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Just trying to get through this world and stay alive

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The Horoscope App

Virgo’s are born protectors. If you pick on their family or friends be prepared for a hell.

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Reading Thoughts

I'm currently reading Catch of the Day by Kristanna Higgins. I have gotten to chapter 8 and I have to say that I am really enjoying it so far. I'm not really into ro,ancestors but it isn't like your average romance novel, that's what keeps me reading. I just find Father Tim and Maggie's relationship a bit too close at this point. But meh, we shall just see what happens next.

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I'm literally just some depressed trash that makes jokes so I don't see other people feel the same way that I do.

If they laugh then I know I've done something right, meanwhile I'm fucking crying on the inside.

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WHY?

So, like.

People see me as a hard ass and a bad bitch but in reality I have a very soft timid side. I'm extroverted but mostly introverted, it's confusing tbh.

Anyway, all I wanna do is work in a coffee shop and buy books. Wear knee high socks and skirts and be cute af. Except for one problem...

I was raised in a very rough area, my first night in this city there was a gun fight with 2 killed and 1 cop injured. I've met several gang members and have been in more fights than I can count. Many sins have come upon me and I no longer wish to be this person. Evil, manipulative, rude, sly and just all those negative aspects. To the max.

My other side is kind, SO DAMN CARING, sweet, generous, happy, friendly and just all the positive stuff. Well, way more shy, nervous and a bit paranoid. I love reading books, drinking coffee, chilling in nature, playing with cats and dogs, making arts and crafts, and just peaceful things.

So, I try to combine them... but I've noticed doing certain things brings out certain mindsets. Drinking makes me mean and (the male side). While smoking weed makes me kind and (the female side). I tell everyone I have no gender because of this weird split I have. So whatever you get that day is what you get.

I'm just confused as why, why? My self-growth and understanding is still underway, I mean I'm only 20. I just hope I end up fine with a job I love and still with my lover. Also in good health with a happy heart.

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