' BITTERSWEET

& this is what it takes to get my hunger back

[wombshaker]

[ssatsujin]

[miiras]

ikkusu

- “You don’t mean that! You really don’t mean that!!!” Grey continued to yell such a thing as he continued to hug this male tightly. Graham said such hurtful things but he didn’t know what he was saying, Graham couldn’t know because he’s still weak minded for that idiot. It seemed Grey continued to make excuses for this male no matter what. Though as he tried to continue to hug this male things turned for the worse as he was shoved away from Graham and then forced to lay down while his face was grabbed. The squeezes, how wonderful they were but Graham wasn’t doing this out of fun. Soon Grey felt pressure to his throat and that was a sign of panic. “G-Graham..” He coughed out yet couldn’t say anything else. Wanting to plea it was no use and soon everything started to turn black until Grey reached down and pulled a pocket knife out of his jacket only to quickly stab Graham’s arm several times.

“i mean it! i fucking mean it!” what did this guy not understand? there was no way for graham to love him. he would never betray kurt like this. graham was certainly not doing this out of fun. he had both hands on grey’s neck at this point, a crazy flash of anger in his eyes as he tried to slowly kill this stupid demon. he heard the cough of his name and only squeezed tighter. the first stab only angered graham and caused him to try harder, but there was still a couple more that followed and suddenly graham let go, growling in pain and hugging his arm close to himself. “GET AWAY FROM ME!” despite the oozing demon blood that poured from his wounds graham simply picked himself up and tried to retreat for now. he was supposed to see kurt. he couldn’t see him like this. stupid! stupid! stupid!

[miiras]

ikkusu.

- The aura coming off of Tea could make anyone feel calm, it was due to him being an angel but it seemed Tea added a bit more with his soft words. Nodding to everything this other male had to say, he felt a bit better being reminded that there was a bit of improvement. A slight smile fell upon his lips as his request was noted.

It was the little things that Tea did which made Kurt feel like a human again while making his heart beat faster. Shoulders being rubbed, an promise to try and keep him safe, a soft kiss and now hands together in a tight bond. It was everything Kurt didn’t know he wanted, closing his eyes he let Tea kiss him again and a slight moan fell from him. “Tea…” He didn’t want to say it, but at this moment it felt right “I love you, Tea…” cheeks turned a dark red but he wanted more kisses there he came close only to straddle Tea’s lap while leaning in and stealing a few kisses of of Tea’s soft lips. “Please…Keep me safe…”

a smile found its way on his lips. the way kurt blushed at such a soft declaration of love was adorable. “i love you too, kurt.” his own response fell easily from his lips. it was easy to say because it was true. tea truly loved this human and any other angel might insist it was a mistake and a bit risky as well, but tea would enjoy the moment. he would enjoy every little moment he was able to spend with kurt.  kurt was in his lap now and tea looked up at him, receiving a few kisses. “i promise,” he muttered softly, hands reaching to wrap around kurt’s waist a little, hugging tight. he really wanted to keep that promise. he’ll find a way to get rid of that awful demon even if it kills him. despite the darker thoughts, tea smiled and leaned forward, giving him a few kisses. they were more eager than the last. tea just wanted to pour his love and affection for this human with every little thing they do which resulted in heavier and pulling kurt as close to him as possible. 

[miiras]

ikkusu.

- “I’m not disgusting! You don’t mean that!” It seems that someone has been pushed a bit too far, brows pulled down upon this male’s head as he felt rather upset with how Graham was behaving. “Kurt doesn’t love you! Only I love you! Why can’t you see that!” Acting as if he was a child he came close again grabbing and holding Graham’s hand tightly. “Please stop acting like this! You can be so happy with me Graham don’t you see it? I can give you everything you ever wanted! I love you! I love you!” There he moved in, arms now wrapping around the other male in order to embrace him rather tightly. “I love you! I really do!!! I love you!!”

Nothing else really mattered at the moment, he didn’t care that his attitude came out more than his shyness. Nor did he care if he was pushing over the limit a bit too much, no he wanted Graham to know just how much Grey cared for him!

“you are disgusting! absolutely!” he yelled back in reply. as grey insisted on how kurt did not love graham it did not make the male feel any better. “SHUT UP! SHUT UP! HE LOVES ME I KNOW HE DOES SHUT UP!” he screamed, trying to tug his hands away from this person’s grasp. just as he was about to free himself, grey moved in closer to give him a hug. graham was frozen for a moment before heavily shoving the other away, reaching for his face and dragging him down. “i will never betray kurt. i will never love you. i’ll get rid of you if i have to!” he huffed angrily, squeezing the smaller demon’s face as his hands then slid down to grasp his throat. “get the fuck away from me,” he growled through clenched teeth.

[miiras]

ikkusu.

- As much as Tea told him it’s alright, Kurt knew it wasn’t. He shouldn’t be like this, no one would want to be in a relationship with such a broken and frighten man. It was times like these that Kurt seemed to zone out and continue to think about leaving Tea just for this angel’s sake. Though he couldn’t he wanted to be with this male due to the comfort and love he feels around him.

Eyes finally glanced over to Tea as the male sat down beside him already saying words of comfort and trying to get his mind off of what happened earlier. It was sweet, but Kurt knows he messed up. “I’m not really hungry anymore…I just…” there he finally faced Tea and frowns “I’m so sorry Tea…I didn’t mean to loose my shit over a guy that looked similar to Graham.I just didn’t want him to ruin anything and yet…I ruined everything…I just want to cuddle and maybe…Kiss a bit? I just want to forget about this in all..”

“it’s alright kurt, really. you don’t have to keep apologizing.” though he knew how hard the other was on himself during these types of scenarios. “of course you didn’t mean to... you can’t help how you react kurt. you’ve been through alot. you’re doing much better than in the past, that’s something to look at, right?” any little improvement was a good improvement. if kurt kept dwelling on how awful this was, he felt nothing may ever change. tea smiled a bit at the request. “i think we can manage that,” he laughed softly, rubbing the other’s shoulder gently. “i’ll do the best i can to keep you safe.” which at the moment did not feel like much, but tea tried not to dwell on the thought. instead, he just leaned forward, pressing his lips against kurts softly. it was a small kiss at first, tea reaching for the other’s hand and lacing their fingers together gently as he kissed him again. 

[miiras]

ikkusu.

- He would yell even more but Tea is trying his best to get him out of the restaurant. It seems someone wanted to help but luckily Tea understand that an ambulance wouldn’t be such a good idea. As he’s slightly pushed away, Kurt made eye contact with the person who looks closely to Graham and now he realizes it wasn’t Graham at all. He panicked so quickly his mind couldn’t tell the differences. Now he feels awful…He feels pathetic.

As they finally moved out of the restaurant Kurt looked down at his hands feeling as if he ruined their date night. “I-I’m sorry…” He muttered hands shaking as his breaths were quick and shaky. “I-I didn’t mean to freak out like that I just…” His voice turning into a whimper while he covers his face. “I thought I saw Graham and he was going to get mad for me being there without him…”

Why did he have to ruin this for them, it was rare for them to go outside on dates and Kurt lost himself tonight. “I’m so paranoid I’m a fucking mess…” It’s time to go back to Tea’s home and relax for the rest of the night, but Kurt feels too upset with his actions to do such a thing. Once they do make it back Kurt sits on the couch and starts zoning out again, his mind clouded with self-doubt. Maybe being Tea’s boyfriend is a bad idea…

“it’s okay kurt, you don’t have to be sorry,” he promised with a small smile. “i understand, it’s alright. you don’t have to try to explain it,” he added. he knew what kurt was going through so it would be alright. he wanted kurt to feel like everything would be alright. “you’re not a mess kurt.” it upset tea to see the other so upset with himself. there was no reason kurt should be blaming himself for any of this.  for now it was time to get home. tea remained silent for the most part, grabbing kurt’s attention when needed, seeing as the male kept zoning out. even now once they finally made it into the safety of his home, the male was still dazed.  a sad look overcame tea’s face as he moved to sit down beside the other. a gentle touch was placed on his shoulder and he tried to offer what comfort he could. “are you going to be okay? o you want to try and eat something? maybe we can just sit and relax for a little.” tea hated to see him like this. there wasn’t much he could do to help him other than offering some pleasant company. tea was also an angel, so the comforting aura that followed him usually helped calm kurt down. “everything will be okay...”

[miiras]

ikkusu.

- “Then why is he with that Angel all the time..” It seems Grey knows more than he leads on as he steps even closer, eyes never leaving Graham’s sight. “I love you more than that guy will ever love you. I know what you want and what you need…It’s obvious that I’m your soulmate right?” there he reached out only to grab one of Graham’s hands and try to pull him closer. “Please…Please accept me.”

the mention of that angel flared such an intense rage within graham he could barely contain himself. “shut up.” a pause. “shut up you don’t know what you’re talking about.” there was no change. no way this guy was his soulmate. he’d never accept such a thing. “just who the hell do you think you are thinking you can get between me and kurt?” he quickly pulled his hand back, glaring at grey. “disgusting.”

[miiras]

ikkusu.

- It was painful to see Graham here, he could feel his stomach forming knots as he tenses up knowing he would be punished for spending time with Tea instead of Graham. He continued to grind his teeth together and whine “This is my fault! I’m sorry! I’m sorry! Just go home please!” Having Tea move closer made him remove his hand and stare at Tea for a bit.

Brows were knitted together, as he grind his teeth together. “T-Tea…Tea you have to leave…G-Graham will hurt you…” The questions flooding in and Kurt could only nod to each one of them. He needed to breathe but it was so difficult to do such when he’s terrified. “Fuck…Fuck…” he whined out finally taking a breath and exhaling as shaky and slow as he could. His throat was on fire while tears escaped his eyes “T-Tea…I-I can’t do this…I-I’m sorry…I’m so scared…I’m gonna die…Graham will kill me…” tears continued to flow down while he sat there not knowing what to do but so many people were staring at him it made him feel worse.

“WHAT ARE ALL OF YOU LOOKING AT!? STOP STARING AT ME!!!! STOP IT!!! STOP IT NOW!” he continued to scream and thus it was a sign to leave the restaurant.

“you’re safe kurt. graham isn’t here, i promise,” he spoke softly. he would continue to reassure him as long as kurt needed it. he kept his questions simple. kurt either replied yes or no that was all he needed him to focus on right now. “it’s okay. just watch me, okay?” he placed his hands on kurt’s shoulders. “it’s okay. no one is going to hurt you. it’s just us kurt, i promise.” most people inside the restaurant were staring now. one woman had asked if tea needed any help or should she call for an ambulance, but tea assured her that he had this. calling anyone to come here would only make this situation worse.  “kurt...” it looked like he noticed the others staring and that was enough for kurt to explode.  tea apologized quickly before guiding kurt to stand up. “okay kurt. i’m going to help you outside okay? we’re going to go home.” there was only a slight force applied when leading kurt out of the restaurant. he didn’t want him to feel too pressured and freak out more. “no one is here to hurt you kurt, you’re okay,” he reminded softly the entire way back. tea worried about kurt’s emotional stability. this was not the first time something like this happened. it wouldn’t be the last as long as kurt was going to continue seeing that demon. tea frowned to himself at the thought. 

[miiras]

ikkusu.

- It makes sense why Graham was rather cold to him, he’s still in love with that human who doesn’t care about him, but Grey didn’t really like it. “I’m Grey…” He finally says “I’m your one and only true love. I brought you back so we can finally be together. I knew from the first day that I saw you, we were meant to be together…That other guy doesn’t love you as much as I do…He would have never brought you back to life and yet I did and I made you even more powerful than before. You’re a demon now a perfect one and I can’t wait for us to spend our whole lives together.” What a giant confession from such a shy male.

one and only true love? just what stupidity is this person throwing his way? graham looked disgusted with the declaration. he brought him back? is that what happened? and that other guy, kurt? how does he know about kurt? “don’t you dare talk about kurt like that. i know he loves me. we’ll be together forever. we’re meant to be!” he spat out angrily.  

[yandereye]

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[miiras]

ikkusu.

- Kurt didn’t mean to be like this infarct if this date was before Graham then his attention would never leave Tea’s side, even now he feels a bit overwhelmed with several thoughts of Graham and Tea upon him. He had to focus, he had to make sure going outside wasn’t a mistake. Words started to come in and Kurt glanced down at the meal chosen by Tea “Yeah…That sounds really g…” He could have sworn he saw something..And there his eyes wonder looking at several different people until…He saw him. It was Graham?

“He’s here….” he muttered, a few whines and whimpers come from him as he covers his face.

“I didn’t do anything…I didn’t do anything why is he here what did I do? I’m sorry, I’m sorry…” he seemed to chant the latter as he slowly started to spiral though the person he saw looked rather similar to Graham but it wasn’t him. “What did I do!? WHY CAN’T YOU LEAVE ME ALONE!? I JUST WANTED TO HAVE A GREAT NIGHT!!!” He was screaming now which made other people around look a bit uncomfortable.

they should have stayed home. tea had looked up, a bit confused with kurt’s muttering. it was difficult to hear him. “who is here?” though with those scared sounds coming from kurt he realized what was happening and quickly looked around. graham was not here, but someone who looked very similar sat not too far away. tea looked back to kurt, as he quickly started to spiral.  “kurt. you’re okay here. you’re safe. he isn’t here to hurt you,” he quickly reminded. tea ignored the other guests at the restaurant and wished they would stop staring. tea had gotten up from his seat and moved closer to kurt. “kurt is it okay to touch you?” tea was trying his best to help grab kurt’s attention. help him through the fear that was suddenly overcoming him.  “it’s okay. you’re safe,” he continued to remind him. “breathe with me kurt. you can hear me, right? do you want me to help you?” tea hated to see him like this. it made him sick to his stomach to think that one being was able to turn another into such a scared mess. 

[miiras]

ikkusu.

- It was a bit disheartening to hear such a thing, then again of course Graham wouldn’t know who he is. He’s been hiding in the shadows for such a long time that even now showing himself is a mystery. “Well I…I’m someone that’s important to you…” there he messed with his fingers, eyes averting any piece of Graham and yet he felt as if he could scream and explode right now. “I’m the reason you’re alive again…You should show me some sort of gratitude…” there he goes mumbling once again “You should want my phone number and pictures of me…I’m the reason you’re so powerful and handsome and not dead.” This incubus was a bit odd.

“i have no idea who you are.” there was no need to be gentle with this. whatever this person thought they were to him, it was far from the truth. there was a pause. that comment caught his attention though. “what are you talking about? how are you the reason for this?” graham demanded with a frustrated look. what a waste of his time! “who are you?” he seemed to avoid answering that sort of question didn’t he? graham was getting very annoyed. “just get this over with. who the hell are you?” 

[ikkusu]

- It was clear now just how powerful of a demon this male happens to be, honestly Grey didn’t expect for such amazing results. It must be his will to stay alive for that one human which gave him large amounts of strength but maybe one day those affections will be turned to him. Eyes become wide and glisten as Graham finally acknowledge his presence as this was the very first time they actually met. The question at hand only made Grey act shy and coy. A slight smile and hands coming together as he holds them close to his chest Grey parts his lips “Hello…” He starts off only walking closer, “I’m so…” he has to calm himself down and act less affectionate “It’s great to see that you’re around here again…” 

@miiras​ || Cont. || Finally we meet!

[miiras]

the lack of interest did not change. graham had no desire to talk to this person. he just wanted to figure out why he was suddenly following him around so much. this was wasting his precious time! “should i know who you are?” memories were still hazy before the point of returning. he still barely remembered exactly how he died and came back. he started hard at this stranger but the face did not feel like someone he should recognize. “what do you want?” he repeated, hoping to cut to the chase and be on his way. maybe he should just walk away, but something had graham staying put for now. 

[miiras]

ikkusu.

- It was a good thing that Tea didn’t hear what he said, in fact Kurt was a bit afraid to show too much affection. Even if Tea was teasing and probably heard him he felt better that tiny piece of affection went unheard.

Still eyeing pretty much nothing Kurt didn’t want to mistake anyone for Graham no, he had to make sure that demon didn’t mess up anything tonight. Eyes kept focus on anyone who could be him, but once Tea asked if everything was alright he slowly came back to his senses and looked at the other male. “Yes…” he mutters to both questions before looking at the short laminated menu.

He still felt a bit nervous, the continuous bouncing of his leg showed that, he was paranoid with the thought of Graham popping up now. “I think I’m going to get uh…Some steak and grilled vegetables…What about you?”

it seemed he had grabbed kurt’s attention, but not fully. there was something bothering him. he wondered if he should have encouraged him a bit more to just go back to his place. no, he should be more positive and hope for the best. kurt was strong. he could get past this. though the male’s body language said otherwise. he was anxious and he did not want to point that out to kurt out of fear he might spiral.  “oh that sounds really good,” he mused as he looked over the menu as well. “what if we try this?” it was a large meal that provided guests with an array of meat to pick and choose from along with a few vegetable options. “we can share that, right?” tea spoke up, asking more questions in hopes of getting kurt’s attention to focus on their dinner at this point. he offered a gentle smile. 

[miiras]

It's only been one week and yet Grey found himself walking around and following the scent of a new demon. It seemed to bring a bit of a smile upon his face as he hid only to eye Graham. A new demon he happened to be but he was still ever so handsome. Grey hid rather awfully but didn't care if the male saw him.

the stalking behavior of this demon went unnoticed at first. graham was just too excited to find kurt again and be with the other, but then it was obvious. graham was still new to this entire demon thing, but a single presence kept popping up in his daily activities and it was getting rather annoying. one look around and it was obvious who the culprit was. while graham acted normal for a moment he suddenly jabbed at the strange demon. “what are you doing following me?” he looked almost bored, sneering at this other creature. he was wasting his time when he could be spending it with kurt. 

[miiras]

ikkusu.

- The way Kurt stared at this male, it was a mixture of heartthrob but also a bit of fear. He knew he couldn’t really be with Tea but…This was his little fantasy that he wanted to keep for a bit longer. Graham wouldn’t like this…Graham would hate this and maybe one day Graham will do something unexpected. Eyes focused upon the face in front of him but his mind slowly drifted off to thinking of the things Graham would do to him or even Tea.  

Though once Tea actually looked at him he then snapped out of his daze and blinked.

“H-huh? No! You’re just…Uh…” there he cleared his throat and glanced away “You’re really handsome.” He muttered before pulling Tea along to walk faster.

It didn’t take them long before they were inside of this new steak house. Kurt made sure they had a nice seat but it was rather busy within this restaurant. Obviously, instead of having a table to themselves they had to share it with a few other couples which was fine. Though glancing around he thought he saw something which made him fixed to stare to the right and pay Tea no attention.

kurt seemed pretty distracted at the moment and tea was beginning to think it was not all because of him. as much as he wanted to use these date nights as a distraction, sometimes it seemed impossible. still, he smiled. “i’m sorry? you spoke so low it was difficult to hear you.” more teasing of course. so much for getting a spot to sit at. the restaurant was already starting to fill up, no doubt because it was something new for people to try. at least they still managed a seat. even if it was with other people.

“is everything alright kurt?” he noticed how suddenly the male was paying him no mind at all and was staring off at someone else at the table? tea glanced around a moment but found nothing out of the ordinary? “do you know what you want to order?” he tried to bring his attention back this way.