𝙄'𝙈 𝘼𝙇𝙇 𝙒𝙍𝙊𝙉𝙂.

YOU HAD SUCH A lovely crooked smile, GREEN EYES THAT WERE grey WHEN IT WAS RAINING. independent ELI GOLDSWORTHY from degrassi: the next generation. selective, 20+, triggering and mature themes. SCORNED BY MELANIE.

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#MINDSTRICK   /   an  independent,  20+,  selective  and  low  activity  portrayal  of  ELI GOLDSWORTHY  from  DEGRASSI: THE NEXT GENERATION.   both  show  &  headcanon  based.  also  a  study  in  emotions  that  consume,  mental  illness,  and  epic  romance.   scorned  by  MELANIE.

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starter  for   /   @bvmblebeed​

   there’s an ache, something just under the surface where all things fester. that was always the case for eli, wasn’t it? a boy too caught in the whirlwind of his emotions, clutching to the prospect that he was just one way, when really it was many things slamming pots and pans inside his mind.

he turns, surveying his surroundings. “bianca desousa,” eli muses aloud once he spots her on a whim, maneuvering to face her fully. “you’d tell me the truth, wouldn’t you?”

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a million years later and i’m here to say that eli calling clare a whore was ooc

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now that i’m here tho..............look at him.

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hey, everyone!!!!!! now that the holidays are over i’m gonna be around much more!! <3

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my bipolar ass who also has bpd ranting about how eli 100% also had bpd because his evident fear of abandonment and rejection (both real and imaginary) was all consuming for him even when he regulated his medication to help him remain stable. especially since bpd is extremely hard to diagnose in the wake of a bipolar diagnosis- 

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starter  for   /   @trustissucd​

   a blank word document paired with watered down iced coffee became eli’s reality the past few hours. he stars into the brightness of his laptop, opened all the way, just waiting for inspiration to strike. it does in bursts, pangs of remembrance fueling his storytelling. heartbreak, destiny, mental decline, epic romance, the likes of one clare edwards, all wrapped in a big black bow.

green eyes soon avert, landing on another patron of the dot. alli bhandari. she was sat alone and eli thinks to leave it, to revert back to his musings. his impulsivity says otherwise. “trouble in paradise?” he questions, brows furrowed, the corner of his mouth quirking upward.

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it’s almost 2am and my brain was like “how were eli and clare in the same english class if he’s older” and i was like WHAT and then my brain asked again and then i was like “idk....advanced english?” but then it was like ADAM WAS IN THE CLASS TOO......HE DOESN’T SEEM LIKE THE ADVANCED ENGLISH TYPE.......and now i’m spiraling

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starter  for   /   @fionacelestines​ 

  emotions, for eli, never came easy. his feelings were like small monsters that made a home inside him. and then, promptly, began to eat his insides until they consumed him completely. swallowed whole. 

“fiona!” he calls out from across the way, plucking his backpack from the ground before running over to her. perhaps she knew what he was about to ask. eli wouldn’t be surprised. and perhaps, in some ways, a part of him was embarrassed. yet his desperation rang louder, more true even in the wake of anything else. “have you seen clare?”

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he <3

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starter  for   /   @bhvndari​

  a comfortable silence is soon interrupted by an abrupt groan from eli. always one for dramatics, he tosses his notebook away from him.

“that’s it, i’m finished.” the teenager proclaims, sporting a frown like a kicked puppy, “i’m never gonna write anything good ever again.”

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𝘌𝘕𝘋𝘓𝘌𝘚𝘚 𝘌𝘋𝘐𝘛𝘚 𝘖𝘍 𝘌𝘓𝘐 𝘎𝘖𝘓𝘋𝘞𝘖𝘙𝘛𝘏𝘠   1/?

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STARTER CALL.  please  like  this  if  you’d  like  a  starter  from  eli.

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𝙸  𝚁𝙴𝚆𝚁𝙾𝚃𝙴  𝙰𝙽𝙳  𝚁𝙴𝚆𝚁𝙾𝚃𝙴,  𝙱𝚄𝚃  𝚃𝙷𝙸𝙽𝙶𝚂  𝙺𝙴𝙿𝚃  𝙲𝙷𝙰𝙽𝙶𝙸𝙽𝙶.

  #MINDSTRICK,  an  independent  and  selective  ELI  GOLDSWORTHY  from DEGRASSI: THE NEXT GENERATION.  scorned  by  MELANIE.