Saturday February 23rd, 2019
J.J asked me today if I blog anymore. I told him I didn't because all my post would include the fact that I want to kill myself.
Today I felt guilty. Guilty because as time goes by I feel less and less chance that T.N and I will work out. I want to keep trying, I could see all the potential goodness. But when I look at the relationship as a whole, I realized that over the past 4 years, I was continuously making changes to myself to fit his ideals, or if I couldn't, Id feel so guilty that I would lie about it. In the end, maybe I'm wasting his time. Maybe I should end it sooner.
















