every so often, hoping to find them.
You did think that was a bit odd though. You and Lohen came here pretty often, so how the hell would you have missed seeing them up until now? Plus, you were starting to get bored. Who the hell goes to an arcade just to stand around all day? Well, the three of you but that’s besides the point.
You sigh as you tilt your head up and let your hands fall, bringing the newspaper down with them, “Call me back over when they show up, I wanna play some of the rhythm games.” And then off you went.
As soon as you were safely out of earshot, Theodore speaks up, “Okay this is getting ridiculous, you have to tell them that you like them!”
“Absolutely not,” Lohen hisses back, “I’m willing to chance a lot of things, this is not one of them.”
“Did you even listen to what they said the other week? ‘Okay, that may work on me, but-’ They’re receptive to your shitty flirting, that’s gotta mean something.”
Lohen hates that Theodore had a point. He crosses his arms and looks to the side.
Big mistake.
His eyes fell on you as you hit every note on the game you were playing with accuracy & precision. You were slamming on those poor buttons at this point, but it looks like you were going to get the full combo, so why did you look so upset?
(You have no idea how attractive you looked to Lohen right now. He wants nothing more than to march over to you and beg you to take your frustrations out on him instead of that stupid machine.)
Lohen only breaks his gaze off you when he sees your eyes light up at something in the distance before you start walking back to where he and Theodore still stood.
“They got a new shooter in, come on, let’s go try it!” You eagerly linked your arm with Lohen’s, quickly tugging him towards the machine.
He doesn’t miss how tight your grip on him is, nor does he miss the peeved expression on your face.
So you were getting jealous.
Theodore excuses himself to let you two have some alone time before giving Lohen a thumbs-up for encouragement.
He receives a middle-finger in response.
“I’m starting to think this mystery person doesn’t exist.” You sigh.
Lohen almost choked on his water when you said that out loud while studying together in his living room. Yet you sounded… almost relieved?
“What makes you say that?” He was going to crush his water bottle with how tightly he was squeezing it.
You shrug, “Well, it's been a whole month and they've never showed up at any of the places you and Theodore claimed they frequented.”
“You've just been really unlucky then!” Lohen tries to laugh it off, “I’ve seen them. Many times.”
He really should’ve thought that through, ‘Please don’t ask me where please don’t ask me where please don’t ask me where-’
“What if they're avoiding me on purpose? Lohen, what if they hate me?!” You sound genuinely worried as you hold your head in your hands.
“I'm sure that can't be the case, who could hate someone like you?” It was a miracle he managed to say that smoothly.
“But what if they really don't like me and want us to stop hanging out once you're together?” You were slowly starting to spiral now.
Lohen was offended by that.
Did you really think he'd up and abandon you, his best friend for almost two decades now, just because some rando, crush or not, asked him to?
He flicks your forehead before pulling you into a hug, nuzzling his face into your neck.
“You're such a dummy.” His voice was soft, “We've been together for how long and you're worried about something like that? You're never getting rid of me, bunny, not even if you, or anyone else, tried.”
You don't know what to say in response.
Lohen continues, “You mean so, so much to me. Please don't ever leave my side.” His grip is bruising, contrasting the gentle tone of his voice as the words rush out of him.
It wasn't out of the ordinary for him to be physically affectionate towards you, but something felt different about this.
This felt too close. Too intimate.
It only made it harder for you to push down your feelings for him. You wrap your arms around him as tightly as you can around him.
You don't want him to let go.
You don’t want this moment to end.
“You're acting like you'd rather date me…” You joked, picking your words carefully, desperately hoping for a sign, any sign that your feelings were reciprocated.
“Yes.” The word comes out of Lohen’s mouth before he even realizes what he's said.
Your eyes widen. There’s no way you just heard him say that… right?
“Wha- What did you say…?” You managed to verbalize, as you loosen your arms around him. You wanted to look at his face, but couldn't with how tightly he had wrapped himself around your frame.
Lohen can't tell if your response is positive or negative.
For once, he feels fearful. He didn’t want this to be how he told you how he felt, but there was no going back. All he could do now was hold onto you even tighter, hoping that could somehow change the outcome for the better if you didn’t feel the same way about him.
Lohen takes a shaky breath, before slowly repeating, “Yes.”
“Lohen. Look at me. Please.”
He could never refuse anything you asked of him.
He gives you one last squeeze before following your command, loosening himself from you just enough so he can look into your eyes.
However, your eyes weren't looking into his.
Your gaze was instead focused downward, on his lips.
Oh. Oh.
Without hesitation, he closes the distance between your lips, bringing one hand up to the back of your head, pulling you deeper into the kiss, while the other pushes your legs together before finding the back of your knees and lifting you up, carrying you to his bedroom.
He was not letting his precious bunny go tonight.
Theodore gets a text from Lohen the next morning.
[Idiot #1] Guess who’s dating now :p
[Theo] Finally.
Notes: First time writing Theodore, kinda nervous 👉👈 Really hoping both him & Lohen aren't OOC 😭 Their dynamic is so interesting to me, hoping and praying we see Theodore again in the story🤞
If y'all know any Lohen x Reader fics featuring Theodore and/or Adorno please send them my way 🥺🤲 So far the only two I'm aware of are 'A Good Bunny Stays in Her Pen' (multi-chapter with nsfw) by @/chai-writes-stuff and 'What could possibly scare Lohen?' (one-shot) by smouchie on ao3 😭😭
All colorful floral dividers by @hearts4mychem!!
Okay hear me out- Lohen gives off the vibes that if his darling was ever rambling about something (like starting to spiral rambling), he'd quietly sneak up behind them while they're talking so once they turn around, their faces are *extremely* close together. I'm talking like if his darling even leans just a bit forward during that turn they're gonna end up kissing 💀 It either results in Lohen scaring the living daylights out of his darling or they're kissing, no other option 😭😭
Either way, it gets his darling out of that mental state (and he gets a kiss from them half the time hehehehe) so it's a win-win situation lmao
Oh he would, he absolutely would 🙂↕️🙂↕️
It doesn't help that Lohen has mastered the skill of silently sneaking up on someone from behind— so by the time his darling notices that Lohen's not walking alongside them anymore, he's already hovering behind them like a vengeful ghost waiting to drag his lover down to hell with him.
If his darling takes too to notice him, Lohen might get bored and pull something devious: using his cryo vision to chill his breath before blowing said breath against their nape. The way they react never fails to stretch his lips all the way up to the corner of his eyes, watching them with amusement while slowly cornering them until their back hits against the closest flat surface.
“What were you saying, darling? I wasn't listening.”
He puffs another round of cold air against your ear, making sure that you heard him loud and clear. His hair smells like silk flowers and valberries, sweet, floral— the same scent as the shampoo he gave you last week after you complained about yours running out soon. Did he buy the same shampoo to smell like you, or for you to smell like him? That bastard—
Before your head dissolves into its own world again, his lips swiftly pull you back into reality, stealing the breath in your lungs to warm his.
“Mm sorry darling, I still can't quite hear you~ You might have to be a little louder.”
🧎♂️🧎♂️ Sorry I got carried away
Omg to be blessed with a blurb from Pine 🥺💕
Listened to Monitoring by deco*27 and the best friend remix for the first time two days ago (DONT ASK ME HOW I MANAGED TO DODGE THEM FOR ALMOST A YEAR I LIVE UNDER A ROCK OKAY 😭) and like *screams of anguish*
Monitoring (Best Friend Remix) is so Illuga-coded 🥺🥺 english cover for the remix here if yall wanna have a listen!
Like, imagine Illuga x best friend!reader fic where you've locked yourself in your living space for an extended period of time and Illuga comes by to check up on you every single day. He doesn't leave until you give him confirmation that you're still alive and kicking in there (could literally be a text if modern!au or slipping a note under your front door in canon telling him to go away, he'll take any response he can get) 💔 and he's gonna keep coming to see you every day until you finally open up to him because YOU'RE HIS BESTIE GODDAMNIT HE AINT ABANDONING YOU 😤
It either ends with him bringing you to Mizuki for some much needed therapy (more angsty) or it just turns out you were just extremely sick and didn't want to tell him bc you knew he was gonna stop at nothing to make sure you got better and get really sick himself trying to help you (more fluffy)😭
Even funnier (sadder?) if reader is interpreting his words/intentions like og monitoring cuz like dawg in what world would he ever say that stuff or be even remotely like that 💀 english cover for og monitoring here!
Homecoming (Illuga x Reader)
Summary: Illuga manages to keep finding ways to comfort you, even after death, and he will continue to do so until the two of you are reunited.
Also cross-posted on ao3!
WC: 2.1k
Warnings/Tags: Angst with a happy ending (sort of?), hurt & comfort, there's like one mention of you & Illuga having kids (can be either biological or adopted), Flins being a wingman for a couple that's been married for decades
Notes: This came to me in a dream and now I must make every Illugaling cry with me hehehehehehehe *sobbing*
(Colorful flower divider by @hearts4mychem!)
You've lived a long, fulfilling life with Illuga before he passes away before you. It happened abruptly. No one could have predicted it.
Everyone is saddened by the loss of their Starshyna, who they’ve all come to respect after his many decades of service. Like all other Lightkeepers, he was to be buried in the Final Night Cemetery. When word of Illuga's passing reached Flins, the fae reassured you that he would watch over your now departed lover as you wept by his side.
After his funeral, everyone slowly started to move on. Time waited for no one, and the threat of the Wild Hunt still loomed over Nod Krai (albeit much calmer than during your & Illuga's youths). Well, everyone except for you, that is. Because how could you? The love of your life has left you in the mortal world all alone, how were you supposed to just move on?
Then, a few days later, while you're still wallowing in sadness, there's a knock at your door. You try to ignore it, not wanting to hear another person tell you how to deal with your grief. After the second 'it'll get better with time' pep talk, you didn't want to hear it anymore. You knew you couldn't, wouldn't, ever be able to move on.
Unfortunately, whoever it is seems very determined to speak with you. The knocking continues periodically for almost half an hour before you get annoyed enough (and find the strength) to finally go answer the door.
You didn't expect it to be Flins. You also didn't expect him to start dragging you out of your house, telling you he needed your help. You try to pull your arm out of his grip, but your strength isn't what it used to be while he's still in his prime as always. All he gives you is a somber look, and that was enough for you to quietly follow him to wherever he was bringing you.
After a rather long journey, the two of you make it to the Final Night Cemetery. Eventually, the fae abruptly stops in front of you. Before you can question him, you see someone familiar.
Illuga.
Well, the ghost of Illuga.
His eyes light up when he sees you, "There you are! I've been worried sick about you!"
At the sound of his voice, you slowly start walking towards him, attracted to him like a moth towards a light. He always was the brightest part of your life, after all.
In your trance, you don't hear Flins excusing himself to give you & the ghost of your love some privacy, nor do you register the tears flowing from your eyes.
Taking note of your disheveled appearance and pained expression, Illuga quickly closes the distance between you, wrapping one arm around you as he brings the other up to cup your cheek, only to find that he can’t physically touch you.
His ghostly form phasing through you as he desperately tries to comfort you, but the warmth you feel from him is enough to taking the edge off your renewed pain.
It takes a long while, but eventually your tears stop. Even in death, Illuga always managed to comfort you when you most needed it. As you calm your sniffles, he starts talking about funny stories from the past: the funny face you made on your first date, the insane excuses the two of you made in order to skip Aino’s lectures, and that one time he had to give a speech in front of all the lightkeepers with scribbles all over his face because your kids thought his sleeping face would make a good canvas to draw on the night before.
Slowly, but surely, he manages to get you to smile again. But, just as suddenly as he reappeared, you couldn’t savor these moments together as he slowly faded away.
It seems like seeing your smile was all he needed to be at ease.
But, then it happens again. The very next day, Flins is at your door again, dragging you to the cemetery just like yesterday. You arrive, a little less of a mess than the day before, and Illuga is there to comfort you before fading away after making sure you're okay.
Then, it happens again the day after that.
And the day after that.
The pattern was clear, as long as you’re upset about anything, Illuga would always be there to soothe you, no matter what.
He’s certainly the most active ghost Flins has ever seen. Your lover showed up every day without fail. Even after you finally accepted that he’s passed on, no longer desperately needing his support, he still continued to appear.
Your initial hypothesis about why he keeps coming back was wrong. It didn't matter if you were upset or not. It seems that as long as you are alive, Illuga will keep coming back to you. It's as if an afterlife without you isn't an afterlife he wants.
You developed a routine after a while. Instead of Flins showing at your doorstep every day, you would be the one who willingly made the trek out there every single day, despite the strain it put on your aging body.
It was a small sacrifice for being about to spend just a little more time with your love. After all, neither you nor Flins knew exactly how Illuga was so active nor when he’d stop showing up. So, you would always show up every day without fail, always around the same time, and stay until he faded away.
You have to admit, it was a bit unnerving how Illuga always knew what you needed, if anything at all.
“Did you eat today?” No, you had missed lunch that day and weren't awake early enough for breakfast. As if on cue, Flins appeared to bring you a bowl of your favorite stew. Seems like Illuga had been nagging him about this for quite a bit if the fae already had something prepared by the time you came to visit.
“You seem cold, come on, let’s get you warmed up.” It was one of the most brutal winters that has ever hit Nod Krai. Not even Illuga’s old lightkeeper coat could keep you from shivering ever so slightly. You make a small fire as Flins fetches you the thickest blanket he has.
“Is it bothersome? Having to come here everyday, just for me?” The light of your life asked you a few months into your daily visits.
You laugh in his face at that ridiculous statement. He was worried about bothering you?
“Shouldn’t that be my question? You should be getting the proper rest you never got in life for Moon Goddess’ sake! You shouldn’t be wasting time coming back day after day, just for my sake…”
Ah. This was the first time either of you properly addressed your situation.
Illuga was dead.
You’ve just been talking to a lingering fragment of his soul.
How could you have forgotten?
Illuga gives you a bittersweet smile, “How could any time spent with you be a waste? We can rest together when you get here. For now, let’s just stay with this, for as long as you are willing.” His aura of warmth was just as present now as when he was alive. He tries to lean against you. While you can't feel his touch, feeling the warmth radiating off of him was enough for you.
Flins had always told the two of you that the ghosts who appear at the Final Night Cemetery were nothing more than just mere echoes of their living souls, made from their memories, yearning for something so strongly that it caused them to linger in the world of the living.
You don’t doubt Flins’ words, but something about Illuga felt a little too real. Too much like him. It felt as though your husband never passed away to begin with, for he was always there by your side, always waiting for you to come back to him, just like how you always used to wait for him to return from his Lightkeeper duties every night.
You had vowed to always be there for each other, until death do you part. Yet, it seems even death herself can’t keep the two of you apart.
It doesn’t matter how much time you had after your husband’s passing. You can outlive him for years, decades, and he would still be there waiting for you.
Eventually, as your time grows near, it becomes more and more difficult to make your daily trip to the cemetery, yet you still insisted on it despite the concerns from those closest to you. Both Illuga and Flins take notice of you gradually losing your strength over the course of a couple months.
Yet, while Flins tries to tell you to stay home, that he can simply travel to you every day and deliver any words Illuga has for you, he knows you won’t settle for that; not after all this time.
Not when Illuga was still there waiting for you.
So, you spend your remaining months on the Final Night Cemetery, living in a small hut Flins managed to scrap together. (It was more difficult than he expected. Illuga would nag at him if anything wasn’t perfect for his beloved. Maybe this was his payback after a lifetime of being teased by the fae…)
It was strange, being taken care of by your already deceased husband, as the end of your time neared. Yet, as always, he reassured you that he was perfectly fine with this, that it made him feel worthy of your love to be someone you could always depend on.
You thought it was absurd, yet who were you to talk? Here you were, slowly dying in a cemetery instead of your comfy home in Piramida just because you stubbornly refused to leave your ghostly husband's side. Seems like the two of you were still on the same wavelength, even after all this time.
Unlike your shining light, your passing was predictable. Even under Illuga & Flins’ care, you kept losing more and more energy until one day, you just stopped altogether.
When Flins went to bring you breakfast that day, he already knew you were gone before he saw your body laying peacefully in bed. On his way to your little hut, he heard your voice, more energetic & bright than he’s heard since your health started declining, accompanied by another, warmer tone, the two voices mingling together like a duet between songbirds.
Following the sound, he sees the ghostly forms of you & Illuga, walking along the beach of the lonely island.
Illuga did always mention how much you loved that activity. His arm was placed firmly around your shoulders as you leaned into his chest. The two of you were laughing, truly laughing, and it was clear by the way Illuga looked at you that he was happy to be together with you again, even though he never left your side to begin with.
Your walk ends at Illuga’s grave. As the two of you come to a stop, you both turn back to say your final farewell to Flins and thank him for watching over the both of you all this time, before slowly fading away, one last time, in each other's embrace.
The fae was no stranger to death, yet as he waved goodbye to his dear friends one last time, he can’t help but feel sad.
The light the two of you brought onto the lonely island would slowly fade away, leaving nothing but an ember of the past, proof that your love existed.
In the future, anyone who showed interest in yours & Illuga’s shared graves on the Final Night Cemetery would be told your story by the fae who watched the tale unfold in front of his eyes.
Illuga would be remembered by generations of lightkeepers to come as a revered Starshyna, who helped lead Nod Krai to one of the most peaceful periods the nation has seen thanks to his work in eradicating the Wild Hunt.
Yet, even as his name was lost to time, the people of Nod Krai would continue to talk about his legacy. Not as the steadfast Starshyna, but rather the devoted spouse, so desperately in love that not even death could keep him away from his beloved.
There came about a new myth in the years after your passing, extremely popular with the younger generations of lightkeepers. They say, if you go to the Final Night Cemetery with a lover and hear the voices of the revered Starshyna and his spouse, then your love is destined to be eternal. If you instead hear them while on the island alone, it means true love would find you soon.
PINEEEEEE!! The Illuga & Lohen brainworms got to me, I need them both NOWW. Well, mainly just Lohen *laughing in C6 Illuga* 😈😈 Anyways, here’s a short Lohen/Reader/Illuga blurb I wrote last night! Reader is a lightkeeper in Illuga’s squad for this. The reason why Lohen’s here is because the 5th company & Nightmare Orioles are working together for plot purposes lmao.
(This was originally written as Lohen/My OC/Illuga where Lohen & OC were childhood friends, while OC is Illuga’s vice-captain (do lightkeeper squads even have vice-captains???? Well they do now LOLOL). Feel free to apply these onto the reader or completely disregard them! The only purpose they serve here is to give the captains a reason to be interested in the reader ^^; May write more ab being Illuga's vice-captain in the future tho 👀)
Reader: I’m gonna turn in early, my head kinda hurts. *holds hands out towards Illuga expectantly.*
Lohen: ??
Illuga: *Takes off his coat & hands it over to Reader.* Sleep well, my light. If you need anything, just let me know!
Reader: Will do, captain. Goodnight everyone! *Turns to leave for their barrack/tent.*
Lohen: (Seething with jealousy) Hey so what’s that about?
Illuga: (Clocks his jealousy immediately) Reader always complains about how cold it is in Nod Krai, especially at night. I lend them my coat every night to use as an extra layer of warmth. ^^✨
Lohen: Is that so? ^^💢
——The Next Day——
Illuga: It’s getting late, we should get some rest. *Gives his coat to Reader again.*
Reader: *Accepts it as per usual.* We have another long day ahead of us tomorrow, goodnight everyone!
Lohen: Here, take this as well! :D *Gives Reader his cape.*
Reader: (Extremely confused, but isn’t going to turn down another layer to sleep under.) I- thank you, vice-captain-
Lohen: No need for formalities, my lady. You can just call me Lohen.
Reader: Thank you, Lohen…! *Obviously flustered as they leave.*
Illuga: Is there a reason you felt the need to do that? ^^💢
Lohen: I’m just making sure they can sleep warm & comfortably, you wouldn’t want your beloved light to catch a cold during the night, would you? ^^✨
—BONUS—
Reader: Good morning Illuga! *Hands him back his coat while wearing Lohen’s cape over their coat.*
Illuga: (Nearly bursting a blood vessel out of jealousy) Nono, you keep it for today. I heard it’s going to be colder than usual today, my coat’s warmer and better than Lohen’s cape than yours so you should wear it for today!
Reader: But what about you???
Illuga: I have a few spare coats laying around, now please put the coat on, my light. AND TAKE OFF LOHEN’S CAPE
Oh to have the captains fighting over you ✨✨ And yes, reader wore Lohen’s cape to sleep LMAOOOOOO
P.S. Thank you so much Pine & anons for feeding me with all your amazing Illuga & Lohen fics!! They were lowkey the only things keeping me from going insane during finals week a while ago 😅 Y’all were also the reason why I decided to get back into writing again (and how we got this LMAO) 🥹 AHHHHHH I have more stuff I wanna write for Lohen, but I want to wait for his official release so I can write him as accurately as possible (and so I don’t write anything that contradicts his backstory lmfao). His banner can't come any slower istg 😭😭 Well, at least our favorite captain is still on the table 😏
🥺🥺 Jealous captains,,,,, JEALOUS CAPTAINS,,,,, 💕💕💕💕
I absolutely adore this setting as well as how the tables flip in the end 😭😭😭 Poor Illuga, Lohen never fights fair even when it comes to love,,,, So what if you're Illuga's vice-captain? Ranks can change alllllll the time, but nothing can ever change the fact that you are Lohen's childhood friend. He is the one who grew up with you, played with you, and thus knows more about you than anyone else in the whole of Teyvat— as seen by how you chose to sleep in his coat instead of Illuga's coat 🙂↕️🙂↕️ (he's being delusional don't encourage). He's confident that you'll choose him in the end.
On the other hand, Illuga's not backing down without a fight too!!! Even though he feels a little guilty lying to you about having spare coats lying around (he only has one because he's sentimentally attached to it), he absolutely does not want you to wear Lohen's coat around, especially in front of other Lightkeepers. So what if Lohen's your childhood friend!! That's all in the past— what matters most is the present and the future. So, even though Illuga knows he's at a slight disadvantage, he'll definitely continue to pursue with full sincerity because he genuinely loves you, heart and soul.
‼️ and and, thank you OP for sending me this wonderful idea of yours 🥺🥺 I enjoyed every second of reading it and can't wait to see what else you'll write for the dearest vice captain after his official release!! Congrats on completing your Finals week and getting C6 illuga, may the gacha gods be merciful and give you Lohen (and his weapon if you're pulling it) ASAP 🙏🙏 NINE MORE DAYS EVERYONE!! NINE MORE DAYS !!!!!!!
YOU GET THE VISIONNNNNN ‼️‼️‼️
the border hoarders are Such a funny group kjsdhlksjds
