Surving Life In South Florida

Introvert, Recluse & trying to make it through the daily waves of chaos that is life.

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It’s a sad friday when you open your banking app and only have $0.18

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The sins of my father

I think the most difficult obstacle I have had overcome since birth is the sins of my father. Me and my sister we given life by drug addicts, my mother passed when I was 8 years old and my father abandoned us from the day we were born. From the age of 4 years old until I was 18 I bounced between children's homes, foster homes and different relatives from both sides of the family. The kicker is though is my fathers family is very well off, they have helped me and my sister here and there over the years and we are grateful for what we do get but still at the age of 27 now I am treated as I am less than my cousins, aunts and uncles. My family has taken care of my cousins because their mothers and fathers were active in their lives, unlike mine. So I still pay for his sins against my family.. while my cousins are given elaborate wedding ceremonies, beautiful homes and cars to start their families- me and my sister are given none of this, because of the sins of our father. We have to struggle, we have to learn to rely on only one another because we know that at the end of the day no one will save us, not our father or his family. It makes my heart ache, I try to make progress in my life only to be knocked back down. It breaks my heart to see my sister and her husband and children struggling from paycheck while my drug addict father is still given thousands a month to support his 'habit'. So many nights I cry wondering if I will ever have happiness, if I will ever be able to afford a home to raise a family. I try not to be bitter when I see all the wonderful things my cousin have been given while the only thing I own is my car.. I try to tell myself that I am stronger than them because I haven't led the blessed lives that they have. I try to stay humble but it hurts, its hurts so much to be a pariah because of the sins of my father.

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Turns on Game of Thrones..

..do you want to watch some medieval porn?

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I’ve logged countless hours of heated arguments in my head with people I know in real life that they don’t know about.

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Anyone in Orlando or has followers from the area please!

AB, O+ and O- blood donors needed ASAP!!! Due to the shooting overnight, the hospital and blood bank is critically low right now for donated blood. If you are able, please go this morning to donate at one of the locations below. This valuable gift you can give is a direct way to help those injured from this tragic incident. The Orange, Osceola, and Seminole locations open today are:

Orlando - West Michigan Donor Center 345 West Michigan St #106 Orlando, FL 32806 Phone: [phone] Fax: [phone] Sun: 7:00 AM - 2:00 PM

Orlando - Main Donor Center 8669 Commodity Circle Orlando, FL 32819 Phone: [phone] Fax: [phone] Sun: 7:00 AM - 1:00 PM

Apopka Donor Center 131 North Park Ave Apopka, FL 32703 Phone: [phone] Fax: [phone] Sun: 9:00 AM - 3:00 PM

Kissimmee Donor Center 1029 North John Young Pkwy Kissimmee, FL 34741 Phone: [phone] Fax: [phone] Sun: 8:00 AM - 2:00 PM

Oviedo Donor Center 1954 West 426 #1100 Oviedo, FL 32765 Phone: [phone] Fax: [phone] Sun: 7:00 AM - 3:00 PM

Lake Mary Donor Center 105 Waymont Ct #101 Lake Mary , FL 32746 Phone: [phone] Fax: [phone] Sun: 8:00 AM - 2:00 PM

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With phones, taking a shit has gone from a mildly awkward, solitary activity to being the time I text and email people the most. Pooping is the most social activity of my day.

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If you grow up poor, you resent kids who are born wealthy with more opportunities. But if you succeed in life and provide financial stability for your kids, then your kids become the kids you resented when you were a child because their poor peers probably think they were born wealthy.

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The hardest thing in life is to watch someone slowly die before your eyes and knowing there is nothing you can do...

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It’s 420 eve, don’t forget to leave milk & munchies out for Snoop Dogg.

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me @ drama i’m not involved in

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Flower child... Peace, love & treats ✌️

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Queenie was an awesome dog & lizard hunter, you couldn't help but fall in love with her chunky cuteness.

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insp.

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This is just a reminder

If you fucked up today, that’s okay. You’re still smart, and good, and people still love you. If you’re in a dark place today, that’s okay. Even if you feel like you can’t get out of bed, and all you can do is breathe, that’s okay. You breathe, take the time you need, and we’ll be here when you’re ready.  Every day is a battle. On some, you demolish whatever’s ahead of you. On others, you just have to hang on for dear life. Either way, you’re a warrior. Don’t forget it. 

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