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fortvnas:

“ If you were nothing I certainly wouldn’t be spending my time hanging out with you, would I? Maybe you should do what I did, ask for time off, because they might kick your ass out if you just continue the no-show act. ” It’s unlike the redhead to mother anybody, but she knows better than anybody how a terrible mindset can ruin your life, and she’s unwilling to allow that to happen to Micah. “ More than an amazing gift? Now I’m flattered! Don’t be sorry dumbass, we’re all irritating assholes, it’s why we’re friends. ”

it’s funny, she always knows what to say. when he’s feeling at his worst, she still knows how to get his mind out of that dark place. he also loves how most of the time, she’s right about everything-- and that makes him laugh. ‘’ fine. fine, i’ll shoot them a call.’’ micah murmurs, head moving to rest on her shoulder. ‘’ it’s why you’re my BESTEST friend. ever.’’

fortvnas:

She turns to look at him as he places himself next to her, the rarest of emotions briefly flashing across Bambi’s features; concern. “ Hey, I know things have been pretty shitty lately, but you should still go. ” She gives him a playful nudge in an attempt to keep the atmosphere lighthearted, “ I get it, you totally dig me, would cry if I wasn’t around, and my friendship is a gift. For the record, I like having you around too, Meeks, even when you’re being an irritating asshole. ”

‘’ i know, i should still go.. but-- i just--’’ he can’t even form his words, just making motions with his hands. ‘’ i’ve been spending most of my time trying to convince myself, that i am something. that i should go on with my life, and try.. being better. but i’ve lost the motivation to go.’’ micah lets out a sigh and he turns to her, eyebrows raising. ‘’ oh god, you know me so well bambs. your friendship is more than just an amazing gift, okay?? ‘’ his lips curl up into a smile, bumping her shoulder. ‘’-- i’m sorry. for being an irritating asshole. it must be annoying.’’

fortvnas:

“ Not that I’m usually one for encouraging decent behaviour, haven’t you been going to college? It’d probably be a fucking good distraction. ” Not like she could talk, having taken a year off herself, “ it’s amazing, huh? Good to know you’re finally appreciating my incredible company! ”

there’s a moment of silence when he finally brings his head up to look at her, micah having slipped on a pair of sunglasses. sitting himself on the counter, he tries to think of a way to avoid the SUBJECT of this conversation-- looking anywhere but her. ‘’... funny story.. no, no-- i’ve GREATLY APPRECIATED your company this entire time. i’ve.. never said it enough.’’

pcrfectionist:

“ pretty shitty if that’s all you got goin’ for you. might wanna step up your game elsewhere, yeah? well, you’re doing a horrid job at doing so, since i was giving myself a hard time before you came along. ”

‘’ well, i got nothin’ else goin’ for me-- as you might’ve heard. i’d like to think i’m doin’ an EXCELLENT job. i’m just addin’ on.’’

pcrfectionist:

“ i can almost feel the sarcasm behind you voice, goodness. ah, so you’re here to do what you do best? why should i have asked? ”

‘’ lately, my sarcasm is my only defense. it’s the only thing i have left. you should know me better by now, lancaster. i LOVE giving you a hard time.’’

pcrfectionist:

“ yeah – sure you are. did you want something, ryder? ”

‘’ i for one am VERY sorry. but-- no, i’ve just come to give you a hard time.’’

pcrfectionist:

“ careful – might actually hurt my feelings, micah. ”

‘’ -- woops, sorry ?? ‘’

fortvnas:

“ No trouble here, stoner, just thought I’d keep your lonely self company. ” She hops up onto the nearby kitchen counter, tilting her head with a smile, “ nobody home? ” Her legs swing back and forth lightly, general lighthearted energy filling the room, “ next time, I suggest locking the door if you don’t wanna’ get caught. Just a tip. ”

‘’nope. i have TOO much free time on my hands so this comes in handy.’’ he motions to the bong, setting it down on the counter beside her. ‘’ i’ll have you know, i-- yeah.. thanks for the tip.’’ ducking his head, he nods once. ‘’ i mean it, i appreciate you coming by. hanging out with you.. is amazing.’’

@fortvnas

‘’ hm--’’ looking up, he exhales the smoke-- letting out a sigh. ‘’ oh-- hey bambs. thought i was in trouble. ‘’ shrugging, he sets the bong down and runs a hand through his hair. ‘’ thanks for comin’ over to hang out.’’

#closed: bambi

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trueloveisdelena

We are broken, in a way that I can’t change, and it hurts too much to hold another day. With a heart wide open, the hardest thing to say, is sometimes you can’t save what can’t be saved. We are broken.

#( musings. ft. jasmine. )#( '' some hearts are vacant. '' visage. )

svrvivc:

after aidens death and the violation and shame she had been feeling after that night in the workshop, micah ryder had been the one to pull her from the darkness; to save her soul from the torment is was perusing. but she didn’t have micah any more, and back into the darkness she came. her breathing hitches as he takes a few steps forward, so many waves of emotions crashing into her at once. it pained her to look at him, but yet, being around him gave her that sense of comfort and wholeness she had been craving. as if he completed her. it was wrong of her to still feel the way she did, so so wrong that the thought of wanting and needing to feel his lips against her own again was all she could think about in that moment. ❛ & you think it’s not the same for me right now ? you’re all i think about, day after day after day, it’s driving me insane—— not being around you is making me crazy ! & i can’t—— ❜ a hand is brought to her lips as she choked out a sob, gaze averting to the floor as the threat of tears fought so hard to leave her chocolate hues. she felt so empty when he wasn’t around, this loneliness haunting her so deeply that she was slowly losing the battle to turn back to the drug that nearly ended her life. but standing here and not being able to kiss or embrace him? that was much worse than any fatal thoughts that had devoured her mind lately. ❛ i can’t stop loving you. ❜

loving jasmine was something that would never stop. no matter who or what stood in his way, his feelings for... for her would never change. ‘’ i can’t stop loving you either, jasmine. god, i don’t give a shit what anyone says. my HEART, will always be with you.’’ the words escape him in a hushed whisper , making motions with his hand. ‘’ look.. i ... ‘’ trailing off, he looks around them quickly before moving to take her hand and pull her into a more secluded area. ‘’ i know i need to be quick... i don’t know how long we’ll have when we’re.. alone like this, but i just.. i know we go--’’ he doesn’t even finish his words, not really giving a shit at the moment. hands move to cup her face as he steps forward, leaning in to press his lips against hers in a quick kiss.

svrvivc:

hearing his voice again.. it pained her, but what hurt her even more was the fact he wasn’t even able to be close to her, noticing the unneeded distance between the two as she stands looking into the eyes of her former ex lover. she takes a bold step forward, and the single tear to roll down her olive skin is something she is unable to contain. ❛ don’t, ❜ she whispers, voice trembling. ❛ don’t do that. act like we’re complete strangers. just don’t. ❜

funny to think how one day the two were cuddling, and making plans for the future and the next-- it’s revealed that they’re siblings. god, micah wants nothing more than to scoop her up in his arms and kiss the pain away. when she steps close, he visibly tenses as his blue orbs never leave hers. ‘’ i don’t want to act with you. you know-- that’s the last thing i ever want to do.’’ it’s a shaky whisper that comes out, and now he’s taking steps forward. ‘’ i-- i’m sorry for.. i-- ‘’ god, he can’t even form his words around her. ‘ you know how much it hurts for me ?? not being able to hold you, and tell you everything will be okay ?? ‘ ‘ she brought out the good in him. jasmine was the one reason that micah wanted to better himself. and just like that, his happiness was ripped away from him like the text said it would be.

pcrfectionist:

“ i have a journalist entry due for class tomorrow at noon and i have two words down —- my fuckin’ name. ”

‘’ good luck. don’ really.. care, i s’pose.’’

islalancaster:

“s’ alright,” isla mumbles disparagingly, her muscles deflating a little bit from her previous state of tenseness. she feels tired and tenuous, but she still put on a brave smile and extends a hand to the boy. “isla lancaster,” she introduces herself, her brows raising up to her hairline, “and you are??”

‘’ isla, PLEASURE to meet you.’’ there’s that charming smile that comes across his features, in attempt to put up that confident front he U S E D to have before-- it was ripped away. ‘’ my name is micah ryder. moved here not too long ago from england.’’

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