I think this could turn into a good story but for now it’s just what it is. 🤗
“Stop ! “ she shouted. “Stop saying you love me! Stop apologizing! Because it means nothing..”
Her words were cutting into me. Tearing my walls down and leaving scars over my heart. The hurt on her face hurt me. The pain in her voice burned. Her blue eyes turned cold.
Visions of us flashed through my mind. She was there for me through so much.
“ I’m sorry Marie I never meant for this to happen. I do love you.”
“Stop saying that. It’s breaking me Edd. You never loved me or you wouldn’t have done this. Don’t you get that?! Your in love with him and you can’t have it both ways. I deserve more then that. “ She was clutching her shirt against her chest , tears falling down her face as she went to wipe them, I took a step closer.
I wanted to hold her and tell her she was wrong but I couldn’t. I could only stand there and take in all the pain I caused her and myself. Her beautiful face once clean and bright with happiness now looked dull and sunken in from the crying and her make up was smudged. She was still breath taking though. I don’t know how I got to this place but here it is.
Truth be told I loved them both equally. And thats the problem.
I didn’t deserve either one of them.
My selfish acts caused so much damage, where do I even go from here?
“You have to let me go Edd because this is killing me. I don’t know how I’m going to get through this but you are only making it worse. Just leave.“
As I laid there next to him watching him breathe in and out. His chest rising with every breath. The fight with her kept replaying it self in my mind. What should I have done or said differently.. what did I expect what was going to happen? Her face flashed through my head. Her beautiful blue eyes and blue locks that framed her perfect face. Her pure beauty. Her perfect pink lips . What did I do.?
Then he stirred. Moving from the pillow to my chest and wrapping his arm across my stomach. I smiled looking at him clinging to me in his sleep. My heart ached. He was perfect. This man with all his strength had his guard down with me and there was no doubt he loved me.
I rubbed my hand through his soft ginger hair. I loved him. And I was happy if only her face would stay out my head.
I don’t want to forget but I want to move on. I chose this. I couldn’t go on having both of them. She deserved the truth so I told it.
We are worth it. He’s worth it. Worth all the pain I feel and I would do anything for him. I did this to myself thinking having both would fill the void my heart has. All I need is him and everything will be ok.
If he will stay after tomorrow. Because he deserves the truth too and who knows how he will react.
I try to close my eyes tight fighting back the tears that are ready to come. My throat restricting in the fight to hold the crying in. The pain shooting through me. I squeeze him a little to help steady myself.
He whimpers in his sleep at my grip and I relax. I don’t want to wake him. He deserves a good sleep before tomorrow.
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