minihistorian

- philocalist, and curator of beautiful things - - constantly oscillating between hedonism and asceticism - - professional camilla macaulay apologist -

[minihistorian]

about me

hello! 🤎

i don’t do much on here, just post and repost the things i enjoy :) also this is pretty much a blog for the secret history, because that's all i can think about 90% of the time

philocalist: meaning "lover of beauty,"

pronouns: she/her

mbti and astrology - intj sp/sx melancholic/phlegmatic - - leo sun, cancer moon, capricorn rising -

about me: - i’m a college student majoring in history and minoring in classics - i am an adult, so minors, please dni - i’m a complete academia nerd, and the secret history is my favorite thing on earth! (i am a massive camilla fan)

other things i enjoy: - the marauders fandom - the dead poets society - the great gatsby (book, movie, and musical) - philosophy (especially existentialism and absurdism) - latin, which i am going on my 5th year of studying and still cannot speak or read fluently! :') pray for me - music! particularly hozier, frank sinatra, lana del rey, etta james, sufjan stevens, mitski, big thief, david bowie, and more!

i love to write, but rarely share my writing. perhaps i'll post some writing on here sometime!

my morbid longing: what i tag tsh stuff with

[cepheusgalaxy]

"Doomed yaoi" this "doomed yuri" that what about doomed found family. What about finding comfort in these new people after going through so much on your own—a community, a solace, a home to come back to. Caring for them with all you've got, only to realize that it wasn't going to work, ever, no matter what you tried. Only to have it ripped apart, no matter how much you tried to hold them close. Found family that becomes lost family. Found family that takes your heart with it when they go.

[minihistorian]

Found family, but like, they're just as bad (if not worse) than your biological family

[kafkaswasteddayz]

not now honey, mommy’s yearning for something that once was and will never be again

[macau1ay]

long time no henrymilla

[minihistorian]

They literally take up my entire mind

[saintalbatross]

francis abernathy and charles macaulay literally make me SICK. i can't think about them i can't think about them i can't think about them

[minihistorian]

They make me feel many emotions

[minihistorian]

My Henry and Camilla miss (I love them so much)

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A few of my favorite moments with my tsh miis

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I've been getting really into bedrotting lately, but like in a: Frank Sinatra on in the background, tea and lemon shortbread cookies, scrolling Pinterest on my laptop, windows open, cute lace underwear kinda way...

[minihistorian]

“I am laughing at the fact that you are your own worst enemy, and if you had tried, perhaps you might have succeeded.”

-Fyodor Dostoyevsky, 1848

[letsbelonelytogetherr]

— Nina LaCour via letsbelonelytogetherr

[poli000000]

"The secret history" Donna Tartt

I finished reading "The Secret History" yesterday. After Francis's phrase "When I was lying in that damn tub like Marat" (page 584). I wanted to draw him with a reference to the painting "Death of Marat"

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"Тайная история" Донна Тартт

Я закончила читать "Тайную историю" вчера. После фразы Фрэнсиса "Когда я лежал в этой чертовой ванне, как Марат" (страница 584). Я захотела нарисовать его с отсылкой на картину "Смерть Марата"

[minihistorian]

One thing I love about The Secret History, and something that I find unique about Donna Tartt's style, is: the way that each character is so uniquely recognizable and tangible, like they are genuinely there. All of the main characters in The Secret History are so fantastically out-of-this-world. Not in like a "wow, this character is perfect" kind of way, but in the way that everything they do is so accurately in character, down to their clothes, their mannerisms, the food they choose to eat, etc. They are so distinct in my mind, and seem to exude such a strong sense of self. Not that I think they are predictable; they aren't, but instead, they are so coherent in their character designs. Anyways, that's my rambling!

[chernychnyi]

favorite ghosts

[peachrtistic]

in a bundle of our warmth

i won't let anything bad happen to you

[crossroadsghoul]

"they're not gay" I don't know man, I read a masterfully written fanfic on A03 that says otherwise.

[purpurle-iris]

Being a writer is so inconvenient at times, because why does my brain drop a perfect piece of dialogue/exposition/world building explaination right as I'm about to brush my teeth?

Now I have to go rush to my phone and write it down before it's lost forever in the realm of forgotten thoughts 

Like? I wanted to brush my teeth...

[rosentryst]

so embarrassing when I like a mainstream song. i thought I was more fucked up than this