♱✮ Aio.✮♱

ੈ✩‧₊˚A silent, icy gaze falls upon us Like a fragile reed trembling in fear ੈ✩‧₊˚˚

[shushututu]

People seriously underestimate the long term effects of constant loneliness

"why are you so weird?" Idk, maybe because being completely isolated while growing up has destroyed my brain and now I'm nothing more than a human-mimicking creature that bases all of my actions on what I think is normal human behavior rather than just doing things naturally

[miizxq]

haven’t been active recently

but life sucks I feel like everything is falling apart I’m stupid and pathetic and I just want to die already. But what else is new :/

[miizxq]

God I’m so pathetic. I’m a parasocial weirdo. God I want to be its friend so badly but I just can’t talk to them and I bet it barely knows who I am

[miizxq]

It wouldn’t care if I killed myself and yet I can’t help but feel attached. What a fucking creep

[miizxq]

God I’m so pathetic. I’m a parasocial weirdo. God I want to be its friend so badly but I just can’t talk to them and I bet it barely knows who I am

[miizxq]

I want to die I hate this I hate school I can’t fucking do this anymore

[miizxq]

and still the closest thing I can be to honest about how I feel is “haha I was crying” like a joke. God I’m so pathetic

[miizxq]

god I feel awful I just saw that he reblogged a pst and talked about how we talk about all our issues openly when in reality that’s just him he tells me everything and I just. I’m just there it feels like lying he doesn’t even know the half of how bad i get sometimes

and he’ll probably get it he struggles a lot too but it just hits me how I’m not the me he knows and when that ideal me is gone I’m not with loving

[miizxq]

how is there not a single fucking tissue in my room

[miizxq]

I know it’s probably my own paranoia but I can’t help but think he doesn’t really love me, but just wants to feel loved as a distraction from his own life. Because I don’t get why.

Even if he did if he knew me irl he’d probably just figure out whatever reason everyone else hates me firsthand

[miizxq]

Gos u wanna fucking hurt myself but my kitty is in my room and I can’t do that or hwr

[miizxq]

”you’re gonna be depressed and suicidal” yeah so that’s not a future tense btw. I kinda alr am

[miizxq]

why can’t my family understand I like doing things. I just like doing them on my own because that’s the only fucking time I’m ever fully at ease

[strawberryfairyflower]

This jirai is not in touch with their emotions 😭

[miizxq]

no one likes me. It’s pretty apparent I’m afraid. Even the people I’m friends with, they either don’t have another choice or act like I’m not there 99% of the time.

I’m starting to think my bf doesn’t even like me. He just likes the concept of me. I know it’s dumb but seriously. Why does this happen to me all the time. Why is it always me who no one likes.

[miizxq]

crazy how just like in real life I’m practically ignored on here. I have lots of mutuals and all of them get consistent asks, some even have gotten hate asks, they have lots of online friends. while I practically don’t exist. I’m used to it at this point but it’s honestly tiring. I just don’t get why. Not a single person ever just acknowledges my existence.

[000valkyrie]

1x1x1x1 yayaya

I'm hoping to submit this for the forsaken art contest if it opens again‼️

[miizxq]

I don’t know shit about forsaken but I feel like i should let it be known I read the text as “IM COMING OUT”

[miizxq]

love scrolling back on this blog like god damn was I mentally ill (I say as if I’m not going fall right back into it the moment I have a slight inconvenience)