The Mind of Jen

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Saturday February 23rd, 2019

J.J asked me today if I blog anymore. I told him I didn't because all my post would include the fact that I want to kill myself.

Today I felt guilty. Guilty because as time goes by I feel less and less chance that T.N and I will work out. I want to keep trying, I could see all the potential goodness. But when I look at the relationship as a whole, I realized that over the past 4 years, I was continuously making changes to myself to fit his ideals, or if I couldn't, Id feel so guilty that I would lie about it. In the end, maybe I'm wasting his time. Maybe I should end it sooner.

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Oden Soup | Spicy Rice Cake | Chicken Half-Half (Golden Cheese & Onion) You know the chickens too good when I didn't see that my photos were blurry before digging in. I was not a fan of onion but the golden cheese was very crispy and perfect flavoured. Oden soup was also good! They had a great beer and flavoured soju selection as well. Great hangout spot ! #food #korean #toronto (at Mymy Chicken) https://www.instagram.com/p/BoYBWuDh8nJ/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=r3yjrnoqis37

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Pilot Fries | Calamari | Margarita You know patio season is over when you wake up to 11 degrees weather. Fortunately for me, I got my last dose last Friday. Still my favourite place for fries 😍 #food #foodie #patioseason (at The Pilot) https://www.instagram.com/p/BoIV1S-hpP9/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=92tg7ca9fv74

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Strawberry Shortcake | Drip Coffee The strawberry shortcake here is A M A Z I N G. Hands down. Mostly because they use fresh strawberries and real whip cream vs icing. Less sweet than most cakes but super yummy. Highly recommend to those who doesn't have a sweet tooth but enjoy cake! #dessertlady #desserts #toronto #DT #food (at Dessert Lady) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bn7ko3Sh_WM/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1cx7f8lohditj

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7 Course Tasting Menu at Renoir in Sofitel Montreal The odd times I do fine dining. The service was great, and I fairly enjoyed all the dishes. Some were so good, I didn't get to take a picture. #food #montreal #finedining #foodie (at Sofitel Montreal) https://www.instagram.com/p/BnuJAe3BcvT/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1oqiuso9hwu0x

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Popcorn Kitchen | Salmon Spaghetti | Teriyaki Chicken | Chicken Curry The ordering process was unique, the service was quite nice. I'd 100% recommend the spaghetti! #food #foodie #foodporn (at Charidise) https://www.instagram.com/p/BmulNnUhG09/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1j68mndteyvlp

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“The world is a mess and I want to laugh because all I can think is how horrible and beautiful it is.”

— Tahereh Mafi, Ignite Me

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Girls and Rosé 🍷🌹 (at Toronto, Ontario)

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Seafood Platter | Pizza This was a very interesting place! I loved the concept, price was very reasonable! The food was actually pretty tasty too. Highly recommend! #food #foodie #torontoeats (at Marché Mövenpick Canada)

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So it turns out that being an adult is mostly googling how to do stuff

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My families Vietnamese so you know what I do on the weekends 🍺🍺 jks I'm a cat #cat #caturday #catnap #sun (at Toronto, Ontario)

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Annual beach day done right 👌 (at Cobourg Beach)

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The long weekend was not long enough 🙀🙀 #catnap (at Toronto, Ontario)

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Lemon Grass Escargot | Grilled Quail | Vietnamese Mini Crepes | Summer Rolls Montreal, ON Honestly I wasn't sure if I was going to enjoy Le Red Tiger since I'm quite picky with my Vietnamese food, but to my surprise this was very trendy, I love all their decorations, the food was great with exception to the Pancake Crepe (still think we could do better) but it was great overall! I regret not trying one of their cocktails. #food #montreal #leredtiger #foodporn (at Le Red Tiger)

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Daddy brought home a new box for me and a new ball that has treats falling out of it!! #catlover #zelda (at Toronto, Ontario)

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Waterloo meets Vancouver in Toronto 👌 (at Marché Mövenpick Canada)

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Sunday June 10th, 2018

You know... it always amazes me how he can still laugh during moments like this. Today was a disappointing day, the type where you wished that person can be dependable, someone you can rely on when youre tired, but instead its sarcastic comments and that line of "well you didn't ask." Is that fair?

In the past, I never had to ask, it was just done. I never had to beg or made to feel bad about asking for favours or tormented if I didn't ask for those favours. And oh those childish prideful moments. I'm tired of those "you never asked." I need someone to help me, not just someone I can cuddle with at night and gives me money.

I just want dependable. Is that so hard?