Hey can you make a smut about you and Emily engstler being roommates in college and being super close and one night you guys are bored and she convinces you to experiment with her iykyk
Summary: Experimenting isn’t always bad. Right?
Warning: SMUT, slightttttt angst, if you blink you’ll miss it, I think that’s it.
Pairing: Emily Engstler x You
A/N: I hope you like this. It was kind of rushed lol.
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The conversation I am having with Emily is something we have talked about so many times. I have always had a feeling in the back of my mind that I prefer women to men. I secretly labeled myself as bi because I am just not sure. I don’t have experience with either.
It is something I have been battling for a while and I just don’t know where to start. She has brought up the idea of me experimenting with her to see if it is something I would like. Ya know, like a friend helping a friend. Yeah righttttt.
I already know how I am and I catch feelings fast. Sometimes.
She is my best friend and I may or may not already have feelings for her.
“It’s up to you. I’d be down to be a helping hand if that’s what you want. I mean you know me very well and it’s a safe space with me.” She tells me, looking over at me.
We are currently sitting on the couch in her apartment. Her arm is across the back of the couch and I am sitting next to her.
“I just- won’t it change things between us?” I ask her, worried. Even though I am in love with her, she is my best friend and I would hate to lose her. She means too much to me.
“No. Only if you make it weird or if you want it to change things between us.” She says, matter of factly.
“I mean. I don’t know what I’m doing. What if I’m bad at it or what if I do something wrong?” I ask her, causing her to pull me into her and rub my arm, up and down.
“Baby. It’s normal to not know what you’re doing okay? I will take care of you. This is about you. Okay? But you need to use your words and tell me what you want.” She tells me, grabbing my face to make me look at her.
I look into her eyes and see sincerity and trust.
“I-I want this. With you. I trust you Em.” I tell her, looking into her eyes.
She nods her head and stands up and holds her hand out for me to grab.
I take her hand and follow her to her bed room.
We walk over to the bed and she sits down, me standing between her legs. I look down at her and she puts her hands behind my thighs.
“C’mere baby.” She says, pulling me onto her lap so I am now straddling her.
I put my hands on her shoulders and she wraps one arm around my waist. She grabs my face with her free hand and rubs her thumb over my cheek.
My breath hitches at the close proximity and the position that we are currently in.
“You’re so beautiful. You know that?” She asks me. I blush and shake my head. I never thought I was beautiful, really. Average at best but I mean hey we all have insecurities.
“You are the most beautiful person in every room. I’m gonna try something okay? Tell me if you want me to stop.” She says, leaning in closer to me.
I meet her half way and our lips connect. It’s soft and sweet. Gentle. She pulls me closer, if that’s even possible. I grab her face with my hands and melt into it.
We make out for a little bit and she starts kissing my jawline, making her way to my neck.
I lean my neck to the side and give her more access. I close my eyes as she kisses across my neck, the sensation being new.
She runs her hands under my shirt and up and down my sides.
“Can I take this off?” She asks me, gesturing to my shirt. I nod and she pulls it over my head.
She places kisses on the tops of my breasts where my bra doesn’t cover and pulls me back into a kiss.
I can’t help but think of how this feels so natural. Like I was made to be kissing her. It didn’t feel weird or anything like I thought it would.
I reach for the bottom of her shirt and lift it over her head. I repeat her actions and kiss her jawline down to her neck. She stands up, picking me up in the process and turns around lays me down on the bed.
She kisses down my chest and my stomach. She gets to my shorts and looks at me.
“Can I take these off?” She asks me. I nod and she pulls my shorts down my legs, leaving me in my panties.
She kisses my thighs and opens my legs. She peppers kisses up my inner thighs and my breath hitches again.
I watch as she kisses back up my body and places more kisses on my lips again.
The feeling of her lips all over me was something I dreamt about but never said out loud of course. I am sure she can feel my heart racing too. I need her to touch me though. Like it’s not a want. It’s a need.
“Em.” I say, pulling apart from her.
“Are you okay baby? Do you wanna stop?” She asks me, immediately halting her actions.
“No. I just- please touch me.” I tell her, growing shy. She smirks and kisses my lips once more. She reaches for the clasp of my bra and looks at me and I nod frantically.
She takes my bra off and stares at my chest. I get shy under her stare and try covering my chest.
“Don’t baby. You’re beautiful.” She tells me, taking one of my breasts in her mouth. I gasp and my head falls back on the pillow. She does the same to my other breast and kisses my lips again.
“I’m gonna try something else, okay?” She tells me.
I nod my head and watch as she lowers herself to where I need her the most.
I watch as she presses a kiss to my clothed clit. I gasp slightly.
She presses her thumb against me and starts rubbing it in circles.
“You’re so wet for me and I’ve barely touched you baby girl.” She says, pressing kisses against my inner thighs.
She grabs my panties and pulls them down my legs. She opens my legs and stares at my pussy. She lowers herself so she’s laying on her stomach.
She presses a kiss to my clit and uses her thumbs to spread me open.
She runs her tongue up my slit from my hole to my clit.
“Ohhhh fuckkkkk.” I say, breathless. I don’t know what I was expecting but oh lord. Her tongue piercing adding to the pleasure.
She sucks my clit, licking occasionally, causing me to reach down and grab her hair.
It’s over for me once she sticks her tongue inside me. My legs are trembling and my body starts convulsing as I come closer to the edge.
“That’s it, baby. C’mon. You got it.” She says against my pussy. That was all it took too.
I came so hard, I am pretty sure I almost met jesus himself.
She eats me through my orgasm, helping me come down from that high.
My chests rises and falls rapidly as I am trying to catch my breath.
“You did so good for me. I am so proud of you.” She says, kissing me sweetly. She lays next to me and holds me for a second.
“Wait, I wanna- Can I try?” I ask her, shyly.
“You don’t have to baby. This is about you.” She says, kissing my forehead.
“But I want to. Wanna make you feel good too. Please” I tell her.
“I mean, since you asked so kindly.” She says in a teasing tone. I crawl on top of her and kiss her.
I pull at her bra and repeat her actions, taking her breasts into my mouth one at a time, giving each the same amount of attention.
She moans softly, causing me to smile. I’m doing something right.
I kiss down her stomach making note of her abs.
“Can I take these off?” I ask her, grabbing at her boxers.
“Mmmhmm. Please do.” She whines a bit, causing me to smirk.
I pull them down her legs and take a moment to appreciate the girl laying in front of me.
I settle in between her legs and run my fingers through her folds. She’s extra wet. I smile and press a kiss on her clit.
She bucks her hips a bit and I hear her suck in a breath.
I lick a strip from her hole to her clit, flattening my tongue. She lets out a loud moan.
I begin to devour her like I haven’t eaten a day in my life.
Tasting her makes me absolutely feral. Hearing her moaning just for me, makes me absolutely feral.
She sounds so pretty. It’s something about the raspiness of her voice combined with her little whines that make me once again, feral.
I stick my tongue inside of her, moving it in and out. My nose rubbing her clit at the same time.
She grabs my air and pushes me down. I feel her clenching around my tongue. Her hips buck up causing more pressure to be added giving her more pleasure.
“Ahhh fuck. Don’t stop. Please.” She whines. I devour her through her high. Her legs tremble around my head and she falls limps, trying to catch her breath.
“Fuckkkk. That was- so sooooo good.” She tells me, breathlessly.
I smile shyly and crawl up her body. She opens her arms and holds me close to her.
“Was that okay?” I ask her, feeling insecure. I mean here I am laying on her. She’s praising me and I am still feeling insecure.
“That was more than okay baby. The question is are you okay?” She says, looking over at me. I nod my head, contemplating on what I wanna say next.
“Yeah. That literally answered every single question I ever had. I just don’t want it to break us apart.” I tell her, honestly.
“I promise. It’s not gonna change anything between us. If it does, it’ll be a positive change.” She says, vulnerability flashing in her eyes.
“What do you mean?” I ask her. I know what I want her to say but I doubt it’ll go my way.
“I- I mean, if you wanna keep doing this we can. But like I’d like to take you on dates too. If you know what I mean.” She says, looking away from me.
“Like, we’d be together?” I ask her. My heart starts racing.
“Yeah. I mean like we could be exclusive to each other.” She says, softly.
“Like we’d be dating?” I finally ask, causing her to look over at me.
“Yeahhh. I mean if you want that. I already love you so much. If you don’t feel that same, that’s okay, I just-“ She starts. I cut her off with a kiss.
“I’d love that. Honestly, it’s all I ever wanted.” I tell her, looking into her eyes. She smiles at me and pulls me into another kiss.
“All mine.” She says, kissing my forehead.
“All yours baby.” I tell her, melting into her embrace.
I guess experimenting with your best friend who you’ve been in love with since you can remember, can have its perks.
