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almost home

if i look back, i am lost
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@minnillelli
NO STEAMER? NO PROBLEM!!! 😅😂🤣 https://www.instagram.com/p/CBAGfgVFH-DA1YldQvJEJjYxG76QS5dJq3sh1w0/?igshid=dxphlp8qdtyt
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Nomad
For almost a year away from home, at long last I will go back! I was very excited to see my family but unfortunately, there were no welcome back preparations for me. I remember my Aunt in Florida. Whenever she comes for vacation, my family together with my aunts would be busy cleaning the house and removing every bit of dust and cobwebs. The curtains will be changed with new ones, furnitures will be rearranged, and of course there will be a room prepared for her and fresh sheets and blankets. And here I am, expecting the same, but there was nothing. It's so sad to think that you are giving their every requests. You are trying to help them in any way you can, but you are just one thing for them... an ATM. That is how I see it. They see and know you when they need you. And there is never a bit of gratitude in it. It is very hurtful to go back to a place far from your family but there is nothing more painful than going home and feeling like you are unwelcomed and not part of it....😥 So I took my things and went to my husband's family house. Of course I did not expect a warm welcome as it's not my home but atleast I have a bed and a room I can sleep in. But as usual, I feel unwelcomed by my in-law. Every move is observed and evey drop of water and dirt in the floor is like a sin.
Oblivion
I never felt so bad and taken for granted my entire life like this. One can curse at me, punch me in the face, break my leg or do anything to hurt me, but please never ever make me feel unimportant on special days like this. The agony I am enduring right now does not even amount to all the heartbreaks I had in the past. Forgetting about me and not letting me take part on occassions like this, as if I am not a significant part of this household, torments me. Not a big deal for you? Well, it is for me. You don't know the feeling, because you were never in the same situation as mine. My absence already puts me in misery, moreso that I was not even given the slightest chance to partake in this episode. You cannot and will never imagine what I am going through because you were never away from your kins, and that excludes me based on how I was meant to be treated. And you deserved every word I uttered with asperity.
Resigning like a boss
This is to formally inform you of my resignation effective January 5, 2015. In this light, I would like to have my privilege and right to use my remaining VLs and CHOs,before my effectivity date which begins on December 11, 2014 onwards which also means adjustments in your schedule. I have been a staff nurse of SLMC for 7 years and I can say that within that period I have served this institution fairly well, sacrificing my time with family. I have been given a choice to refund my unused VLs but I refused to use that option because at this point I prioritize quality time with my family as I will be away for years, and this is my only chance to be with them especially this yuletide season. A stat resignation is another pick but I put that alternative at the very least because I would want to end my term amicably. For the past years, I have seen colleagues leave with ease as I am one of the staff who give way to their last duty requests. Now that mine has come I would like to expect the same but circumstances prevent me from having it and so the creation of this letter, a requirement, as I was told. As my last contribution, I have participated in the minor revision of your timetable and it is timely that 3 of our colleagues from the BMT will be joining our unit for the rest of this month, and apparently, enough to fill my singular slot. But since the latter have a fixed schedule, additional overtimes, in some days, are unavoidable but , in my opinion, bearable. I agreed to come up with this letter not only because it is required, neither it is to beg for you to allow changes in your schedule, but to inform you beforehand of the possibilities that may take part when I leave. There will be a time in your career that you will come across the same situation, and you would not want your privilege to be withdrawn from you, then you might write a letter like this to avoid predicaments. If you agree to whatever the content of this note then you may want to affix your signature below. Finally, I would like to take this opportunity to thank everyone, from the staff to the nursing aides, for making my last duty days endurable. The past years had been fantastic, albeit the isolated issues. We all have our differences but we are one in many ways. We might not top the 'charts' but I believe, compared to others, we have touched our patient's hearts. There is nothing more fulfilling in a nurse's life than to be beside patients in the best and worst days of their lifetime. We work to serve people who have the slightest hope and with that little light we try to perk up their days, whatever their prognosis are. As oncology nurses, that is what we are. A trait like no other. Far from what others see our unit as pure administration of a chemotherapy. It was a pleasure working with you and again from the bottom of my heart, thank you. May you continue to work hand in hand as a 'team'. May you practice your rights and put yourselves and the things left behind where it should be. I wish everyone success in your future endeavors and I hope to work with you again in another time. Sincerely,
Changes
November 15, 2014 Once I leave the soil of my hometown, I guess a lot of change are going to happen. But one thing is for sure, the love I have with my daughter will still be pure and the passion I have for success will still hang in there. There is just one thing that I cannot promise, that is my responsibility as a wife. I will always keep my promise and love as a mother to my child but as a wife I think that will change a lot. I have read somewhere that if you're eyeing for a change prepare yourself for that feeling of awkwardness after, because that comes with it.
Tormented
October 14, 2014 Every day is a torment.... Why do I feel like an act of responsibility always turns out to be a debt. Your responsibility. My debt. I am with you physically but your spirit roams somewhere, far away not and never near me. They say happiness is a choice. Yes it is, but at the right timing.
Dreams Plans Aspirations
posted on Sept. 12, 2014 on FB that outraged the silent souls Sometimes when life gets hard, I think of happy thoughts. I dream of being in this place with my whole family, little cousins and aunts. A wonderful place where we can live peacefully and happily together, away from what we have now. Away from all the bitterness and negativisms. Away from all these selfish bragging bloodlines we have. Away from these helpmebutsorryiwillneverlookback mates we had and away from these people who seem fascinated to see us fall as if saying with their eyes wide open - die! As I see my mom deal with these conditions, I can see my future self. Being considered as the 'eldest', I know someday I will also become the troubleshooter and the problem solver and as early as now I am naturally training to become one. I dont always express my thoughts and aspirations and often times I get misunderstood but I want my whole family to know that I always think about them and our future together. Well let's move on. It's a long way ahead. It will be hard but I want us to stick together. Let us help pull each other up one by one, never mind that force that pull us down. Let us grab hands and reach the top. Happy days are coming.....:)
Secret Revelation Burden Bestfriend
May 16, 2015 Yesterday, one of my prayers has been answered. I prayed that I hope one day I will talk to my bestfriend and finally tell her the burden I have kept for so long in my heart. And finally yesterday I was able to tell her everything, not everything but just enough to lift my burden. I just feel blessed that little by little my prayers has been answered.
butterflies in my stomach
For the past 2 days, I felt like young again. I feel like a girl who has her first crush. I felt so young. I felt loved. I feel inspired and full of life. I dont know but this must be the effect of watching koreanovela to me. and if this is really is I recommend to every person who lacks love have a dose of koreanovelas to bring out those love hormones as if your really inlove with someone.
coma
Last night was the longest sleep I ever had. And I dream again of you. It makes me happy even if I only had a glimpse of you.
Hate
april 29 2013 I have done a lot of hating these days. I hate my so called bestfriend. She lured me into ditching the person I truly love. I feel like she did that on purpose expecting that if he's over with me she will end up with HIm. I feel bad about my husband for the same unending reasons. Ifeel the same about mom for being so envious during those times I felt wonderful. S he was one of the reasons I changed mind bec. I didnt want to prove she was right. I hate him for so many reasons: for not pursuing me, for leaving, for not talking when he had the time, for being my first love, for making my first kilig moments, for making memories that are so hard to forget bec. they are so damn memorable unforgetable and felt real, for not believing me when I told him I still love him and for saying that I just and say all of this just to be feel good, for making me believe him when he said that he can break with her just for me( and i was over him before that), for not chosing me, for telling me that He never loved me. I hate myself for still thinking and expecting a lot of things, of still hoping that in the end we will still end up with each other. I hate myself for being stubborn, lazy, and allowing myself to get fat as this.
a serious mistake
april 8 2013 Another blow....:( .. Made a serious mistake today. I said serious becoz if ur an adult and a nurse when u make amistake it is realy serious as in life threatening. I feel sad and bad even if I wasnt.the one.who gave ir but thale fact that I was the head that shift means I am still fully responsible. I am embarassed w/ our new manager. though im also greatful since she is that witty and a.fast.thinker and calm. I just fil bad.. and so ashamed of myself right now. bad so bad I canr even type the right words.
Love the one you are with (a title of a book)
jan 5 2013
I miss my family. My beautiful daughter andmy wonderful husband. They have been on vacation since December. But even though Ive been with them for days during the holidays I still miss their presence at home. Right at this moment I can say that I love my husband even though he’s not working. I dont know but whenever were apar for a long time it seems better for us because we tend to miss each other that we got excited when we see each other again. Maybe we were used to a long distance relationship that sometimes we are better off away from each other. But distance from him made me realize that somethings missing and there are things I rely to Him. Most of the things actually. I mean household things ya knaw. Hehe
Nth time
Dec 9, 2012 Today, i have requested for a friend request for the nth time. Let's wait and see....
Insanity, Obsession or a Disease?
Dec 9 2012 If you cant stop thinking of a person and cant deny the fact that it makes you feel good and bad at the same time because it makes you relieve some memories but you know it will never be possible to bring them back and it never stops and you start to pray it stops, would that be insanity, obsession or a disease?