Overthinking Michael
I just had the most depressing thought. Just imagine this:
If Be More Chill was from Michael’s perspective but started a bit earlier. Micheal used to sing Jeremy’s name the same way Jeremy sang Christine’s. Michael, being Jeremy’s best friend since pre-k, has had a crush on him ever since the 7th grade. Michael never did express his feels until Jeremy expressed his too. After getting a heartfelt rejection, Michael agreed to stay best friends and pretend like as if his crush for his pal never existed. And what did Jeremy do in return? Eventually ditch his long time best friend just to be popular.Â
Imagine Michael being crushed in the bathroom, curled up with tears escaping his eyes every minute. The fact that he was not only denied being with Jeremy romantically but he was denied any other friendship. All because Jeremy couldn’t see how selfish he grew because of the sqiup. Even Christine seemed to realize this when Jeremy asked her to take a sqiup.Â
So just imagine someplace before The Play but after The Pants Song, Michael goes to see the play, and he passes by Christine in hall as she was going to get ready into costume. Imagine them talking because Michael wanted to wish Jeremy good luck through Christine since Jeremy wanted nothing to do with him. Imagine Michael trying so hard to hate Christine for being Jeremy’s crush but he can’t.Â
How heart breaking that he couldn’t feel jealous or envy, just Michael’s selflessness showing as he chooses to support Christine and Jeremy after The Play. And in Voices in my Head, Michael feeling the happiness he felt before Jeremy rejected him. Because Michael didn’t just love Jeremy to kiss him but rather to love him by continuing to strive to make him the happiest. That is what really pains me.