The sins of my father
I think the most difficult obstacle I have had overcome since birth is the sins of my father. Me and my sister we given life by drug addicts, my mother passed when I was 8 years old and my father abandoned us from the day we were born. From the age of 4 years old until I was 18 I bounced between children's homes, foster homes and different relatives from both sides of the family. The kicker is though is my fathers family is very well off, they have helped me and my sister here and there over the years and we are grateful for what we do get but still at the age of 27 now I am treated as I am less than my cousins, aunts and uncles. My family has taken care of my cousins because their mothers and fathers were active in their lives, unlike mine. So I still pay for his sins against my family.. while my cousins are given elaborate wedding ceremonies, beautiful homes and cars to start their families- me and my sister are given none of this, because of the sins of our father. We have to struggle, we have to learn to rely on only one another because we know that at the end of the day no one will save us, not our father or his family. It makes my heart ache, I try to make progress in my life only to be knocked back down. It breaks my heart to see my sister and her husband and children struggling from paycheck while my drug addict father is still given thousands a month to support his 'habit'. So many nights I cry wondering if I will ever have happiness, if I will ever be able to afford a home to raise a family. I try not to be bitter when I see all the wonderful things my cousin have been given while the only thing I own is my car.. I try to tell myself that I am stronger than them because I haven't led the blessed lives that they have. I try to stay humble but it hurts, its hurts so much to be a pariah because of the sins of my father.
