❤ Park Micha ❤

❝ –– ( ❤ ░ Be soft. Do NOT let the w o r l d make you hard. Do NOT let the p a i n make you hate. Do NOT let the b i t t e r n e s s steal your sweetness.

[michabae-blog]

when you wanted to work on replies after taking a nice nap but run into drama and now you’d rather just crawl under a rock and live there for awhile. 

i’m done w/ this shit, i’ll try to get on sometime this week but right now i just don’t even wanna deal w/ tumblr.  

[michabae-blog]

someone needs to slap some sense into me, i can NOT have six characters but i want another character b/c i’m a muse hoe 

is there like a place i could go to, to get help for my muse hoe ways??

[ohmax]

☎

“Why can’t we be friends? Why does it have to be so complicated? I don’t like it, okay? I don’t like feeling bad whenever I think about you. I’m sorry, okay? I didn’t wanna hurt you. I didn’t want to hurt Jude either. I regret it, okay? I regret… a lot. It was all my fault. You didn’t deserve that, okay? I swear I… I was hurting too. I really loved you, okay? You were my first love… I know it’s like… people’s dreams to be with their first loves forever… I’m sorry we couldn’t be that. But you’ll find people better than me, okay? You deserve better.“

[ohmax]

He had just gotten off of his shift at work when he saw her. As he walked out the door, he saw her pass by, suddenly causing him to freeze. She didn’t seem to have noticed him, as she simply walked passed him without a glance. Or had she done that on purpose? His instinct was to call out to her, which he did, almost forgetting for a moment how awkward things had become between them. But he quickly began to regret it as he saw her face, a nervous feeling starting inside of him. He returned her smile hesitantly as he forced himself to look her in the eyes. A wave of guilt washed over him, something he had always felt whenever he looked at her. “Yeah… I’ve been good. Just working, hanging around, nothing much.” He couldn’t remember the last time they had spoken, but he felt like it had been forever ago. “What about you?” he asked, wondering how long this conversation would last. But as he stared at her, he felt himself becoming genuinely curious as to what she had been up to. They were once so close and he used to know her inside and out. Now he felt like he didn’t know a thing about her. And yet again, he chose to act on his instinct. “Are you busy or anything? Would you wanna maybe grab coffee or something?”

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To be honest, Micha grew nervous when people asked what she had been up to. What could she say? That she was either moping around at home, or moping around at the dance studio? That she was at war with herself for wanting to let someone go, yet at the same time feeling like a horrible person that she basically did? In the end, Micha simply kept her warm smile, and answered, “Oh I just got back from New York actually. I had some business to attend to up there, and of course it’s always nice to visit some of my favorite places up there.” His next question completely took her by surprise. It had been ages since the two actually hung out, or even went to grab some coffee. Maybe the last time was actually when they were an item, back when Micha thought everything was just fine before the storm truly hit her. She knew the whole encounter might be a bit awkward, but this was also her chance to talk to Max about Kai. She had to take the opportunity. “I would like that,” she nodded. “Coffee sounds wonderful right now, actually.” Micha soon fell in step with the boy as they head down the street to the nearest coffee shop. “I feel like you’ve grown since I’ve last seen you. Always trying to tower over me, I see,” she teased with a light chuckle.

[michabae-blog]

Beautiful Melodies // Meil

[abtneilp]

The man hoped that he wouldn’t be considered a bad person if he enjoyed seeing her the tiniest bit of flustered. It seemed like a common situation with the woman, her getting caught up the last time he had seen her too, but it was something that seemed to make the smile subtlety remain on his features. This only seemed to grow into a larger one when Micha emphasized her answer with the shimmy. Neil listened intently as she described how passionate she was about the hobby, admiring the instant inspiration that seemed to flow from her as soon as she began to talk about it. “Oh no,” the man admitted with furrowed eyebrows. “My parents have always been interested in music, both being in band in high school and my dad even plays in an orchestra band nowadays. But when they had me, they knew they wanted me to find what I was best at, which led to me starting out on a lot of different things. In the end I found this was like my calling, but I can still do a decent amount of violin and saxophone here and there.” The man fell silent for a moment before skimming his fingertips over the ivory keys, lightly pressing only a few for the notes to ring out in the mostly empty room. “Are all your dances choreographed? Or can you freestyle?”

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Micha smiled happily at the little story Neil gave as an answer to her question. It was touching how his parents helped him find the one thing he was so amazing at and it sounded like they gave him so much support for it as well. “That’s so sweet that they helped you find such a calling. I’d love to hear you play the violin one of these days! It’s such a beautiful instrument.” Micha couldn’t help but let her gaze fall to view the boys fingers skimming the piano keys, growing a bit too excited in thought he would start up again. His question caught her off guard, only because her mind was so focused on hearing him play again. It was soothing, and magical, and she was close to the border of becoming selfish with such a feeling. Anything to keep her mind occupied. “I can freestyle, yes. Most of my dances that I do choreograph, come from me listening to the music once or twice and simply dancing along to it. You’d be surprised at what comes out of you in the moment of things. When you turn one direction and realize it flows so well with the next step you had in mind. At least, I hope it’s great. Otherwise, I’ll feel bad for teaching so many students such awful dancing,” she let out a sweet laugh at this, shaking her head slightly at the thought.   

[michabae-blog]

Text --> MichaFrappe 💖☕

Areum: Good ^.^

Areum: Worst comes to worst I can always get a polygamist marriage with you and Jay so Athena can be yours too;) In seriousness, though. You'll find it, and it'll be amazing, I promise :)

Areum: Girl, you would not look desperate, and he probably wouldn't even think that. I could totally ask though! And! If we DO find someone you know what that means right?? Double date time!!:D

Micha: As sweet as that is, I don't think you'd want to share Jaylen w/ me, nor would I want to do.../things/ with him. Not that he's not attractive! Cause he is! But he's a brother now, you know? I hope you don't think I'm crushing on Jaylen now DX

Micha: I always wanted to go on a double date with you and Jaylen, that would be amazing :3 Thank you so much Areum, for all of this. I really appreciate it

[areumbby-deactivated20191213]

💒

💒 for the toast my muse would give at your muse’s wedding

Wow. You know, I made note cards to help, but I feel like if I were to read from them it’d almost sound robotic…

Life is an awful, ugly place without a best friend. That’s a quote from one of my favorite authors, one who has a book that ironically always made me think of Micha and myself.

I was lucky enough to become friends with Micha at a very young age, and I feel like she’s so much of the reason why I am who I am today. I’ve watched this woman grow over time. I’ve watched her fall in love and have her heart broken all the same. Each time was so hard for me I can’t imagine how hard it must have been on her. But each time she picked herself up, dusted herself off, and proved herself to be the amazing and admirable woman I’ve always known her to be.

And here I am, years later, seeing her finally have the happiest day of her life. I never thought I’d see my best friend look any more like an angel than I do right now, and let me tell you ____, you’re the luckiest man alive.

I can literally go on for hours, but I know the best man is probably dying to make his own speech, and we all know who’s dying for cake, too. But to sum it up: Mich, I knew that someday you’d find your Disney prince. You put out so much good and kindness in the world, and I’m so happy to see that you’ve found someone who gives all that happiness back to you and more. I love you both more than I could ever think to explain, and I know you guys will be so happy together. Give it up to our Disney Prince and Princess everyone.

[adrenatae-deactivated20180324]

inspirational ladies ♡ Bae JooHyun:  ↳ “I didn’t in the past [feel happiness from small things in life], but I feel that now.”

[michabae-blog]

it was one of those days where fresh air was the only thing that might keep micha from going completely insane. if she wasn’t at the dance studio, she was curled up in bed watching rom coms all day, and vice versa. distracting herself was the only way to keep her mind at ease, finding anything that could take her mind off the past memories that still somehow haunted her. of course, she ran into the same problem. she tried to leave the house without the ring, only walking down the street before turning around and running back. it was now placed upon her finger, and she disliked how truly weak she was. needing to give her body a rest, a simple and easy-paced walk around town seemed like the perfect idea. before micha could reach for her earbuds to let the beat of her playlist lift her off into another world, she heard a voice call out to her. it was one she hadn’t heard in quite some time, yet it still sent chills along her body. turning around, a small but wary smile graced her lips. “oh, max, hello. it’s been awhile since i’ve last seen you around. how, um...how have you been?”

@ohmax

[michabae-blog]

Beautiful Melodies // Meil

[abtneilp]

There was a gentle smile the laid quietly on Neil’s as the girl got flustered with her own compliment. Luckily, after a moment of trying to clear of all the mishaps she made, he felt the girl finally grow a bit less flustered. “You’re very beautiful, yourself, Micha,” he added gently with a smile. Squinching his features at her apology, Neil shook his head so she wouldn’t feel bad for him. He didn’t even dwell on it too much himself at this point, more than anything he was just trying to move forward. Eyebrows raising in surprise, Neil felt bad for the girl hearing that she was going through the same things. Though his was getting better, it’s not something he’d wish on anyone else, especially not someone like her. Neil caught the girl silently fidgeting with the ring on her finger, and despite his temptation of curiosity, he didn’t ask about it, a strong feeling like it pertained to her situation, and not wanting her to talk about anything before she was ready. “It’s the healthiest way I’ve ever known, if I’m being honest,” the man admitted. “What’s your escape?” he asked in curiosity.

[michabae-blog]

Micha felt her cheeks simply keep on burning at his compliment, her smile never fading as she quickly stumbled over a ‘thank you’ for him. It was obvious to her that he simply wished to not look too deep into it. And honestly, she was forever thankful that he did the same for her. It was clear they both must have had their heartbroken, or at least somewhere along those lines, and it was such an awful topic to discuss, especially when all you wanted to do was simply forget the memories you longed to have back. “Oh I agree,” she nodded. At his next question, she perked up a bit from her previous thoughts. “Dancing,” she answered, shimming a bit in her seat. “I’ve been doing so since I was a little girl. Any time I hear music, it just gets me moving. For those few minutes, you can simply escape into another world. Listen to someone else’s words, theories, troubles, happiness, and all the above. Is piano the only instrument you play?”

[michabae-blog]

Text --> MichaFrappe 💖☕

Areum: But you still love me, right?

Areum: Girl, you are twenty three years old, don't give me any of that bull that you're running out time. You have years to find him, okay? But in the chance that you DO adopt by yourself, at least wait until you're like...thirty five I'd say. I feel like that's a good age for that.

Areum: Hey, I can always ask if he has any friends too? Like whenever you DO want to get back out there obviously. But I feel like he'd have some good friends, you know?

Micha: Always! :3

Micha: Is it wrong of me not to want to wait years? I want a child way before thirty-five Areum :( I want that feeling back again. Love. I miss it...

Micha: Oh no, I couldn't ask such a thing. I would look...desperate...even if I am a tiny bit desperate.

Micha: ...Could you ask??

[michabae-blog]

Would you ever considering dating any of your exes again?

one of them, no. one of them, yes and no.

[michabae-blog]

What outfit do you own that you feel defines you more than any of the others?

i have a ‘i heart dance’ crop top that i really like to wear, along with maybe some yoga shorts or pants. usually any kind of loose fitting t-shirt and yoga pants are my go to because it’s what i practice 99% of the time. 

[michabae-blog]

if u were in a scooby movie, what villain would u be the least scared to go up against?

oh, i didn’t watch scooby-doo very much as a kid. i think only a couple of episodes, really. and some movies. wasn’t there a viking in one of the episodes? he might not be so bad, i suppose.

[michabae-blog]

What is your favorite disney prince?

beast/prince adam

[michabae-blog]

are you scared of spiders?

i can’t deny that they do make my skin crawl

[michabae-blog]

do you have any insecurities? if so, what are they?

i believe everyone has an insecurity or two. i guess mine would be that i’m afraid i may never be enough for someone.