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27 • minors DNI I block like it’s going out of style

[microdosing-happiness]

Hello! 🌷🫧

(Its been a long time and my intro was outdated)

🪷About me:🪷

I’m Bee. I’m 26, a mother of 2 and I’ve been in a binge/restrict cycle for half my life (genuinely the only thing consistent about me)

I really need to make it work this time because I don’t know how much fight I have left in me.

✨Stats:✨

5’3”

HW: 220 (July 2021)

LW: 145 (April 2019)

SW: 205 (July 2024)

CW: 186 (Sept 18)

GW1: 180 - buy myself a new scale

GW2: 150 - get my nose pierced

GW3: 130 - new tattoo

GW4: 115 - navel piercing

UGW: 100

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[microdosing-happiness]

Vent or whatever

After living with my abusive sister in law, I have returned. Not under great circumstances though bc the only way we got away from her (after she stole our car and $800), was because my husband’s cousin passed suddenly and we moved across the state to be guardians to her two daughters (I know have a 4, 5, 6 and 16 year old… I’m 27..). I have no family or friends around, we are fighting lawyers and courts, taking on tens of thousands in debt and rapidly running out of money lmao what a fucking month. Anyways, I’m fucking tired. People keep donating clothes to me to help but they’re all too small.. I’m going out of my fucking mind waiting for everything to process. I feel so out of control and I’ve never have to socialize so much in my entire life. Since we hardly have money to feed the 4 kids, might as well take it to the next level and get serious.

At this point idec any more. Bring on the mean$p0 and coaches. I’m too tired to try to do this the least damaging/most ethical way.

That’s what’s up with me. What’s up with yall?

[microdosing-happiness]

The goal is to make everyone concerned and look amazing in vintage holister sweaters

[hauntedddd666]

Stolen from r/edanonymous

[microdosing-happiness]

I need something truly devastating to happen to me to snap my brain back into never eat again mode

[microdosing-happiness]

Update: it happened

[microdosing-happiness]

Why are birthdays so embarrassing bro?? Nobody talk to me or look at me or acknowledge my existence so I can drown in the suffering that’s another year on this planet. I will be completely dissociated all day, only taking breaks to cry and do housework. I hate this shit

[microdosing-happiness]

Any pokemon girlies out there???

I’ve gotten really into collecting just cute cards and have no girl friends to share it with 😭😭

[microdosing-happiness]

And just like that, the weight is tied to my foot again and I can’t help but sink

It really does just hit when you least expect it

[microdosing-happiness]

To big to be thin. Too small to be (what most people consider) midsize.

Forever stuck feeling out of place.

[silvercoffeefan]

why the fuck it's so hard to lose thigh fat

[microdosing-happiness]

Sorry for being MIA

Between American politics and my period, it’s taking everything in me not to nap on the highway 🤪

[microdosing-happiness]

Spend $5 on snacks <<<<spend $5 on Milcery 152/142

[microdosing-happiness]

How it feels by hour 18 of a fast when you come back from being gone for a while

[microdosing-happiness]

My top 3 unconventional th!nsp0:

1. A literal stick bug

2. Tim Burton characters (duh)

3. A coffee stir straw

That’s all thank you 🥰🥰

[microdosing-happiness]

I think I need to start cutting carbonated drinks 😭 it’s the only thing I can think of for why I’m constantly bloated 🥲

Pray for me besties

[microdosing-happiness]

Who wants to learn mandarin with me? 😭😭

[bunnyisnothungry]

losing my mind