This day last year, I started my 100 happy day challenge. I decided to do it because I desperately needed something to float me up from the sadness I was drowning in. I needed to find another source of happiness in my life, and that maybe, after the challenge is over, the pain I was feeling wouldnât hurt as much. That was all I ever expected. But God gave me so, so much more. He gave me you.
You came at such an unexpected time. That time when I thought I was irreparably broken. When I believed that I would never be happy again. When I tried hard every night to fall asleep without crying but still woke up with wet pillows in the morning. When I always suddenly get that feeling of dread, followed by confusion because the worst thing that could happen already did. That time when I accepted that I will never experience that kind of feeling again. But by some kind of cosmic intervention, there you were.
Itâs amazing how Godâs timing works. Iâve often wondered how someone like you had been hidden from me for so long. But God knows I needed more time to make my mistakes and grow from them before I could be ready for you. He knows I needed to get my heart broken to start loving myself completely before someone else could. Someone as good as you werenât supposed to be experienced right away.Â
You came into my life ever so silently that I didnât even realize you were becoming the favorite part of my day. Suddenly I was smiling again for no reason. Something I thought I would never do again. I was terrified of this. Of you. I was scared of opening myself up to someone that could destroy my already broken self. But you were cautious, careful. You bravely decided that you would stay. You patiently waited until you knew I wasnât as vulnerable as before. And you handled me with so much care, that at times, you felt too good to be true. You got me so high, and you flew through the clouds with me.
So now I want to thank you. For fixing what I thought was permanently broken. You may never know how much you truly saved me. But I hope that every day I offer you my mended heart, as dented and bruised as it may be; you know that itâs yours. Itâs the most valuable gift I could ever give you. I was searching for happiness and I found you. Thank you for making me beyond happy.
Hereâs to 6 blissful months and beyond.
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