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Eyy there. I'm Ren and I'm a dork. This blog will be my art dump for all the ideas I decide to put on paper. Top three manga/anime I live for btw is Shingeki no Kyojin, FullMetal Alchemist and Naruto. Too many fandoms, but it'll show in my posts.

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Boyfriend Shirt

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I’m back! The main reason I disappeared again? Because, graduation. Yus I’m finally free from hell university!!!

In celebration of my graduation, I imagine KevEdd graduating with me. What? Can’t a fan girl dream? Lol.

I made Kevin wear a toga with a yellow collar/hood (?), (like me yayyy) because I can totally imagine him getting a degree in the Business Department. And then green for Edd, because his degree is in the Medical field.

And if you ca tell fu fu fu, digital again because my brother gave me his old one.TvT <3

CONGRATULATIONS TO BATCH 2017 GRADUATES. We made it through hell.

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I miss drawing this bby so much and I had little time so. 

Practicing again because as I always say my anatomy sucks like why ugh. And I’m stabilizing my art style again (if that makes any sense agh). 

Whenever I try to draw Edd, I always end up making him wear this kind of striped shirt. I cannot with this baby boi so adorable.

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I found this old sketch in the MIDDLE of my finance notes omfg lol. That was like, two semesters ago. YES I AM NOT OVER KEVEDD. And I never will be I’m taking this two lovebird’s love to my grave.

I also intend to draw (or write, if I inspiration hits me) more about them in the future, because I live for them. <3 <3 <3  Although I will also post a lot others because I actually love a lot of fandoms, it just doesn’t show `cause I’m hella inactive ugh.  KEVEDD is forever. 

Long.

Live.

Kevedd.

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I’ve been really excited because after all the exhausting school works and requirements I have to get through, I finally got most done and now I have the free time I’ve been craving for. I thought that when I finally get a hold of my most-awaited (sort-of) a little vacation, I’ll be able to draw all I want. Turns out, I don’t. 

And the problem is purely about me. 

I’ve been spending time with my sketchpad and pencil recently, but most of it is just me staring on a blank sheet of paper, with my pencil loosely gripped on my hand. The ideas are all there, I want to draw. But for some reason, it just doesn’t turn out the way I want. 

I feel really upset about it.

All I’ve been making are unfinished sketches, all of which I get unmotivated to finish halfway through the drawing. 

It really upsets the hell out of me. Something is wrong, but I don’t know exactly what. It’s as if I’m lost and I don’t know where to start. And then it got to the point where I am asking myself, “how did I draw in the past?”

I remember I just moved my hands freely without thinking much about anything. i just draw because I enjoyed it. It was so fun. And I could express my ideas best through it. In those times, I didn’t care how much I suck, I didn’t care how deformed my drawings were, how flawed my anatomy was, I didn’t care. Because I was having fun. 

But now.. I don’t know. I felt pressured to do well, because I don’t know. I just want to. I saw how great other artists I admire and at some point I started thinking why aren’t I great like that? Why are my drawings so lame? Why does my art seem like it isn’t enough? 

I got tired. Tired of feeling upset over this. And then I was just like “Ah fuck it all” and I tried to remember how I usually draw in the past. 

I tried again. My goal was to finish a drawing. Even just one sketch. I won’t stop on just drawing the eyes, or the face and then leave it unfinished. I’ll finish even just one sketch. 

And I did it. I’m so glad I was able to do it. I felt a little, at least, better when I finished drawing this. It’s just a simple sketch of a girl in sailor uniform (because who doesn’t love seifuku) but I think it got me back to standing up again. 

Now I understand why even GREAT and I mean, GREAT artists have some point when they say that their art sucks and that it feels like it’s not enough. In the past, I didn’t understand them and I was like “pff are u serious ur art rocks like damn dey r so fine”. Not saying I’m a great artist (I’m still the lame old me lol), yep same old me, but past my Artist Blues. I’m going to stop thinking too hard about it and just do what I usually did. I draw because I wanna and because it’s fun. 

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Kevedd bbies for our daily doze of cuteness.  ( ◕ ◡ ◕)~❤

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Sketches during free times in my internship. And also, I just really love this color of the new pen I bought.

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Hey you. I like your art and stories. Keep it up ^_^

Your message just makes me really happy, like, really happy. Thank you so much for the appreciation aaaaa and for taking the time to leave me such a sweet message you sweet pea. 💜

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Thinking Out Loud

“How the fuck do you even think out loud.”

Kevin laxly lied on the carpet of his room, his back on the floor and his legs up on the bed. He hummed to the tune of Ed Sheeran’s song while waiting for his boyfriend. Soon, Eddward came out of the bathroom, a towel wrapped in his body like how girls do it. Kevin followed Edd with his eyes. He stared at him while Edd moved about in the room, wiping himself up, getting some of Kevin’s clothes that fit him from the closet.

“White, soft skin.”

“Slender legs.”

Eddward looked at Kevin with a raised brow, while he paced to the bed to place the clothes he would be wearing after drying himself.

“Wet, jet black hair.”

“Shit. Wet hair turns me on.”

“Tight, bouncy ass.”

“Fuck I’m hard.”

“KEVIN!!!”

Eddward’s face was now red, and he was covering his body with his arms, as if it could actually cover him.

“Good lord! What are you doing!?”

Kevin got up from his awkward position and sat on the floor and stared at Edd from the other side of the bed.

“Thinking out loud. I mean, Ed Sheeran is such a weirdo. How the fuck do you even think out loud. So I tried it out and oof—“

Kevin ended up with a pillow on his face.

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I was thinking of making a KevEdd comic, and here are bits of it.  But then I realize how shitty my anatomy skills are ahaha-- And yea here I am again poppin out after a while, just like a mushroom. Lol.

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I just saw your Sparks Fly KevEdd post and I have to say I love the way you draw eyes. Its so beautiful!

Omg-- That just really made me happy thank you. ;A; This makes me to draw more of my KevEdd headcannons. ;v;

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Omfg. I’m so back. My brother bought a new pentab, and I just gotta try it as soon as possible. 

It’s so much different from our previous one (that I broke), so this messy warm up took me almost an hour. I am so not used to our new pentab ugh. And it shows how rusty I’ve become. 

But anyways, who cares, I can already continue my 30 Day Drawing Challenge Feat. KevEdd!

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Hi guys, I’m back omfg yes finally. It’s our summer vacation now, and that means I got a lot of time for my shits again. That includes drawing yis. I bought a new set of colored pencils and hhh I’m so happy about it. Another great thing is, my bro bought a new pentab, so I could do sone shitty art again. Woo!

Terribly missed this cuties ugh what will I do without our OTP. So yea just a quick sketch. I’m so excited to put into paper all the my KevEdd ideas that I’ve been dying to draw for a long time now.

Hhh blabbered again lmao. Hiiiii everyone!

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It might be too late for this, but better late than never lol.  Happy Holidays to everybody! Had the time to doodle in the middle of my vacation (which is mostly sleep and eat, sleep then sleep again and eat, and oh yes sleep) Well yea what if Edd got a haircut--

Anyway, I hope everybody’s having a nice vacation as well~ 

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Just little doodles I made at school earlier.  Tried a semi realistic approach. I dunno I have this headcannon that Kev has an adorable dimple.  I kinda made Edd’s face too long in there I’m gomen.

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Beautiful Goodbye

“Don’t worry, you never have to sing it for me.”

“Hey babe?”

“Yes, Kevin?”

The redhead removed an earbud from one ear and rolled to face Eddward, propping his head on a hand with his elbow on the pillow.

“If there’s one song I wouldn’t want to sing for you, it would be Beautiful Goodbye.”

“Hmm.”

Eddward tore his sight from the book he’s reading and looked at Kevin.

“Maroon 5?”

“Yeah. I like that shit, it’s good, but it’s sad. Goodbye. You know.”

Eddward put his book on the side table beside the bed and faced Kevin in the same position.

“Don’t worry, you never have to sing it for me.”

Kevin smiled curiously.

“Really?”

“Yes.”

Edd smiled back in a knowing manner.

“I’ll never wear mascara, you know.”

I don’t even know. This just randomly popped in my mind when I was listening to music. Sorry if it was too short and still placed under a ‘keep reading’ link. Ahaha.

Disclaimer: I own nothing but the plot.

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((Do you rp? I see you like kevedd))

Hey there. Yes omfg. Like is an understatement. ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)And yes I RP. I used to do it a lot back in the SnK fandom in twitter. Ehehe.