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byun baekhyun. 920506. junior at sungkyunkwa, business. shinhwa complex, room 1d. bartender at club amnesia. roleplay only. 18+.

[mh-baek]

❝ mask of silence ♕ baekhyun & yixing

[xiaoxingyixing]

[*eyes widen] Who? Who said that? [*trying to support Baekhyun but afraid of hurting him] Baekhyun? Baekhyun? [*panicked again] Baekhyun, stay awake. Please stay awake. Don’t— [*released a shaky breath that sounds more like a gasp] Baekhyun… [*brushes hair out of Baekhyun’s face, stroking tear stained cheeks] How did it get to this? [*assuming that someone was stalking Baekhyun or harassing him, looks up when he hears ambulance sirens, picking up Baekhyun gently and hurrying to the elevator, whispering to him] I’m sorry, Baekhyun. I can’t just let this go. 

[mh-baek]

[` cheeks flushed with fever, resting against yixing's shoulder, his hair sticking up everywhere and still shirtless, back hot to the touch, not stirring at all as the paramedics take him from yixing, laying him down on the stretcher and probing his back even as the ambulance wails off on its way to the hospital ] ... [` asleep in a hospital bed after having had his wounds stitched up, the process of disinfection having been begun, hooked up to monitors and an iv bag, his eyes still firmly shut, looking pale and small in the bed ]

[mh-baek]

❝ mask of silence ♕ baekhyun & yixing

[xiaoxingyixing]

[*hesitates] Why? [*hurt in eyes] Why don’t you want me to call for help? Baekhyun, I don’t know how long it’s been since this happened but it’ll get really infected or something if we don’t call… [*kneels beside Baekhyun] You have to tell me what happen…this…whoever did this…I’m not going to let them get away with it! [*presses call button for ambulance behind his back so Baekhyun won’t know, hoping they’ll be able to trace the call]

[mh-baek]

[` whimpers softly, struggling to hold himself up, weak and burning up with fever, the word carved in between his shoulder blades horrifyingly jagged and possessive ] ... n-no... h-he'll... kill you... [` whispers, sagging against the couch, looking half dead, his back swollen and his cheeks flushed with fever, cheek resting against the cushion of the couch ] ... s-said... i was h-his... and h-he'd kill you if i d-didn't break up... with... you... [` slumps, unconscious, his eyelashes fluttering against his cheeks ] 

[mh-baek]

❝ mask of silence ♕ baekhyun & yixing

[xiaoxingyixing]

Baekhyun! [*rushes over to Baekhyun, hands hovering over Baekhyun but not touching him because he doesn’t want to cause him pain, eyes wide in panic, not thinking straight] Baekhyun, why wouldn’t you tell me when this happened? Wh-who did this? I could have protected you! [*wiping away Baekhyun’s tears, heart breaks when Baekhyun still pushes him away] Please, this isn’t the time to talk about that..! [*reaches for his phone] We should call an a-ambulance…!

[mh-baek]

[` sobs, pressing his hands into his face, shaking his head desperately, whole body trembling heavily ] n-no, yi-yixing, pl-please! d-don't c-call th-them, i'm o-okay, pl-please! [` insists even as he moans quietly in pain, his eyes fluttering as he pleads softly, his back swollen and still bleeding sluggishly, his forehead hot, the wounds leaking septic fluid, infected from inability to care for it properly, too weak to actually prevent yixing from doing anything ] 

[mh-baek]

❝ mask of silence ♕ baekhyun & yixing

[xiaoxingyixing]

[*stops in front of Baekhyun’s door, fumbles with key, nearly dropping it, closes eyes, biting lip] ….. [*pushes key into lock, opening the door] Baekhyun? [*looks around for him, spotting him on the couch]We need to— [*eyes widen when he sees word gouged into Baekhyun’s back] B-Baekhyun what happened? 

[mh-baek]

[` gasps, shooting up from where he was lying before he winces in pain and simply collapses onto the ground, clutching at the couch, nearly biting through his lip in pain ] ... i... i told you not to come... i said w-we were done... wh-why... why are you h-here... [` voice cracks and he lets out a weak sob ] i didn't w-want you to...

[mh-baek]

❝ mask of silence ♕ baekhyun & yixing

[xiaoxingyixing]

[*pays driver, leaping out of car in front of Baekhyun’s apartment complex, spare key in hand, doesn’t bother to check phone anymore, jogging into elevator, leans head against door] Come on..come on… [*impatiently, steps out of elevator as calmly as possible just in case anyone is outside, walking towards Baekhyun’s door]

[mh-baek]

[` still standing in the kitchen with his shirt off, trying to get some ice to press against the painful, swollen word cut into his back, shaking softly even as he fumbles his way to the couch, laying down and trying to rest the ice against his swollen back, wincing and trying not to stretch it, tears clouding his vision ]

[mh-baek]

❝ there's so little time ♔ baekhyun & jonghyun

[mh-jonghyunlee]

(/smiles back instantly as he sees the boy smile - he felt a tiny bit relieved) I know you’re still a bit shaken even if you smile at me, I know it. (/keeps his eyes fixed on the boy, reading his facial expressions) Of course I would never tel anyone to hurt you. (/pats the boys hair down gently fixing his hair right after) you’re like a little brother to me (/shakes his head smiling back once more) take your time, don’t worry okay? (/grins before walking away to help the customers) I got this. 

[mh-baek]

[` laughs shakily, nodding quietly ] i'm shaken... [` mumbles softly ] but i'm going to be okay... i really will be. thank you... [` takes a few moments after jonghyun leaves to calm himself down before he stands up, legs responsive once again before he slides back into the bartending area, offering the customers a small smile and a polite bow ] ... how can i help you tonight? [` turns slightly to smile at jonghyun, the bruise on his wrist purpling but still not deterring him ]

[mh-baek]

❝ mask of silence ♕ baekhyun & yixing

[xiaoxingyixing]

[*rushes out of apartment building, calling a cab, checks his phone frantically] You can’t do this to me Baekhyun….please…. [*replies, begging inwardly]

[text ; Baekhyun] We need to talk about this, Baekhyun…. Please.

[*tells taxi driver address in frantic and messy korean, a complete mess in this state, runs a hand through his hair, asks driver to hurry and almost barely regrets it when driver blows through a streetlight]

[mh-baek]

[` half curses the face that his boyfriend -- ex-boyfriend -- is so dedicated and so gentle; most other people would have gotten angry or have just given up ] ...

[ text ; yixing ] no... no, yixing. i won't talk about this. it's final

[ text ; yixing ] i won't open the door for you so don't bother

[` completely forgotten that yixing has his own key ] 

[mh-baek]

❝ mask of silence ♕ baekhyun & yixing

[xiaoxingyixing]

[*pauses outside of apartment elevator, reading new texts, frowns, extreme concern] 

[text ; Baekhyun] You’re hiding something from me aren’t you? This isn’t like you. At least tell me what’s wrong?

[*steps into elevator, leaning against railing, staring at the floor number decrease painfully slowly]

[mh-baek]

[` winces because despite everything, they were supposed to be best friends, first and foremost, no matter what happened in their relationship ] ... i'm so sorry... yixing... [` holding onto the counter to keep himself standing ] 

[ text ; yixing ] i'm not... please, just... don't

[` clutches at the counter to keep from falling, tears streaming down his face ]

[mh-baek]

❝ mask of silence ♕ baekhyun & yixing

[xiaoxingyixing]

[*restless on couch, staring at phone impatiently, needs to know what’s going on, jumps up when phone vibrates again, fumbling when he nearly drops it, checks numerous texts] Why?

[text ; Baekhyun] Why? What happened? It could never be your fault, Baekhyun.

[text ; Baekhyun] At least let me see you in person. Please. I don’t understand. I don’t want this to end over text.

[*hops up, grabbing a light coat in case of a chilly pre-summer wind]

[mh-baek]

[` presses his lips together, tears welling up in his eyes as he reads the new text message before hastily typing back ]

[ text ; yixing ] no

[ text ; yixing ] don't come over

[ text ; yixing ] i don't want to see you...

[` winces at how hurtful the last text he had sent sounded, the pain in his back overwhelming as he whimpers softly, going over to make sure the door is locked before going back to the kitchen ]

[mh-baek]

❝ mask of silence ♕ baekhyun & yixing

[xiaoxingyixing]

[*humming softly to himself at home, pauses when phone buzzes, smiles when he sees it’s a text from Baekhyun, checks time] I wonder why he’s still up? It’s getting a little late isn’t it? [*opens the text, eyes widen at the abrupt reality of the text, typing back rapidly]

[text ; Baekhyun] Did something happen? What’s wrong? Did I do something wrong?

[*sends text, sighing and flopping down on couch anxiously, bangs head back against couch, confused, trying to figure out if he’d noticed any changes in their relationship in the last month]

[mh-baek]

[` presses his lips together as he stands in the kitchen, trying to soothe the fiery pain in his shoulders ] ... [` phone buzzes and he checks the message, his eyes tearing up and he can barely text back ] ...

[ text ; yixing ] no... no, you didn't

[ text ; yixing ] i'm sorry xing

[ text ; yixing ] this is all my fault

[ text ; yixing ] please

[` can't help but try to reassure yixing that he's still as perfect as ever, as much as he had ever thought his lover was, but it's because of his idiocy, his inability to escape that his life was in danger ]

[fybaekhyun]

[mh-baek]

❝ mask of silence ♕ baekhyun & yixing

[` hesitates before he exhales softly, the pain in his back throbbing painfully, closing his eyes as though that would make it go away, would make it less of a reality ] ... m'sorry... xing...

[ text ; yixing ] yixing... let's break up. i'm sorry...

[` presses a hand to his face, the sound that escapes him painful and broken ]

[mh-baek]

❝ quiet comfort ♔ baekhyun & yixing

[xiaoxingyixing]

[*leans back against couch so Baekhyun can be more comfortable] I certainly hope you’re not a narcoleptic. [*smiles, squirming when Baekhyun nips him] Heyy… [*whines, squeezing Baekhyun tightly in retaliation, yawns as well] But it’s been a long day so let’s sleep for a bit first, we can always do something later~ [*kisses the top of Baekhyun’s head, letting eyes slip closed]

[mh-baek]

- end - 

[deo-bi]

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[mh-jongdae-blog]

Robots 3 Humans 0 // Jongdae ♦ Baekhyun

[mh-jongdae-blog]

Jongdae obviously seemed please enough by Baekhyun’s reply. He had no doubt that he could trust the other boy. Well, he was hoping that he wasn’t making a bad decision by choosing to trust him. He cleared his throat and scratched his right cheek before taking a sip of his coffee, all little tics that showed how nervous he was but also served as little actions meant to calm him down enough for him to speak comfortably.

“For Valentine’s Day…that’s the first time I actually made the first step…I mean…beside that time where I drunkenly kissed him because that was a terrible episode I’d rather forget but um…—clears throat— as I was saying, for valentine’s day…I-I sent him a card with a robot on it and…and a lollipop taped inside. I sent it anonymously though. B-but then…on white day, I’m the one who got a card…from him but he wrote that he had no idea who his valentine was. He didn’t give me the letter personally. The lady at the front desk of our building gave it to me.” He stopped to run his hands over his reddening cheeks and all the way up into his hair which he grabbed between his fingers for a few seconds before dragging his hands back down and letting them fall to his lap.

“I like him. We used to fight when we first met and we still argue once in a while, but I believe it’s mostly to…tease each other? I just don’t really know what he thinks of me and I can’t…I can’t just ask him directly. I don’t think I’ve reached that point yet where I have the confidence required to do that.” He fell silent then to ponder Baekhyun’s words and he dipped his scone into his coffee, using it to stir the brown liquid.

“If it wasn’t because you disliked each other…then it was because of circumstances? Does that mean that…you still love each other? I mean…if say…the circumstances were making it possible again…would you two go back together?”

[mh-baek]

he couldn't help the smile that spread across his face, gentle and reassuring, laughing softly to himself. "that's really cute..." he commented, a small smile on his face as he tilted his head slightly. "i think you two have put a lot more effort into this than yixing and i ever did." it was a little wistful, a little sad, a little bit of mourning for the boy he had loved so much. if it hadn't been for him, who knew where they would be now?

surely, if he had had a choice, he wouldn't have given up on them. if he hadn't carved the horrific scar into his back, if he hadn't threatened to kill yixing... would they have ever separated? somehow, he doubted it. but they had. concern for yixing's life and the thought of going on without him... in any way, he couldn't have borne.

"it was because of circumstances." he murmured quietly, stirring his americano carefully, staring down at the dark liquid in the cup. "we do... we love each other, but it's not in that way anymore. i still love him, tremendously. i wouldn't want anything to happen to him... but i can't imagine being with him anymore. not like that."

an image popped into his head and he couldn't help but smile at the thought of his light haired lover, his little deer, the little fawn that clung to him so trustingly and let him lean on in return. "after all... i love someone else."

[mh-baek]

❝ quiet comfort ♔ baekhyun & yixing

[xiaoxingyixing]

“Original” indeed~ [*chuckles, reaches for blanket folded at end of couch, pulling it over them, hugging Baekhyun tightly under blankets] Of course you’re sleepy~ [*teasing joke] You can sleep anywhere regardless of what’s going on. [*smiles affectionately]

[mh-baek]

[` pouts a little and buries his face in his boyfriend's chest, arms wrapping comfortably around him ] mm... i'm always sleepy... [` beams softly and gives him a playful nip on the shoulder before settling back down ] maybe you should be worried about me being narcoleptic... [` stifles a quiet yawn ]

[mh-baek]

❝ there's so little time ♔ baekhyun & jonghyun

[mh-jonghyunlee]

I was startled myself.. I’m sorry Baek… (/freaks out watching Baek unable to calm down) c..can I do something? anything?  (/clenches his fists at his sides regretting the fact that he wasn’t able to stop it before it even occurred) Baekhyun, wait a moment. ok? (/turns around to face the customers, bowing and apologizing in every direction) “I’ll be right with you miss” (/forces a smile out at the customers, quickly taking care of everyone along the bar)-(/kneels down before the boy, carefully holding his arm out and lightly pressing small amounts of ice neatly wrapped in towels over the bruised areas) I think we should call it a night. (/looks up at the boy pressing his lips together, feeling terrible about the entire situation) I’m really sorry. It’s my fault.

[mh-baek]

[` shakes his head slowly in response to the question of whether he could do anything, inhaling shakily, fingers pressing into his bruise almost painfully, trying to ground himself through the pain to remind himself that he's okay ] ... [` exhales shakily when jonghyun returns, offering him up a small smile, his body still trembling but not as hard ] ... it's okay... it's really okay, jonghyun... [` swallows back a quiet sound ] it's not your fault... you didn't ask that guy to grab me, did you? [` offers him a small smile, genuine but still a little shaky ] i'm okay... just... give me a few more minutes and i'll be right back to help you... okay? [` smiles again, tiny but true ]