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I got hired and I cried a while ago.

I've been waiting for this! months and months before, hoping for a space in a haystack. But I got... no I grabbed this opportunity even if I am not really sure that I want it.

But weighing the past events, the present situation and the future possible plans, this opportunity is quite lucky.

I may have chosen a wrong opportunity again, but I will stand by it. I shall see what will happen next.

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davidroads

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ishanijasmin

I swear to god I’m trying, I’m trying so hard but it’s so hard to get up right now. I got up this morning and went downstairs and ate some salad my dad made last night for breakfast. I’d have poured myself cereal, but I don’t think I was able to make something. I don’t think I would have been able to mix something together and call it okay. I went back to bed and it took me four times longer than usual to get up and shower. God, I hate myself. I’m a wreck. God, I hate myself. I’m a stack of regrets with temporary enthusiasm drizzled across my face like syrup on pancakes. I went to bed. I went to bed. I went to bed at 1pm and I feel fucking useless. I am apparently in a place where I feel like I am disappointing people for being like this but I don’t know how else to be. I am in a place where going to bed justifies the rest of the day solidly turned in on myself. I do not know how to leave. I do not want to talk about this. What’d be the point in turning to you and crying, ‘I’m sinking, I’m sinking.’ when you would just point out how gracefully I’m doing it? I do not need to be told I am fine because I know that I am not fine. I know that I want to go to bed and I don’t want to wake up. I am watching myself race myself in the shallow end of a pool. I know that I’m sinking, and I know I will struggle back to the surface, but I don’t know what happens in between. I don’t know how or why I will start kicking again.

i’m sinking, i’m sinking | ishani jasmin (via ishanijasmin)

Story: I Screwed the interview

I screwed the interview.

It started out alright. I was calm, I was composed.

The first interviewer said I was "affluent" (though I really didn't know what he really meant by that, I agreed). He also squeezed out of me the word "efficient".

The second interviewer asked me three times," Do you have any more question?" and I answered back "none". I was puzzled, what should I have asked.

I felt confident, I was the last one remaining out of seven applicants. They all went home.

Then, I felt queasy.

It was 4:35 in the afternoon, I was waiting for the "final interview".

I was about to be inte rviewed.

It was the owner/president of the company.

I went blank...

....

and stttu....ttteeerrr.....

and was unfocused....

and... and.... and....

and it ended....

His assistant called me, "We'll be informing you if you will be selected until Thursday night. Thanks for dropping by." I smiled and nodded.

I turned my back, and sighed. "I will not be picked." iI said in my head.

0.001% chance.

Then went home.

Drained.

Still Hopeful for an opportunity meant for me.

_____

I have learned my lesson. I shall keep my cool and be focused next time. I got intimidated by the owner=[ I shall do my best!

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Poem: 1

What does it take to push my luck.

Am I wasting time? Am I buying time?

I am dying in this situation.

I am yearning for an answer.

Is blasphemy paying back?

Is it fate not turning to me?

Damn all creatures.

Damn all gods.

and

Damn myself for living in this cruel world where I exist.

No directions to be found, no tomorrow to be seen.

I blame all of these, because I am here as me.

#miniredavanue #poem

motivational-poster-blog

[Image] Constantly Doing What I Should; Will I Ever Do What I Want. Total motivation. - Imgur

davidroads

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Perfume - One Room Disco

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Perfume - One room Disco

One Room Disco

Disco Disco One Room Disco Disco Disco

Feels like something is missing, like living half a life Though my luggage is heavy, my mood is light I open the window, but I can only see a foreign scene I feel unsettled, but I’m sure it’ll all be enjoyable soon.

#In this new place, will everything go smoothly? After I finish cleaning the room, I’ll go do some shopping Over at the other side of the far sky, what are you thinking about? There’s no choice but to think everything is alright.

Disco Disco One Room Disco Disco Disco

Feels like something is missing, like living half a life My mood is light but I still need to watch my calories While shampooing my hair I have to close my eyes There’s no working shower, but I’m sure I’ll be used to this home soon

% In this new place, will everything go smoothly? Playing music while I make my plans, It feels like so far nothing today has been fun So I’ll just rock to the rhythm, a one room disco

Like the streets lit up so bright like daytime That it hides the starry sky So much dazzling light Is soon going to fade and disappear

(Repeat #) (Repeat %)

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One Room Disco

I am single, well ever since. I don't deny that I get lonely at times, looking for something or someone I do not have. And, to top it off I am not an expert in this area.

Sometimes I would get the feeling of an old maid, or of a mermaid in a vast sea. There are so many dreams and unknown vagueness that wrap me that I would like to find out leaving an empty space for a partner.

Love and Life was never in a paragraph. And cluelessness would leave me still clueless. I don't have much of an experience if you ask me, but I always dream of having another half. Someone to share and someone to hold.

But still, at the moment there is no one. I don't see a shadow for my future reference of my possible "significant other". But I pray that he'll be with me in my future to join me (HOPEFULLY) and my ONE ROOM DISCO to make it a dinner for two.

My Life as a ONE ROOM DISCO.

_____ Listen to Perfume's One room disco

(It's Japanese, but the meaning is great!)

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yashibrown

@artasme Thank you for summing this up for the rest of us :) #poetry #writers #poets #imagination #alterego #words #artists

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I Need You - "Divergent" Soundtrack

Exploring Sound cloud and found this. I remember it from the scene when Tris was plunging for her first zipline. Takes me to that moment.

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Dear Alterego,

I have been writing with you for quite some time with this blog. I hope you are liking it. I've been being you, giving you way, telling your stories and making your ideas. And I miss you for that.

This whole while, it was all foreign languages, destinies and dreams but I guess I should keep on going. I have limited time like my resources. Now, it has come to mo now.

We (yes, we!) shall take our focus and set a new plan. Everything is vague for me now, but I know everything will be clear soon.

I am sorry that we are in these state. I hope you will understand.

Thank you alterego for being patient.

Love,

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