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She built her sanctuary in silence, far from the streets that carried her family’s name.

Yamashita Aki . 25. Art Conservationist in National Museum of Korea

‘ there’s only so much that can be done to repair old damage. ’

The museum was packed with people of all ages, she loved the idea of being able to explain and share the artwork, artists and some of her favorite pieces to anybody who wanted to learn about them. Aki, with due diligence, routinely walks around on her break. Talking to those who wander around became her favorite past time, and today, she spots a lingering man by the baroque art they managed to curate just a month ago.

"There's two versions of this art. One, unfortunately, is in Florence and the other one- is here, borrowed from the National Gallery in London." She trails, her hands behind her as she stands next to him. She feels his presence as stern, almost commanding, and it reminds her of someone she knows. "It took them a while to restore this without losing the original light and the shadows that supposed to lurk in the background." She adds, leaning a little closer to the painting as she chuckles at the sight of fading paints on the edges of the canvas.

‘ there’s only so much that can be done to repair old damage. ’

"Right." She nods, turning to him with a small smile as she leans back, her fingers entwining as she fully face him, head tilting at the sight. "Do you like baroque art? this one, the boy bitten by a lizard is one of the famous ones we have in the museum. I can point you to another one, if you'd like?"

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what’s the dumbest injury your muse could realistically get?

"Well..."

She takes a deep breath, lips pursed, thought in the sky as she recalls a moment of pure embarassment. Although one can say she didn't know any better; as innocent as she is, she thinks, from time to time, all odds are against her, and this was one of them.

"I once thought...I could ride a motorcycle because I'm a bike expert." she points out, pointer finger out as if she was stating a fact. "But I thought wrong..." she adds, lips pursing further into a pout.

"I bruised my leg when I couldn't lift the motorcycle off the anchor, and eventually pushed me to the ground. I stayed there for five minutes. FIVE MINUTES!" she exlaimed. "And then Junho...had to save me."

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why are you being so gentle with me?

Their first meeting was definitely something she wasn't expecting. Aki knew not to assume, and if she were, she probably should have known better than to blatantly accuse Junho of... well, being with someone almost immediately after they shared a memorable night together. Now settled at the edge of the couch, Aki gently brings Jimin's arm on her lap, so she can easily dab a cotton right across a small scratch on her skin.

They were playing with Yuki beforehand, the cat was a little territorial and possessive- she wonders why from time to time, but realized it might have something to do with his owner, Junho, who had been like that from the moment they met. She gently presses again, smoothing out the ointment on Jimin's skin so it wouldn't create a scar while she blows on it, in case it stings.

The question took her a little off guard. "I've always been like this so I'm not entirely sure what you expect me to say." She chuckles after, her hand keeping the latter's arm against her lap so it's easy for her to slip a small bandage over the wound. "Clean this again later, yeah? It might get infected. Who knows what Yuki digs with his claws." She adds, her lips curling to a smile. Hoping that maybe with equal footing, she and Jimin would find the right timing to get to know each other better.

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this ask meme is based on the blog gravesuggestion. i’ve divided it up into two categories ( light & dark ) based on the themes. some of these can be somewhat triggering seeing that the darker ones deal with a lot of death mentions. please be cautious before continuing on!!

L I G H T

‘ at night i dream of you. ’ ‘ don’t give up yet. you still have time to fix things. ’ ‘ falling in love with someone else is not a personal attack. ’ ‘ i am still so weak when it comes to you. ’ ‘ i can’t believe i let myself let you down. ’ ‘ i don’t care where we go when we die, as long as i’m with you. ’ ‘ i dream of saying to you all the words i held inside until it was too late. ’ ‘ i feel so warm & safe when you talk to me. maybe i could love you if you’d let me. ’ ‘ i finally let the right people in & i have never felt so loved. ’ ‘ i like the way your nails paint red stripes along my spine days after you’re gone. ’ ‘ i lived in your permafrost for twenty years & then you looked at me & i felt the warmth of spring. ’ ‘ i once wished you’d leave me alone, but i take it back. ’ ‘ i want to be able to love someone else, but you stretch your arms & spread your legs inside my heart so that there is no room for anyone or anything else. ’ ‘ i want to believe that we got it right this time. ’ ‘ i wonder how much longer i can cling to your light before it expires completely. ’ ‘ i would travel across the world to be by your side, because as long as you are with me, anywhere is a perfect place to me. ’ ‘ it took me awhile to realize it myself, but you are not what other people say you are. ’ ‘ it’s not that i really need you, but life would be pretty boring without you around. there’s no one i would rather be with. ’ ‘ i’d like to stay like this for awhile. ’ ‘ life & death don’t have to be so boring, let’s make both an adventure. ’ ‘ life imitates art, they say. i didn’t believe it until i started to notice the way your eyelashes look so much like tiny ink stroke. ’ ‘ live your life so that when you die, souls will come for miles just to hear your historic tales. ’ ‘ make your exes jealous & your past self proud. ’ ‘ maybe you’re what i needed to find in order to move on. ’ ‘ never get caught falling harder. they’ll never let you back up. ’ ‘ please don’t go. ’ ‘ some days it’s easier to just stop fighting it & succumb. ’ ‘ sometimes, you’ll find it hard to keep going, but you always will. ’ ‘ the desire i feel for you is that same itching, insidious hunger that an addict has for their addiction. ’ ‘ the worst thing about you is that you weren’t all bad. ’ ‘ there is absolutely nothing & no one who can stop me. ’ ‘ there is no route of losing you that is without pain. ’ ‘ there’s still room for adventure & there is no one i’d rather have by my side. ’ ‘ things didn’t turn out the way i planned, but i’m alright with that. ’ ‘ we could be really incredible together, you know? ’ ‘ you are beautiful & vibrant & confident. you are light & laughter incarnate & every fiber of your being screams freedom & joy. when i am with you, i am truly happy. ’ ‘ you are starlight incarnate, from the grand way you sway your hips to the wide mysterious way you think. blessed are any to be loved by you. ’ ‘ you are too afraid of the future to let go of a past that was never kind to you. ’ ‘ you call me yours & i have no idea what that even means to you. ’ ‘ you remind me of bubblegum & sweets; soft & pink & warm. you are strong in the gentlest way. you are so stubbornly kind. i wish i could be like that. ’ ‘ you still visit me while i sleep sometimes. your fingers trace my spine & i listen to you breathe. please stop haunting me. ’ ‘ ‘morbid curiosity’ is a wonderful way to describe how i feel about you. ’

D A R K

‘ a thousand empty bottles & fist fights will never return to us what we lost that day. ’ ‘ everyone else has moved on, but i am still here. ’ ‘ everything about you screams danger. ’ ‘ everything is worthless to you & you, in turn, became worthless. ’ ‘ for once in my life i want to be surrounded by people that i don’t feel like i need to impress. ’ ‘ freedom is really hard to get used to. ’ ‘ how could you do this to me? how fucking could you? ’ ‘ i am becoming everything we always dreamed of & i am leaving you behind. ’ ‘ i buried you so well that you might as well have died. ’ ‘ i can rest easy knowing that the person i love is dead & not the monster you became. ’ ‘ i can’t look at you. not now, not ever. ’ ‘ i don’t ask how you’ve been. what’s the point? you’d lie anyways. ’ ‘ i dream of hearing the words i so desperately needed to lay your memory to rest. ’ ‘ i haunted this house first. there is no room for you here. ’ ‘ i have a right to be upset. i loved them too, you know. ’ ‘ i just want it to end. i want it to all go away. i want to go away. ’ ‘ i may be a wolf in sheep’s clothing, but a snake hiding in the skin of a mouse is far more dangerous. ’ ‘ i saw your face today & didn’t feel anything. i am free. ’ ‘ i tried to save you, but you didn’t want to be saved. you just wanted someone to suffer with you. ’ ‘ it’s almost as if you were never here. ’ ‘ it’s unhealthy to do these things, you tell me. you say it’s time to stop smoking, time to stop gambling, & dammit, i f you don’t stop drinking it’ll kill you. i sure hope you’re right, darling. ’ ‘ i’m always pleasantly surprised by how easy it is to kill you in my mind ’ ‘ i’m not really scared to die. i’m more afraid that no one will miss me when i’m gone. ’ ‘ i’m not the person you left behind anymore. there’s no one here to miss. ’ ‘ i’ve been dead far longer than i’ve been alive. ’ ‘ i’ve eaten nothing but flower petals & ivy for weeks because i want to be beautiful inside like you. ’ ‘ i’ve never been completely satisfied. i most likely will still be unsatisfied long after my death. ’ ‘ no motive other than pleasure, my dear. ’ ‘ one day i’ll go or you will. either way, it will be as if i’m losing a piece of myself. ’ ‘ our dreams & promises decay along with you. ’ ‘ the leaves change, but nothing else does. ’ ‘ the only difference between avoiding & leaving is that now i’m not waiting up for you. ’ ‘ there is no such thing as a person who is required to love you. ’ ‘ there’s only so much that can be done to repair old damage. ’ ‘ things aren’t going as i hoped. maybe if i die, i can start over again? better luck next time. ’ ‘ this is not something to be proud of. this is a tragedy. ’ ‘ trying to get rid of me? oh honey, you’ll have to try much harder than that. ’ ‘ trying to get under my skin? you’re nothing more than a pesky itch. ’ ‘ unlike you, i can’t hide my identity when it becomes an inconvenience or a danger. ’ ‘ weeping is for gods & martyrs, we cannot afford such luxuries. ’ ‘ would you even miss me? ’ ‘ you are not important enough to earn an eternal place in my heart. ’ ‘ you complain nonstop about being unloved & alone, i can’t imagine what you’d be like if that were actually true. ’ ‘ you don’t know what it’s like. ’ ‘ you made this so fucking easy for me. ’ ‘ you should see me as a threat. i will tear down everything you know until there is nothing left of you. i am a walking threat. ’ ‘ you think i’m already gone, but i’m still fighting. ’ ‘ you think i’m dead, but i’m just dying. ’ ‘ you were never an addiction, you were a fucking disease. ’ ‘ you wouldn’t dare cross me. i am god & you are the soil beneath my feet. ’ ‘ your existence takes up so much more space in mine that we might as well be one entity. ’ ‘ your fingers are so cold & bruised, but you’re still slamming your fists again the barricade as if it makes a difference. ’ ‘ your hair is tied in a noose & your fingernails are razor blades, your lips are poison & i will gratefully kiss them. ’ ‘ your hatred has a body count & we will not forget. ’ ‘ your loss, not mine. ’ ‘ you’re a sick fuck. you know that? ’ ‘ you’re not gentle with me & i would never ask you to be. ’ ‘ you’ve trapped yourself so thoroughly in your own mind that it’s not even a rut anymore, it’s a pit. ’

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“Someone somewhere is searching for you in every person they meet.”

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– 𝗨𝗡𝗨𝗦𝗨𝗔𝗟 𝗛𝗘𝗔𝗗𝗖𝗔𝗡𝗢𝗡 𝗤𝗨𝗘𝗦𝗧𝗜𝗢𝗡𝗦 ! a list of headcanon questions that are rarely asked

if your muse had to survive a zombie apocalypse, what’s their role in the group?

what’s one incredibly mundane skill your muse is secretly really good at?

what’s something your muse would absolutely fail at doing?

if your muse had a pinterest board, what’s on it?

what snack food would instantly win your muse’s heart?

what’s the pettiest argument your muse would pick a fight over?

what’s a smell that reminds you of your muse?

what’s a “blink and you miss it” detail about how you write your muse?

if your muse could get away with any crime, what would it be?

what’s one useless fact your muse definitely knows?

if your muse got isekai’d into a fantasy world, what class would they be?

which emoji do you think best represents your muse?

what’s a conspiracy theory your muse would totally believe in?

if your muse had a theme park ride, what would it be like?

what’s your muse’s go-to karaoke song?

what video game would your muse get way too competitive about?

what’s the most petty thing your muse has ever canonically done?

if your muse had to wear only one outfit forever, what would it be?

what’s the dumbest injury your muse could realistically get?

if your muse owned a pet, what would it be and what’s its name?

which fictional universe would your muse absolutely not survive in?

if your muse ran a youtube channel, what would it be about?

what’s a random bit of slang your muse would overuse?

what kind of terrible reality show would your muse end up on?

if your muse was a drink, what would be in it?

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rest, i'll watch over you.

She's been feeling feverish lately, the amount of work she has in the museum slowly took toll on her body. Being the only one who could trail the narrow history of Japanese art, she was tasked to do more than her work, and it landed her in this state.

There's a small cloth rested on her forehead, damped in cold water in attempt to cool her body down from the high temperature she couldn't seem to ignore anymore. If it wasn't for him catching her mid-walk toward her apartment, she probably would have been found laying on the streets, unconscious.

Aki adjusts herself from the bed, despite living in Seoul for a little over five years, she couldn't help but still feel strange in the city. Her identity had been closed to the public, and only a handful know where she was, including him, her sworn protector. "Haru, you really don't have to-" she hears his tongue click, and she knew right away that he wouldn't take no for an answer.

It's endearing, truth be told, to be cared for as she lived thousands of miles away from her home. As unfortunate as she wants to deem herself to be, she couldn't help but feel at least lucky to have a familiar face to see every now and then. She shifts closer to the edge of the bed, reaching for his hand, which was cold to the touch. She wonders why from time to time but the way she knew he wouldn't tell her anything even if she asked nicely, prevents her from wanting to know more. This is enough, she thinks, as she gently presses the flat of his palm against her cheek. Her fever almost subsiding in effect.

"Don't leave, yeah?" she murmurs, sleep enveloping her eyes as she rests it close. "Stay right here with me."

#obstrict #( spring. )